Daily Archives: April 14, 2012

Sondra Comes Clean

sondra brittle
lies intact 
on cotton batting
after her fall

sondra brittle
lies intact
swaddled
overwhelmed 
recalling the feeling
of falling 

sondra batting away
the cotton from
her brittle lies 
is overwhelmed
seeing them
fall intact 
to the lawn

sondra cotton
lies to the lawn
with brittle tact
falls back on her 
failures and says
I fell into batty
it’s not what I wanted
but now I am 
swaddled in that

 

 


How A Poet Stops Himself From Screaming Incessantly

Half a century ago,
a fugitive miracle
of shared pleasure
brought me here.

Two strangers joined briefly in joy,
then stayed a long time together in guilt
or shared and dreaded sense of duty to have me,
though they did not want me.

Brought up to be
a good deal more ignored than wanted,
forcing myself (through a mix of overreach
and misadventure) into as many faces as I could,

I have lived a hot life of sweat and discomfort
trying to run from the accident of my birth
that they made me feel, one way or another,
each moment of each day.

Here I am, half a century later,
asking questions I was born with
with only slight changes
to accommodate the changing times:

If I am formed, how is it that
I should I not be formally acknowledged?
If I am perpetually streaming live
is that not enough to say that I by definition flow?

No matter how I affirm for myself that I matter,
I still flatter myself that one day others will agree.
That day I will try to forget
that the two who made me

never chose to see me
as little more than the regretted pleasure
that ended up meaning nothing at all
and that would not fade away.