The apostrophe,
growing desperate
at the state of affairs,
has fled.
Welcome to this new world; speak clearly,
be clear on who owns what.
If we get it right, someday
we’ll barely miss the apostrophe.
The apostrophe,
growing desperate
at the state of affairs,
has fled.
Welcome to this new world; speak clearly,
be clear on who owns what.
If we get it right, someday
we’ll barely miss the apostrophe.
More than once I have seen the world
in a face.
More than once I have twirled the world
on the tip of my ring finger.
As it spun the world changed
from a face to a bonfire.
The eyes in the fire
continued to spin.
Small though it was
it still had the gravity of the world.
I fell into the fire
poised for a kiss.
I am falling still
again and again.
I fall and am burned
then I come back and tell the story.
It seems I can’t say enough
about this.
Not in five minutes.
Not in three hours.
Not in the remaining years I have
will I be able to say enough.
Eyes burning, perhaps from wind
through open window,
eighty miles an hour
past the power plant.
Cars peel off behind me,
exiting until the highway’s
empty. No one
is going my way.
The city,
still forty miles ahead,
painting the sky orange
over deepest black.
We’ve been hearing
rumors of riot and fire all day.
It’s the end of the world, some say.
But no one wants proof,
it seems, except me.
How foolish, how
odd that is — how can you
just curl into a ball and die
or hide in the boondocks
without seeing for yourself
that it is indeed the world ending?
In fact, how can you even flee
such a thing when you consider
the world we’re in? Maybe
that’s the best of all possible
pyres up ahead.
I gun it. I go.
I’ve always been the one
who has to know. Stuck my fingers
into wounds once to prove to myself
that the world wasn’t ending
after all, so why wouldn’t I
do this considering how well
it worked out last time?
homeless stories
float the streets
looking for a tongue
to tell them.
you’re passed out on the couch,
though, television on,
with your mouth closed
for once.
when you don’t wake up
they go on to the next house,
the next street, the next town.
someone will open the door
eventually, and make them
into shows you can watch
at night before you fall asleep.
aren’t you chastened now
that you weren’t awake?
you could have avoided
wasting time later on
passing out on the couch
with a vague sense of envy
for those who give you
such marvelous
second hand tales.
A good Sunday morning:
cold eggs,
cold bacon,
cold hashbrowns,
cold coffee;
pajamas
discarded
in the bedroom doorway.
Sipping fine coffee with an old friend; talking,
new ideas pop up —
frog eyes emerging from behind the lilypads
of a long-neglected pond.
I can’t wait for
their deep singing to begin…
the music of the moment,
or maybe it will be made to last;
either way, I’ve not been near this water
in far too long.
When you watch a real person die it’s rather unremarkable, or it can be.
It can be slow and drive you to a feeling like impatience but less self-centered.
It can be counting breaths per minute and saying is that it? was that it? no, not yet.
It can be wondering if it’s always this boring to say goodbye.
It can be wondering if you said goodbye before the slipping had progressed too far.
Did the goodbye take, as if its envelope had not been sealed and it had slipped out?
You search the floor with one eye for it, even as the last breath goes pillowy out the door.
Of course for variety there are the violent and sudden deaths which are not boring.
Really, how many of those do you really see, depending of course on your residence?
We shouldn’t count the theater deaths of media in considering this.
But seriously, how many?
Admit it, there was one, wasn’t there?
Maybe two?
A car crash you couldn’t take your eye from?
A knifing that you happened upon and looked away from?
Maybe one you had a hand in?
It has certainly most likely not been a huge number in any case.
Unless, perhaps, you were a soldier?
Were there so many then that you were bored even with those?
You may be now a expert, an aficonado, of these things.
You may understand many, many flavors.
Perhaps you’ve watched one of those boring, long deaths since?
Perhaps you said as no one but you watched that expiration,
“Go, then…Easy…There you go.”
in a brand new episode
of television’s latest show
about picking through visions
abandoned by the newly strapped
a pair of businessmen purchase
a half-restored Harley-Davidson
with a Wild One era frame
and a brand new engine
if you want to talk America
you can’t go wrong
waxing lyrical over an old softail
coupled to something sleek
and easy to tweak
that was left for the vultures to pick
the whole affair’s broadcast
for your amusement
to buffer your worry
onward then
with your own dreams
of a highway
laid out before you
all yours
after your own big score
I am occupying
your empty house
on your city’s south side
I am occupying
the seashell collection
you left behind
Occupying the mold
that’s creeping over
the saturated walls
the photo albums
from the ski trip and
the junior prom
I am occupying
the leftovers
of the feast
Occupying the soggy lawn
that was overgrown
before winter
and is now pressed flat
from the weight of snow
I am occupying
the weight of emptiness
that moved in when you left
and the footsteps you left behind
I am occupied
with the state of mind of those
who moved you out
I am occupied
with their justification
through seven deadly sins
seven cardinal virtues
seven Roman candles
seven seals and seven stars
a percentage of the gross profits
a fraction of fractionalized effort
the portion rendered
unto Caesar
and the remnant offered
unto God
by the purple robed emissaries
of the King
and all of these are empty
as all the ruined houses
that were once homes
I am occupying the Everywhere
of the New Battleground
Staring into the orange eye
of Monolith
as it claims
it is anything but
Monolith
If I am rejected
forced out or sold out
pushed to the margins
there are always
the foundation cracks
to be occupied
pushed upon
frozen open with water
and blood
made into chasms
wide enough for you
to shelter in
as Monolith
shatters
Everybody wants
the Indians to leave
When you go, the sporting set says,
leave us your names
so we can go back to naming
our teams after you (such an honor)
When you go, the hippies say,
leave us the feathers sweat lodges and symbolism
so we can go back to using them
without your nagging
When you go, the liberals say,
leave us the wisdom of how to clean
a dirty environment — oh,
and thanks for the proper dose of guilt
When you go, the conservatives say,
just go go on
go on and get gone
Leave the casinos and minerals and go
When you go, says the ghost of John Wayne,
take me with you
Everyone’s forgotten both of us
I’ll be good this time
When you go, says the ghost of Jim Morrison,
don’t fucking leave me here on the highway
just because I made the story up
Do you know what I did for you people?
When you go, say the ghosts of the Pilgrims,
please take all the cardboard crepe paper turkeys
and cutouts of those ridiculous hats and feathers
I think now that we understand mythmaking
that you should have let us starve
Everybody wants
the Indians to leave
but not before they learn
to call themselves “Native-Americans”
so everybody can believe again
in the healing dismissive power
of the hyphen
I’ve got a poem, “Awake,” in the new issue of Amethyst Arsenic!
Also includes poetry by Kristine Ong Muslim, Alexander Nemser, Tara Skurtu, Jade Sylvan, Michael Fitzgerald, Karen Locascio, Mangesh Naik, and more. Featuring artwork from Fred Byrd and Merlin Flower.
Happy Thanksgiving!
You’ve been proclaimed
one of that ilk,
the Big Ilk. The sucklers
of The Even Bigger Ilk’s
poison milk who then
soak smaller ilk
with whatever stings.
You’re in all the pictures now.
You’re in all the pictures
you weren’t even alive
to be in.
In fact,
no one knows what you were thinking
when you walked
against the talk
with the bottle in your hand
as casually as you might at home,
fogging your hedge against wasps.
You’re of that ilk now —
the ones who walk
the talk, even if it’s not
their talk. Even if
you had a smidge
of heart for the ones
you soaked.
I imagine you at home
not watching the news.
Maybe you take a walk.
Maybe you talk
to the neighbors. Maybe
they clap you on the back.
Maybe they stand back.
Maybe you go home
and sit for a while
not talking. Maybe
you’re just fine, maybe
your eyes well up.
In the pictures
you’re so
matter-of-fact. So
just do it, so
army of one, so
thin blue line —
maybe at home
you’re someone else,
but you’ll forever be
one of that ilk
in the pictures.
I picture this —
a walk where you don’t
fire, their talk
ignored. No ire
and thus no pictures.
No knowledge, even,
of your name.
Maybe that’s
what you think about too
while you’re sitting in the dark.
Just wanted to thank all the new subscribers who’ve signed on to follow the blog lately. There’s been a MESS of ya! Thanks for the support and hope you continue to read “Dark Matter.”
Tony
Everything currently going on
has always been going on
What happens on the Silk Road
has never stayed on the Silk Road
What happened on Potosi
is still happening on Potosi and in Boston
and East Willowdale and Basra too
What happens is always happening everywhere
There’s never been a deus ex machina
that didn’t have a machinist behind it
Everything going on right now
has always been going on
There have always been
palaces and shackles
There has always been
a remembered/imagined wilderness
as a source for cautionary taletelling
Everything is the moment as always
No wars fought for untested reasons
No poverty not impressed from above
Everything going on is always going on
Every moment a syllable of a common language
All that’s new is that we can see it all now
as one moment
which is why it’s so hard to see it
as one moment — we have no practice in that
and it’s why we’re sitting relatively still
and quiet as the moment surges along
observing the entire Flood at once
and hoping we maintain our sanity
The revolution proceeds
in sunlight
and morning cold.
Its exhaled cloud
is rising freely while mine,
condensing indoors, costs me dearly.
I’d consider losing
more than a few coins
and heartbeats
for the wherewithal
to get out there
into the open air
where the action is.
But instead I’m here
because I have to be.
I tell myself if I can hold my breath a while,
something will change;
the bills will shrink, the accounts
will swell. I’ll get out
from under the weight of
hermitage and shackles.
But that’s just more
wasted breath. A revolution
underway, and despite the slogans
I’m not a part of it, of them;
I’ve got a feeling
I never will be. So I exhale
and bend back to the tasks
at hand, the minute torture
of getting by,
wishing the revolution’s air
would sweep in
and clear this stale room.