When they first came
they measured themselves
against the trees, found themselves
less than acceptable; shrugged, cut down
the trees, built homes, built forts,
slid the scraps into their mouths
like toothpicks chewed solely
for the soothing taste
of wood, of victory.
When they’d been here for a little while
they came out of homes and forts
to witness and approve
beatings, burnings, massacres,
displaced thousands marching from
their homes, footprints freezing into memories
in reddening snow, baking into
blushing sands; they slid all that
into their mouths, pills to be swallowed
for prevention, for nourishment,
for their great peace of mind.
When they had been here for a while longer
they began to imagine themselves
measuring up, full-rooted here, seeded here,
forest primeval; shrugged, cut down memories
of those who’d been here all along,
slid those names into their maps,
their family trees, called them their own.
One day I came out of my home
and saw that no matter how much
I mourned departures and raged over
shed blood, I was now mostly one of them
thanks to the long “whatever” and “so what”
of how casually they’d cut down and consumed
my place, my people, my places.
When I’d known that for a while
I chewed off a piece
of me, a huge piece of me as one might
chew off an arm or leg, a piece I saw only dimly
as it disappeared, as I left it on the path
and moved on, a wraith, with a mystery
taste of ashes, wood rot, metal flake
on my tongue; then I shrugged,
told myself I was getting closer to an end of this road
and said I was long overdue for that
and lightening my load in such a savage way
was a departure all its own
and nearly as efficient as any other.
August 2nd, 2017 at 7:40 am
This indeed is the song of our despair!
August 1st, 2017 at 10:12 am
wonderful poem with great brevity
August 1st, 2017 at 10:16 am
Thanks…I was actually thinking it was too wordy…!