We give you now
a self professed
freedom fighter
safe at rest
Who fell asleep
on a bed of stars
Awoke cocooned
in hardened scars
Then wore them like
a pale thick stole
Proclaimed them each
as more than royal
Presented them
as proof of purity
A broken frame
An insecurity
which led them to grow
a heart of bombs
to excavate
graves and tombs
in which to bury
the unfortunate collateral
casualties of ideologues
just as they are
a self-confessed
vigilante blessed
with peace
in knowing
they are already gone
Tag Archives: political poems
Lone Wolf
Congressional Record
In a government built for and by men and only men the most honor will be given to those whose eyes mist over with bland depravity, the ones who will square their shoulders and sigh, "Well, nothing else to be done here," then send soldiers and bombers off to do bloody dirt they would not do with their own hands.
With their own hands they will sign orders for murder squads, then go home to families, trot babies on their knees till bedtime when they will hand them back to women and go sit in their dark studies wondering what will emerge tomorrow morning from the beige fog of incremental catastrophe in which they live and breathe.
They live and breathe for this distance from their kills as if they've developed a taste for the news of how children's bodies were churned by explosives, how the targets ran screaming, how the pushpins then were moved around their maps as a result, their eyes misting over with bland depravity, their lust for other lives twisting within them as they vote, as they argue and deal, as they campaign, as they square their shoulders and say, "So much more to be done, may we have your vote?"
Shining City On A Hill
It is as broken as Troy
or Fukushima.
As crumbled as numberless cities
still unfound and unnamed.
No beauty to it now
as if it were Atlantis
sill thriving under pressure and
without light. If it is even real,
it is no longer within
our reach if it ever was.
Do you hate this lament for it? I do.
I longed for it as we all did.
Embarrassed now to say that
I once sang of how it could be found,
entered, made into a home,
but it was bait. It was only
lure, only decoy. While I chased it
it slipped away and something different rose
on its site that stank of whitened bones
and old massacres. I looked for it
on a hill while they built it
in a charnel trench. They knew me
well enough to know how I could be
fooled, and I was so fooled. My song for
the city became a scream, a death metal
horn of rage. My angle on the angles
of the buildings and roads turned sharp
and bloody. It became impossible
to inhabit my body and say it belonged there.
It’s just a nowhere form. It’s a frame for loss.
They keep building their city, marketing Troy,
tell us to keep praying to the ghosts of Fukushima.
They insist Atlantis will reveal itself,
rise from the nuclear waves if I will just wait.
That city I see them drawing up from the waves?
Not Atlantis, but R’lyeh, and yes, they always knew.
You’re A Bad Boy
You’re a bad boy. You stay up well after midnight
to plan society’s future.
It’s easy enough. Just decide
what will terrify them
into their next inevitable dumb move;
then go make that happen.
Will they be more motivated by the acts of
their neighbors, or by the acts
of what they call “God?”
Or a stew of both — a storm drawn forth
from capitalism, a war clause invoked
over failing, stolen aquifers? Anything might do it.
It’s that close. How to make it happen
is the question that keeps you up.
You could just go out into the dark,
lie back in a dry field and pray for rain, or fire.
You could process and process the news
seeking the keys to the machinery
that makes such things happen, find tiny clues
or fake clues to their whereabouts, decide
for or against their veracity, exhaust yourself
in conspiracy, then die convinced in thick fog.
All you have to do, you realize, is go back to sleep.
Inaction is as powerful an agenda as anything else.
It might be dawn somewhere in the world
but you’re an American and all you have to do
to make the future happen is stay the night’s course
and go back to sleep. All you have to do
to wreck shit is be American.
Go do that, you bad boy. Make that happen.
Acoma
Awakened at four twelve AM it’s all you’ve got
in the silent New England house:
the memory of being the driver
of the sole car
speeding west on a night highway,
speeding west from Albuquerque.
Tonight this memory
of the drive toward Acoma
is giving back a soul
you’d thought you’d lost years ago
from listening
to your boss insisting
that she knew better than you
how to pronounce the name of a place
she’d been to exactly
once on vacation. “Are you sure
it’s not a long O? It’s
Ah-CO-mah, I’m certain. Are you sure?”
“Maybe I’m wrong,” you said then.
But you weren’t.
Pronounce it in your head:
“AH-cuh-muh. AH-cuh-muh.” Acoma.
You were sure. Sure then, sure now.
Certain of the Sky City
still being there, ahead,
out there west of you off this shining road,
under this saving path
of stars, you say its name to yourself.
It wasn’t her speaking that took your soul.
It was your silence. “Acoma, I’m sorry,”
you say out loud
in the New England house.
Nothing feels like home tonight
except that name.
That Brick
I am swarmed with the absolutes
whenever I sit with this world — nothing,
nowhere, everything, everyone.
Sit, trying to see details,
trying to examine the particulars
that vanish in the wash of
outraged experience. The older I get,
the more I am drowned in absolutes,
the more I extrapolate from
that brick on the sidewalk, most likely
left over from some long-abandoned
project, kicking around here
for so long I can’t recall
its first appearance. I fantasize
it’s a leftover not of building
but of destruction, a leftover
of streetfight, revolt, of windows smashing
in defiance of landlord and overlord —
fall headlong into
nothing, nowhere,
everything, everyone —
and there I am again, out in the world.
Far away from the brick on the sidewalk
in front of my house. The one
I have kicked aside for years
and never picked up. Never looked at,
not much anyway.
Never tried to build
or break a thing with it.
It’s just a prop for my immersion
in the absolutes of theory
and what I ought to be doing
with this art, this life.
I should be ashamed
that I have never
lifted that brick myself, stopping
to notice the specifics of any concrete
adhering to the sides. The discoloration,
the pitting. The weight.
I ought to have known its particulars
before deciding if it was to become
weapon or poem.
What Sondra Said
I’ve been told my whole life
I was born to the throne.
Instructed toward ownership.
Forced to trust in my own authority,
however lightly I carried it,
however little I wanted it.
Grew to reject it,
to surrender my place,
or so I thought. Sondra,
though — Sondra tore
the veil when she said,
“I am a woman, born
and built for sedition,”
and instead of agreeing,
something moved in me
and behind it, I glimpsed fear
and resistance
and only behind that was the face
I knew was my own true face,
and it looked free,
and not at all like the one
I call my own.
Leave It
An old show about an old story.
You know who wrote it.
You say you’ve never seen it?
That’s because you’re in it.
It’s been the same basic plot
from the start: eventually everyone
becomes either silent, dead,
or Ward and June.
Beaver and Wally? As long as they sell,
sell, sell and buy, buy, buy, it’s all good.
A hard hat for Lumpy. For Eddie Haskell?
A badge and a gun.
Except for June, they don’t need
named or memorable women, and as for
everyone else unseen it’s already
been discussed –silent, or dead.
You say you want to change the channel?
June looks worried. Ward puts down his pipe
and takes off his belt. Wally makes himself
scarce, Beaver waits in his room. Eddie grins,
and nobody gives a fuck about Lumpy.
Actors Unprepared
Imagine them told not to play
the only roles they understand.
Imagine them not having a script.
Nakedly standing there
without uniform or costume; understand
that they’ve been told to improvise,
that the play they’ve always played
is being shuttered.
They are just going to stand there
or grab a chair and sit down,
bury their heads in their hands or
pretend there is sand
and put their heads there.
More than a few
will grab props and lash out
with knives, guns, clubs: whatever
they can remember has worked
in the past to advance the action.
Poor things. Can’t say
that I blame them entirely,
or do not understand. Not every actor
develops a pure agency after having lived
as another’s dirty agent for a lifetime.
It doesn’t mean
we don’t still need them
to be swept from the stage
as soon as possible so we can
bring that curtain down
now. Not in due time,
not in a generation.
Now. Not eventually. Now.
Cookout Blues
A song is playing loudly
in the neighborhood, a song
you can’t stand hearing,
another person’s favorite song.
You worship at the altar of curation.
You can’t fathom why
they can’t use earbuds
to keep their atrocious taste to themselves,
dammit. This is America. You have
the right to be unbothered by
the presence of others. You have the right
not to find out who is who
through their music. Their food smells
good, though. If it were over here
you’d try it. But the music — the music’s
all wrong. It ought to be unheard,
and while we’re at it, they’re pretty loud
themselves. Too loud. This is America.
You have the right to call someone
and get them to do something about this.
You have the right not to know
one damn thing about the people
who lives up the damn block.
That’s why you bought the earbuds
in the first place. That’s the whole point
of a curated playlist. That’s the reason they invented
noise cancellation. You have the right
never to hear another voice as long as you live.
Method
there are no small parts
only small actors
he told himself
as he slipped into
the cemetery with
a can of spray paint
after midnight
there are no small parts
only small actors
as he hung
a blasphemous flag
outside his home
no small parts
only small actors
as he chose
a sticker for
his bumper
small parts
chose a gun
small actor
chose a stage
no small actors
actors in the background
who move with purpose
advance the action
no small parts
no small actors
he told himself
The Tree
Every time someone
tells the story
of a routine atrocity or
an ongoing oppression
on a big enough
and well-lit stage,
someone watching or listening
will wring their hands
and fall to their knees in anguish,
crying out, “why is no one
talking about this?”
so loudly that it drowns out
the creaking
from the death-laden branch
of the well-maintained
and perfectly manicured tree
in their backyard,
the one that came with the house,
the one that sold them on the place
back when they were looking for
their forever home.
No Excuses
I wake up at last, sweaty and deadly.
All the specifics of my big bad dreaming
have been erased, but I know it was all focused
on what I will do or will not do for
my own satisfaction.
Ancient, Biblical, archetypal;
clothed in the flushed skin of my history,
choking on fragments of mythology’s
crude dictates: I don’t kid myself
into some sense of personal nobility.
Not after that. Not after the angry
and wanton night-swamp
I just waded through that has left me
drenched in stink and horrible to behold.
This is a shamefaced confession,
not a boast: if I had been an apple,
if I had been The Apple in The Garden,
I suspect I’d have fallen into her hand and left her
with no choice but to bite down and learn.
There would have been no coaxing,
only coercion. I know this because
as beastly as it is to say it,
there has never been any need
for demons to make it happen,
to turn a man toward Evil. A whole
order of civilization, a machine
of enforcement, has made this happen,
and this morning I rise and swear to do my best
to shower, cleanse myself of it as best as I can,
scrub off the long wet dream of domination,
and forget about looking for a snake
as an excuse for my being a serpent.
big wind
big wind
coming through with
built in tilt
its source in impure lust for
knocking things down
it thinks are in its way
refuses
to call itself
a hard wind
instead calls itself
a nation of civility
with a civil society
its civil society is not civil
no matter what it says
it screams in the big wind’s favor
civility here means talk nice or
we will blow you over
talk nice or be unheard
either way no one
will hear you
as long as the big wind blows
civility is
no weapon
against such a storm as that
to be heard over
a tornado inside
a hurricane
you had better
be prepared
to scream
and to grab that big wind
by its throat
when it bears down
and to set your mouth
and teeth
upon its ear
Running Is A Lifestyle
You were there, seated on the low wall,
breathing hard after running. Recovering.
I was there too, though we did not speak.
Both of us had just finished running from
what had chased us. Were we done or just
taking a moment? We never spoke. Our eyes
never met. If we had taken a moment there
we might have learned something, gained
a little time, made a plan to fight back. Might
have stopped, been able to settle, been able
to put down actual roots. Instead we were
caught up in recovery, preparing for
more running and more attempts to escape
and live. This is how it works, how it was
always designed to work. This is how we’ve come
to call this living. It never lets up and
we never learn how many of us there are
running away from the same thing.
