Monthly Archives: September 2026

Contrary

in old parlance from
the west,
lakota called you
heyoka
and apache called you
libaye;
nowadays
people don’t call you
anything but
you’ve always known
your spot and
sometimes you whisper
a name for it
and then forget it
right away;
you haven’t slept a
comfortable wink since.
you toss and turn all night;
the gods, as always,
wait to delight in you —
that is, if you are quiet
and respectful
around them —
sadly, you can’t be that.
maybe it’s too much
or not enough.
either way,
you feel messy while you
wait to learn your name
from whatever
comes along.

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onward,
T



Chiaroscuro

Almost
a blizzard; light following
dark, dark following light;
shadows after bright after
shadows. Interplay
of blinding then dimming
then nuanced then black,
and back to nuanced and then
to gray, to blinding.

A painter
growls at his canvas and flings
his brush away — cannot
get it right; it’s all too much.

Goes
to drinking, goes to
whoring in dark rooms and
closes his eyes, his false eyes,
against a woman’s touch.

Almost
a storm; light following dark
into nuance into blinding and back;
he loses himself in it. It is nearly
sacred. He cannot tell anyone.

If
it gets worse, if he fails at capturing
it, he might switch to music or poetry,
even. Why not — every art
has its problems, its great
obscurities. Maybe he will take up
politics or become a man
of consequence, once he gets
an interplay just right; once he understands
a meaning of it.

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onward,
T


Leather Chair

To sit once again in my leather chair;
all I want is to sit in my leather chair.

It was modern, squared off on all sides;
sat in the living room, surrounded
by piles of junk.

I got it for a song
at a local furniture store.

Sat in it for years
then abandoned it when I fled
the piles of junk, ashamed of
what it had become:

a throne of sorts,
chocolate brown, cushions crushed by
my heavy, desperate weight.

Went back for it and threw it away
years later, threw it away with a pang,
threw it away in a filthy dumpster
and wiped my hands of it and thought
no more about it until
today.

Now I’m sitting
in a different chair, in a distant house;
one hundred and fifteen pounds lighter;
numbed to my legs, almost but not quite
paralyzed; still the same person
nonetheless.

I wish I had
my leather chair back —

and you know, this time I’d cherish it
so much more than I used to
back when it was surrounded by trash
and falling apart, stained and ruined
by my heavy, desperate weight.

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onward,
T


Syzygy

In Ukraine there are buildings
without roofs, without floors;

people try to live in them
without arms, legs, or faces.

We call that “a war.”
In USA there is a place and a face

that looks the same.
Here, we call it “unfortunate.”

In Nepal we call the sliding of a mountain
into its valley “a catastrophe.”

In USA we call it “consequence,”
call it “inevitable,” call it “foreseeable.”

We call it “another story” on the news,
a “did you hear about” on the Internet.

In Germany the people turn their backs to us
and in Canada, they raise a whitened tight fist.

In USA we don’t think much of either.
We have our own problems with history.

In the meantime, clouds roll overhead in all places —
nimbus, cumulonimbus — we call them by big names.

In scattered moonlight we call them lovely;
in bright daylight we don’t call them much.

Wherever they are, they look much the same;
their teeth don’t have an accent.

In Ukraine or Nepal, they rain without ceasing.
In Germany and Canada, they gnash along without an end.

In USA — good old country, good old bones —
we just put up an umbrella and wait to die

surprised by the moral of the story —
when it ends it won’t care about our forefathers.

It will rain on us too regardless of the colors
of our flag, our sacred blood.

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onward,
T