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Highway Graves

New Poem.

Highway signs that
flash and warn

“LAST EXIT ON HIGHWAY”
and

“HIGHWAY ENDS 1500 FEET”

thrill me

Beyond that last turnoff always
a wall
a barrier of yellow and black boards
some mound of untended concrete 
gone to brush
saying

here is where it all ends

It intended to go further
but exhausted it stopped

You should too or
take that last turn if
you insist upon continuing

People say the road goes on and on
always on and on
You can go forever if you want
Keep turning off and you’ll never stop

When they say that
it just makes me even more
want to crash into those highway graves
just to prove
a point about the desirability 
of limits
and satisfaction
to offer a definition of 
far enough

There I’d rest

without regret for that last missed exit
and filled in my last moment with joy at avoiding
the collapse within me (had I turned)
upon seeing more road ahead
and more of the unrelenting boredom of
endless gray below me
above me
and within


Brown Heart

New Poem.

brown heart

color of august
arms race
sweat singers

try not to think about this too hard:
did you want love? did you come here
for love? did you expect 
love?

sorry
brown heart

but love’s not

here — white heart’s broken
today 
sad face can offer you nothing
today
sorry

white heart broken
in westside bin
by garage door
wedged open so
breath and air
get out and in
sorry it says
SORRY
at least I
sly and shaky
stay alive this way
SORRY
no time for you
brown heart

today nothing
from white broken heart
for brown heart

love is
not there ever
brown heart
no matter
its stolen beats
and its claims
to love you
white heart is never more than
guardedly there
and never there
for you at all

love you
brown heart
that’s your song
you love you
you love you
for white heart knows
the same song too
you love you
you love you

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Want to hear it as a recording with guitar?  


Blues

Originally posted 12/19/2012; original title, “Blue Sex.”

This early,
this warm.
This dark
singing,
a tangled
blues;

lemon squeezing, starter mashing,
rolling, tumbling,
juice runs down our legs blues;
“can’t be satisfied — ” 
challenge, not lament;

slide ice cube
stinging it,
gliding it
fast between mouths 
and bellies;

sun will barge in
soon enough — 
how humid it’ll smell then,
our hair torn up along with the room,
‘Sweet Home Chicago” in the background.

No matter how Mississippi 
it gets in here
this warm,
this early,
this dark,

we always end up
asking each other,
“baby —
baby don’t you
wanna go?”


It Is Wartime Now

New Poem.

“We have, for the first time in a number of years, become a ‘wartime’ Police Department…We will act accordingly.”
– from an NYPD internal email, Dec. 2014.

It is wartime now,
exclaims the badged blue army.
We stand up. We hear:

it is wartime now,
wartime — as if before this,
they were not at war.

It is wartime now,
as it has been for more years
than there’s been a flag.

It is wartime now.
They want to call us killers.
We will not be moved.

It is wartime now —
our weapons are the strong tongue
and the sharpened eye.

It is wartime now —
smokescreens, deceit, far flung lies;
what we say cuts through:

wartime now?  Let us
see how that differs from how
we’ve lived until now.


Solstice (Empty)

New poem.

I wish I had
a forest inside me
speaking only
through leaves and wind,
but I do not.

I wish
the whistle and squeak
of the branches
rubbing together
had been my only
soundtrack from birth,
but it was not.

If only I’d been
filled with ocean
or cave-song
or the howl
of blizzards
in far mountains,
but I was not; instead

I am today as empty
and as silent within
as I have always been,
as always
am waiting
for my own song
to rise from that void

and fill me
and the air
and the sky
and the rest
of this whole 
damned world.

 


Crossing The Bridge

New Poem.

May it be said of us
when the time comes to write history
that we crossed the bridge
we were faced with.  We crossed it

though it was not the bridge
we’d hoped for — not the genteel arch
over a clean and narrow stream
with little but discomfort to face if we fell from it,

and not the steel artifact of a golden past
teeming with millions crossing it with us;
for us instead that archetype of peril,
swaying and crumbling one slat at a time,

with so many working to kill us as we crossed,
bullets pealing like bells as they struck
the stone all around us. May it be said of us 
that we never turned our gaze

from the other side to the drop below;
that we held onto each other all the way over
and clung as long as we could to those who fell
along the way, and that when we were across we turned

to the task of putting a better bridge
where the rotten one once had hung.
May it be said of us when we are gone
that we did it the way
it should always be done.


Dust Storm

Originally posted 2/11/2012.

the distraught parents
don’t know what to do

their children
have fallen in love
with dust storms

they reach for a bible story
with which to chastise them

god is coming soon
come in
out of the grit

but the kids
otherwise enthralled

aren’t waiting for a tardy god

they start a faith
based on watching the wind
bore holes in rock

with a gospel
of how sand
gets into everything
without trying


Grief In The Smell Of Brass

Originally posted 3/31/2011. Original title, “Chastisement.”

First time you noticed
that 
brass smells of dirty fingers and ozone
was the day you learned your mother had died.

The keys were in the hand
you bunched up to your face
upon hearing the news.

You could smell and taste them
mingled 
with tears and dust from the oak table

upon which you laid your head to weep.

These days you dust the furniture frequently
and whenever you handle your keys
you wash your hands right after.

It’s been years
since you thought about
that day.


Shuggie Otis Sunday

Originally posted 10/12/2008; original title, “Hearing Slapbak On A Sunday.”

Invitation to Sparkle City.
The bass a friendly hand opening the door.
The groove shuffling me along to comfort
with a shout to someone unseen
to break out sweet tea and a good meal. 

It’s not much — no,
it’s everything. It’s church
softer than any formal pew,
warming me top to bottom 
on no more 
than an ember. 
Big pillow for a sad head,

holding me like a cradle I never had;
this is no offer I can ever refuse.


The Next Country

Originally posted on 4/29/2013;  original title, “The Unimagined Country.”

Yet-to-be-fully-imagined
next country,

country where we let our own blood
into the garden soil to feed it,

where we sing in our own tongues in the front yards
and kneel silently in the back yards

under the open sky, seeking
guidance or a little rain;

country yet to be founded,
already rich and storied,

abandoned, rediscovered,
abandoned and found again and again;

country, not nation, not state;
country, not homeland, not seat of empire.

Country yet to be ours, country
ours to define — country

for us to defend against the poisons
of borders, flags, anthems, suspicions.

When we come to that country
we’ll look into each other’s eyes

and we’ll know what to name it 
without a single politician’s speech.

We’ll know how to run it
without a single task force.

We’ll know how to love it
without a single weapon.

We’ll know we’ve truly settled there
when we look into each other’s eyes

and see a neighbor, a cousin,
or a self, no matter what else we see.


German

Originally posted 7/3/2006.

We don’t recognize the tall old man
who asks if he can be on the list.
After he signs up at number four,
he sits in the far corner, alone,
speaking to no one.

When his turn comes he announces
that the poem 
he’ll be reading
is a gift from the ancient ones
unveiling the dangers of the coming
ultrafascism. 

He begins in German
and if he could speak German
at anything more than a freshman level
we might find less menace to his voice.

We catch snips of words
and phrases, some in English:

holy war,
Taliban,
Allah,
Jehovah,
Freemasons,
KGB.

We shift in our seats
when he reaches
under his shirt. Nothing is forthcoming
but no one 
relaxes.

His voice rises to a near shout,
concludes 
with English:
“man cannot destroy
the earth, for he is of the earth.”
When he is done we applaud, as always — 

looking around to see
who else is applauding,
who sees us applauding,
who is sitting unmoved
and unmoving.

This room full of smart people is terrified by — what?
A stranger reading a bad poem in halting German
and disreputable English?  The potential for d
eath by a stereotype
of mental illness or fanaticism?  The invasion
of our comfortable bubble? A secret thrill
of guilty agreement?  Or is it how
his elementary cadence just 
marched
uninflected 
over art
straight out of history and into
our best knowledge of how evil
is supposed to sound?


Looming

New poem.

The blessing 
I’ve awaited is 
not yet in sight

but there is
a promise of it
in a shadow ahead of us.

I shall not
rush toward it.
Instead,

let’s see what birds
come toward us
from that potential home,

let’s see what the sea
offers us 
as we tack closer,

let’s feel something
like hope and regret 
co-mingled

until we are ready to land
and shift from past and future 
into present.

I have waited this long
to see it looming there;
so little time to wait now,

so little to fear now
as we approach, and I will not
speak for all of us

but I will say that
I am curious enough
for all of us. Lend me your eyes,

lend me your ears
if you are afraid;
lend me all your senses.

I can take it all on for you 
if it will ease 
your remaining way.


When He Broke Us

Originally posted 7/28/2013.

When He nearly broke us
on a knee and a treaty
our mystery belonging broke

Our knowledge of stone’s tongue broke

Our river dreaming broke

The river bed opened
and drained itself down
to bones

When He nearly broke us
on a promise and a prayer

we ended  — almost
Couldn’t speak to each other
After war came famine and
our children were taken
They returned much later looking more
like Him
Had no tongue to use with us
Who were we then
without them 

but when He cracked us

He did not finish it

We found glue among little stones
We found our old words there
We saw old life in new seams

When He cracked us

we saw his self capitalization at last
for what it was
and gently took it from his hands

When he cracked us
he cracked himself

He tried to wear our clothes
They fell from him

He tried to steal our names
We called them back to us

His children learned to see him
as unnaturally starved
despite leaning toward obese

They say they feel bad about when he broke us
Little breakers feeling sad in fancy hats
they don’t see as stolen property

They keep banging at us and calling it a tribute
Their hammers ring just as loud 
as when their fathers first cracked us
as when we first stood up to it
as when we first became unbreakable

and the singers
and the dancers
and the drums
our drums
drown their hammering 
in the renewed flood 
of our river dreaming


What You Call Me In Daylight I Call Myself In The Dark

Originally posted 2/24/2012.
Original title, “The Names You Call Us.”

Whatever you decide about how we should look
is how we look to you.

Whatever you decide you can somewhat pronounce
is what we are supposed to call ourselves.

You pick a petal and call it a flower
as if calling out a part conjured the whole,

as if naming a peak
described the range — 

Pike’s Peak for the Rockies,
Mount Rushmore for the Black Hills.

What should I be called?
Should I let you buy me a collar

with “half-breed”
or “wanna-be” on a tag?

Should I shelve
everything I have lived through

so I can sit in your easy box and beam up at you
with your pink bow on my head?

Should I stop cursing you under my breath
when you aren’t listening?

Perhaps I should speak up knowing
none of it will matter much to you

as I seem to fit in this world
without really trying — no surprise,

I was taught how to try
from the day I was born.

In the dark I echo you,
calling myself lost, traitor, hypocrite,

but not for the same reasons you give.
I do it because I know I have had to give up

one half of all my contradictions
every time I have tried to fit in.

Call me the wrong name, call me
the wrong kind, call me wrong simply for being;

all of the names you call me in the dark,
or when my back is turned,

are names I have called myself.
Y
ou needn’t keep trying to kill me

with your words. I have already
done so much of the job

that I don’t know my real name,
what it means,

or how it might have kept me alive
in a different time.


Play Guitar In Five Easy Steps!

Originally posted 12/11/2012.

“he didn’t leave much to ma and me just this old guitar and an empty bottle of booze”   — s. silverstein

if you thought it was written by Johnny Cash
you are forgiven a little

if you thought he was telling the truth 
you are forgiven a little more

if you hate your name too and all you have to fight it with
is your missing bad ass dad’s old guitar

you are not only forgiven everything
you are blessed

and you should forgive me
for everything I am about to say

“they’re dead wrong I know they are cause I can play this here guitar”  — weill, mann, lieber & stoller

marvel at how it took four people
to write one line

about a truth every 16 year old
with a death grip on a maple neck

learns by osmosis
from the first chord

“well I got this guitar and I learned how to make it talk”  — b. springsteen

interrogate your guitar till it owns up
to things you have never done

“the bitter comes out better on a stolen guitar”  — d. bowie

you tell me: if you’ve not yet stolen a guitar
have we even seen your bitter

“your guitar it sounds so sweet and clear but you’re not really here it’s just the radio”  l. russell

dream yourself into being a ghost superstar
by dint of broadcast ominpresence

but even the superstars will tell you
that in fact

in truth and real life
we end up most often alone

in a small room with wood and wire 
pen paper bone pain and joy

this is
what that thing does to you

welcome and
don’t say you weren’t warned