that lost world
of revered light
and startling beings
prim grandma
stealing sugar packets
tucking them into an old purse
odd uncle
pulling quarters from nowhere
as if the air were a bank
fading faces
of mother and father
and siblings barely to be seen
but sharp pencil sketches
of schoolmates recalled
as if drawn yesterday
kissing till breathless
in dark corners found
throughout that lost world
that lost world
of plentiful work
and good sweat
party laughter
on worn porches
all weekend long
rare moments of petty anger
dispatched with handshakes
after flurries of small punches
music that made
laughter and struggle
easier somehow
sound sleep
unpunctuated by thunder
or trauma
what seemed to be
hope sifting over all
of that lost world
that lost world is
now rolling out of frame
a stray marble
later to be stumbled over
sending a body flying
to hard landing
never as ideal as imagined
it was built
to hide itself
even as it swallowed all
in its illusion
of raising all at once
still it held
much joy and much love
in its pockets
as that lost world
fades from sight
it does not feel wrong to weep

March 9th, 2016 at 1:38 pm
Yes, but not really lost is it? Food for the page always.
March 8th, 2016 at 8:50 am
Memories shape who we are. It is hard to leave them behind. It may fade in reality, but in our mind, in the depths of our souls, they are always alive.
March 8th, 2016 at 8:55 am
Right.
I’m not a huge fan of nostalgia myself, and I try to keep in mind always that I tend to paint certain things as being more rosy than they were while exaggerating the badness of other things, especially when it comes to fitting those things into an overall understanding of what society was like for the less fortunate during the time for which I’m being nostalgic. But sometimes, it’s OK to recall the good — to put in into a golden haze. And to miss it.