If this brain softens
any more than it already has
I might have to open my head,
pull it out and lay it out
to dry and re-harden in full sun.
But how to put it back in after
once it’s cooked right?
That’s the kicker.
It would surely take
a shotgun or a hard fall
to get this big bean open
and putting it all back together
and locking it back up after
looks like it would be
its own special hell.
So maybe
as my brain softens
and it becomes harder for me
to concentrate and recall
and speak, I should just accept
this process as inevitable? I don’t
want to. I’m not ready yet.
Some remaining bit of firmware
locked up in the mush is protesting
on my behalf even as I begin
to sink into that plush forgetting.
Mostly, I don’t want to lose
how I feel when I see
your face.
Please — let that
be the last thing to go.
Let that
remain a diamond till the end.
