Daily Archives: May 11, 2010

Etymology Of “Brown”

My last name
is likely derived

from the color of a swept wooden floor
or the dirt swept from it
into a pan
into the trash

from the color of shit
or the body of a dead blossom

from the color of waterlogged pilings
under a fog soaked dock

from the color of

things walked on
things discarded
things never seen

unless you’re drowning

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Combatting Despair

I do not trust
what is called “joy”
longer
than a second or two
beyond its initial arrival

or the feeling called
“despair”
for any longer than that
either

preferring instead
to poke at each in turn
until they morph into something
called
“closely watched anxiety”

which lasts and is
genuine

because I call it so
and can understand it with my head

while joy and despair
(not unfamiliar to me
but never completely welcome)
being more emotions of the marrow

are too bone deep
and beyond thought
to be trusted
to endure

the joy may leak free and leave me in despair
the despair may freeze in there
and still me

thus leaving me either way
in despair
too deep to break apart

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Mythology (draft)

1.
always

in the beginning
a presupposed entity
sees
unity
that must be
broken:

light/dark, water/mud

then after comes
life-spark:  sometimes
all at once, plant/animal/human;
sometimes an ordinal hierarchy
develops

there must be a rebellion then

there must be some trickster
to lead rebellion

at some point
there must thus be a war
between the beings of the myth
and those who are not of the myth
and some great secret forbidden
or treasure withheld
and thus there must be
a journey to seek it

thus a hero also
who must lose in victory

there must be some conquest whole or partial
of death itself

this becomes central to the subsequent story

and eventual foretelling
of an end time
and rebirth

for the chosen
and not the others

2.
by sorting among the various
repetitions and themes
a clear eyed bigot
can justify any belief
secure in the knowledge
that it will resonate for at least
one other

thus recreating their simple world
under the shade of mythology

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