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Delicacy

There is a delicacy to the question
of how we are going to move forward
from this moment — at least for those who see it
as yet another vagary of politics, a moment
up for firm but cordial discussion.  

For me the delicacy of the question
is drowned by the blood
from those being butchered
to feed both sides,
and how it pools ever deeper.

The ones who think it’s time
to find common ground and strive
for mutual goals are terrified
that someone might choose instead
to point out the red footprints 

they’re leaving behind 
on their way to the conference table;
to say that the words in their mouths
form the echoes of death sentences;
to say that agreeing to disagree

is equivalent to agreeing
to sharpen swords and load the guns
of the butchers. For me,
the moment for fear
of plain talk is long past.

Nothing in this moment
is delicate. Look at how the blood
runs. Look at how we hunker down,
hollow-faced, pretending. There is
nothing to be said. Now’s a time

for something that is not talk.
I don’t even want to give it a word
because it doesn’t demand expression.
Talking, we save for listeners. Listening
is a delicate art. This is not the time for it.


Considering The Moderate

The way he stood,
schoolteacher
with a sharp agenda
up his ass.  

The way he smiled,
broken gray spoke
in an old wagon wheel
on the roadside.

The way he spoke,
a butter-tongued dance
of slick and smooth
couching a dagger.

The words he used:
some benign on their own;
some with their own
long poisonous tails
.

The way the air smelled afterward:
gentle, fragrant, warm; ashen
from countless bonfires,
house fires, church fires, and pyres.


Facing You

You say to me,
“don’t eat those foods, 
those chemicals
are nasty and artificial, 
your body is not made
for those…” and I eat them anyway
in full knowledge of how true
all of that is, simply because
I’m going to die anyway
and I have grown to like them.

You say to me,
“the bosses, the workers,
the system, the nature of
oppression, the means of 
production, how can you
participate…” and I agree, how
I agree from years of being
in that vise of steel, I can see all that
but I’ve still got to get paid
as long as I can because the rent is due
and I’m in need of a doctor,
because the vise
has crushed my willingness
to be afraid for righteous causes.

You say to me,
“the whiteness, the white talk,
the ignorance, the cluelessness,
the easy links between capital
and racism and patriarchy and
how can you still be here…” and
I agree, I agree, I have the arteries
and broken mind to prove it,
the slipped joints of incongruent action
and thought creak constantly under my skin
but I’m simply trying to get all the way
to death and oblivion
with as little pain as possible now.

You say to me, 
“how could you? how could you
do this, all of this…” and I agree.
I agree with your condemnation.
I do not avoid it. I do not 
defend myself from it, and 
part of the reason I’m bowing 
and laying my neck on the block today
is because the little I have left
in my power to do and say
is only going to be enough

to hold my own loathing of myself
at arm’s length for as long as it takes
to allow for my own death to be
clean and swift, a relief of burden on those
left behind to do the hard things
that I should have done back when I
was still deluded enough to believe
that working from within the vise
mattered in the slightest, and still able enough
to break free once I knew I was wrong.


3712

My smartwatch says I am
at 1492 steps for the day
and because I can’t stand seeing that number on my wrist

a symbolic commemoration
of the year when things went epically bad
I get up at once

and start walking around the house like mad
raising and raising that number as high as I can
past 1523, 1607, 1609, 1620, 1680, on and on to 1890 and beyond

until I slow down when I hit 2018 and drive myself past that
to 2020, 2100, 2200, 3000, all the way to 3712 
when I stop myself and ask out loud the dreaded question

will that year when it comes offer enough distance from 1492
and all the rest of bad history 
Will that be enough time to repair us back to health

or perhaps to have created
something new to shine upon Earth
in the way that we’re told  

in every myth and legend we have
that the Earth once cradled us
Or will 3712 be desolate and messy

A forgotten grave tonsured in sparse grass
like an ancient scalp shedding its last hair
as it crumbles into undifferentiated dust

At the moment all I have to go on
is the memory of how I felt staring down at 1492
while thinking of its symbolism as a placeholder for pain

and of 3712 as a different symbol indeed
of how pain can drive you into hope
and how it all will begin again tomorrow from 0

when I will certainly come upon 1492 again
In fact I’ve got many more steps I could take today
I rise again from my seat and go ahead


Moment Of Truth

It’s OK.
You don’t have to survive all of it.
You have to fight, yes,
you must resist, yes. But survival is for
those who believe in a future
with them in it. Get free of that

and let your self-importance go;
do what you can and must. 

Don’t worry
about the ultimate triumph of your own
ideology when poison needs to be
ameliorated and 
removed from the suddenly broken veins
of the dying. Don’t worry if in the effort
you suck more death than you can handle.
Spit out what you can and keep moving
as long as possible. 

You’re expendable, always were, old man.
You were part of the problem long enough
to be suspect.  If you go, you go.
After all it’s not going to be
your world afterward. Move on with a smile.

You’re ancillary at best, a well-meaning nuisance
at worst.  Get out of the way of what must follow
once you’ve done your bit. Individual

survival is unimportant. You are 
not worthy of exception.  Move on.
This is the moment of truth. Live 
in it, not in the one that follows.


The Bank

Late last night I heard someone calling out in the street. 
Heard someone come down the stairs from the second floor.
Heard the door open, someone came inside,
and more people went upstairs than had come down.
There was talking and loud stomping for an hour,
then someone left quietly and I went to sleep

imagining backstory, drifting in and out of anger,
picturing someone hungry, someone thirsty,
someone done in by cold and impending snow,
someone done in by a longing to end a longing
by buying or selling themselves or their drug.
I kept myself awake far longer than I needed to
wondering and raging and reproaching myself 
for wondering and raging. It was no business
of mine beyond the nuisance of being roused
from two AM to three AM.  All the fear
and righteous thought I soaked in
for an hour after that

was a stale old problem I borrowed
from the bank of pain I keep
and owe and curse,
where I cannot seem
to close my account.


Waiting Out The Storm

To remain asleep in this storm,
waiting it out while the snow piles up,
is a white comfort in a whitening landscape.
You can lie there and think about

what you are going to do
when what’s outside
no longer matches up
to what you think you’ve been seeing.
When you find it’s all been a cover up,
will you die or explode? Or will you
step out and see the green and gold light
on the brown earth? When spring comes
will you allow yourself to be happy?

You think about that now while you’re seeing
the whiteness covering everything.
You think about that and stop pretending
it’s never going to go away.


Survivalist

I sit up in bed and stare at the ceiling
as if it is going to sink down upon me
like a car compactor at any moment
and push me into two dimensions from three,

and at the side walls as if they would slide over
to meet each other and take me
from two dimensions into one,

and then toward the foot of the bed
to see if that wall will come up
and crush my newly linear self into a single point. 

A vanishing point, maybe. 
A pixel on a screen, perhaps. 

I have faith that none of this
will hurt, no blood will flow from me,
my bones will simply telescope shut
and compress into memory.

A single point seems indestructible enough.
A single point can slide through any catastrophe.
Infinite lines can pass through a single point
and it will remain indelibly itself.
I can do that.  I can be myself,
reduced to holding infinity stretching
in all directions. 

It seems far better to do that,
to enable that which remains,
to be a mere point
allowing others to intersect
and extend themselves,

than to wring these temporary hands
over the loss of my identity
to the weight of looming darkness.


Sea Mammals

Manatees (AKA “sea cows”)
are favored for their cuddly bulk. Orcas
get a viral reputation for gang
action. Big whales are everybody’s
best mystical gymnasts, dolphins
sexy slick bobbers. Seals reek up
beaches and docks but damn,
they’re cute as hell. Sea otters
rock and carry rocks, lie around
floating handsomely.  We want them
all working hard to make us feel 
connected to something larger
than ourselves, our puny little
destroyer selves, and if they don’t
we’ll flutter our left hands in dismay
as our right hands snuff them out.


Mercy On A Cold Morning

The mercy of a calm cold morning
keeps me snug in my home,
safe from chaos.

I get to pretend I can’t hear
the roaring outside over the sound
of my comfortable furnace.

There’s not even a storm
to fret over. The sun’s bright,
the wind chill is rough

but I’ve seen and felt worse.
I can deal with that. 
It’s not the wind making the noise

that I’m hiding from. The roar I fear
is human, full of words
I can’t or won’t understand

that drilled through my sleep
and opened me
as screwworms might

but without leaving a visible trace.
The mercy of the cold morning
is that it keeps me

from stepping to the sound
and joining in. I can choose
to stay here and pretend

I hear nothing, can pretend
I won’t soon need
to become harmful as well.

From where I stand mercy
is a cold illusion I can indulge
as long as I stay inside,

so here I will stay 
for as long as I can, knowing
it cannot last and I am needed out there.


How To Be American

To be aghast 
at our ghosts
without admitting that
they remain among us
is to be willfully
American.

To be comfortable
in this haunted home,
oblivious to what 
some feel
in its most sunlit rooms, 
is to be carelessly
American.

To laugh off every
chill as merely historic
or imaginary,

to turn away from
the ancestral familiarity
of those faces of 
menace past and present,
is to be blindly
American.

Not to see
any of the ghosts,
not to see them
in every corridor, closet, 
basement, school,
prison, or mirror,
is to be resolutely
American, is practically

to define
“American”, is the
quintessential practice

of being
American.


In A Time Of War You Seize The Nearest Weapon

There’s so little inside me
you’d think I was a balloon
if I didn’t weigh this much.

I’m not a balloon. What, then?
Maybe a hollow iron sphere.
Steel encapsulation.

Knock on me and I make
a pleasing sound. I’m a bell,
a closed bell, dark inside.

Knock on me and see
if you can understand what I say.
I’ve spoken an empty tongue since birth.

Now I’m old and resigned to it, but
there was a time when I tried
to crack myself open and become a full throat. 

It never worked. Here I am, then,
a hard ball of air. When things are hot,
it’s hot air; when things are cold, you can guess.

Things are hot right now and I’m boiling.
Not likely to crack but if you swing me, I’ll bust heads.
If it gets cold, I can break them just as well.

Understand one thing, though: I’m not one of you,
will never be.  I’m the big hard void and will be,
before and after your war. You need a bell like me.

I do tend to ring your way. It’s an accident, really;
a mistake 
in your favor. Think of me as eraser,
here to shift the ledger; to wreck it

and in the process of wrecking it
to crack myself open at last,
make my one rightful noise, then shatter.

I have no illusions. You won’t want me
then. Will have no need of my voice
once the breaking’s done. In a time of war

you seize the nearest weapon. I’m ready.
I’m your rock, your branch, your 
morningstar. Let’s swing. Let’s sing.


Requirements

Start reimagining 
that flag
is a door anytime
you see it 
upended. See it
as a locked door
with a code
to enter. 

Start picturing
an eagle
in tears, starving
because it’s exhausted
and cannot feed
with its wings up
and its talons full
like that for all
these years.

Start wondering
what’s under 
your Uncle Sam’s 
hat, why he
looks so pissed
as he points at you:
you thought you
were tight, after all
you’re family or
so you were told.

Start wondering
where that dollar bill
has been, where
they’ve all been. Start
thinking about them
in your pocket, your hand,
resting on your bare skin;
who paid for what with them
before they came to you.

Start imagining
how hard
you will have to kick
to take down that door.
Think about what might be on
the other side
until your foot
twitches without you
willing it.


I Wake Up In Despair

Revision.  Posted originally in April, 2016.

I wake up in despair most mornings.
Each day slants uphill.
It takes everything I have to climb it.

I wake up in despair most mornings
but find comfort in knowing 
things that no Pharaoh can know;

how, for instance, to pick myself up
without an entourage to help me; how in fact
to get by with no entourage, neither in celebration

nor in sorrow; how to fall down back-broken
and get back up again next day for another round
with nothing but what’s in me to pull me up.

I wake in despair most mornings. Each day
bores me: sometimes with a dull drill, sometimes
with a chisel of same and same and same again.

I wake in despair most mornings 
but find comfort in knowing
things that a boss can’t know, or has forgotten;

how to do the dirtiest bits of a dozen jobs, for example;
how to take the next step when it’s time, how to 
fix the broken piece, how not to fail

from seven AM to lunch, how to stay awake
from lunch to three PM and longer
if three PM becomes 5 PM or later.

I wake in despair most mornings knowing
how little of my life is open to me, based on
how much time I have to spend recovering from the rest of it.

I wake in despair most mornings
but I can almost get to glee in knowing
what a king does not, what they may never know;

how to run riot in the streets to spite all my aches and pains,
how to run riot in the streets with all the others aching and pained,
how to run riot in the streets knowing how little time I likely have.

I wake and run riot knowing that ahead of me, somewhere
cowering, somewhere hiding behind mere walls, 
a king, a boss, and a Pharaoh are themselves in despair,

filled with the knowledge
of their lack of knowledge
about anything that needs to be done,

and in spite of the odds and the guns
and the war any of them could muster,
I no longer share their despair.


Ghost Apples

Look at you lamenting
the disappearance of apple pie.

Sitting around all day cussing
the bad apples you have to work with.

Muttering about the past, the crust,
the way it used to be.

No one talks up old-fashioned apple pie 
like someone who thinks

the only good apple
is a ghost apple.

Those good apples, you say,
made great pies.

You can till taste them 
if you try.  We need to bake them

again.  Need better apples.
Need a sturdier crust.

Make apple pies great again,
you say. Get rid of the bad, bad apples.

I’m a good apple, I promise, one
fallen far from your tree,

and I don’t want to be
part of any pie although

I’m as American
as you know what.

Keep longing, keep
imagining old-fashioned flavor.

Those ghost apples will leave you
hungry, famished, starving,

strangling on dry crust.
Meanwhile, I’m doing fine

on a diet
of what’s in front of me,

not on what’s long gone
and left behind, 

and there’s not a bad apple
in sight.