First Saturdays at the Zodiac Cafe
Saturday, May 6th
Noon to 2pm
50 Lake Ave. Worcester, MA
(just off rt.9 near U-Mass Med)
open mic & feature.
this month’s feature is
Tony Brown!!
the reading is all ages. a hat is passed.
the reading is PG.
hope to see you there!
in other words: get up and get over there!
if i told you
the worst thing i’ve
ever done, you would
dig both hands into my eyes
and push until i fell backwards
into the carpet. you would
kick me and then sob out loud
as i rose blinded and contrite
from the floor.
then i would tell you: i would do it again, but for you alone,
and then you might step toward me
as if i was a spotlight
you could stand in for one moment —
and perhaps i would see again
or perhaps not, see you before you were
illuminated by false hope —
and then i would do it again, just as i promised.
it’s too early to be up so late.
i have been trying to write, but i’m too wired to write well.
the strangest thing about my writing recently is that i’m at this stage where i feel a change coming and i’m impatient for it to happen.
this recent series of “jim poems” is weak, i know, on the surface, but i’ve got the definite feeling that somewhere in there is the seed of something really exciting. i haven’t been putting all of them up here because i feel so odd about them right now; not sure where all of them will lead or how many will stay around.
i’ve also been working hard on the curriculum for the online course. i expect it to be completed before monday.
it’s such a strange time…i’m starting to feel really discouraged by the whole freelance/contractor process. things i thought were happening keep being postponed, and i really want to work. i’m not bored so much as i feel useless right now. after 25 years in the workforce, this is the longest i’ve been out of work ever. ever. i’m reaching the point where i might just take a full time job and forget the whole thing. it’s so hard to feel so useless.
well, springer’s on, so i can feel superior for a few minutes, anyway.
Dark Matter
Dark Matter 