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Pundit

You are the cemetery
of brotherhood.

You poke at our faith in
each other’s angelic natures,
demanding spice
and devil noise from us.  One minute
I’m sure you’re done, the next
you’re sticking a finger in my eye.

You don’t know anything real.
In your world there’s a ghost named
the perfect past
and it haunts everything.
That there’s no such thing
as that ghost
hasn’t escaped your notice,
but it doesn’t stop you.
The way you talk is ripped lingerie,
salt in a cut, con man sweet talking into
a rape in a hallway.

I’m going to write you a letter
and send you a postcard
and leave you a voice message
and shout at your house after hours.

It’s the way you want it, isn’t it?
It makes you feel
worthy to be my enemy,
to dismiss me,
call me a mental burp…
hey, you got me again, you slick
shit on an oaken mantel.  Make of me a trophy
of some white contest for black arts…
and dammit, I play into it.
I need to call you out
the way you need me to call you out:
that’s the game.  We do it
for love of our own voices,

the truth
just a secondary gem.

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Slide

Sure, that guitar
can sing, but
she ought to sting.
Put a bottle on that thing —

let her ring, bring that
tingle between
navel and
nether

whenever,
in sweetness or sorrow,
no matter the weather.
Hand steady on, then shaky, snaking,

limber till it flexes up to
the right note, or maybe just short —
you catch your breath thinking
it’s gonna bring you

home — but then
full stop,  back down
low, lower,  back up the neck
from thick to high and it keens

like they say the wind does
somewhere, like a train going by.
Sings like
I do when you play me right,

at midnight or high noon, blue
or wild, there’s some kind of story there,
names and places, spirits and flesh
too slick to put a breath on, and still

you go on, tremble your hand
like you’re throwing dice in a barroom
with the whole place gathered round calling
for the lucky bones, and it moans and sighs

that glass-tongued tale of a mourning
gone on too long or a longing going
straight into morning — put a bottle on it,
honey: shake loose that song.

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Housecleaning

You’re some kind of closet,
aren’t you?  Full of
things I saw myself in,
once.

I loved this, wore that
for fashion’s sake,
found that comfortable,
never really liked that
but wore it for another.

In the door,
the sound of age.
On the floor,
dust and silly notions.
On the walls, old newsprint, pictures
and chipped paint.
A rack groaning
with outlived garments…

nothing fits, nothing
worth saving, but if I give it away
who will I see when I look into you?

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Flight

It matters to some
that they fly.

it matters not at all
to me anymore.

I can still raise a wind below me
and rise now and then…
but long flights
are for others.

I watch them from the ground.
I think of my own migrations,
am glad of the memories…

glad to be on the hard earth
thinking of rest.  It’s time
to let my wings fall to my sides.
It’s time.

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Prayer For A Sound Sleep

Don’t set off any earthquakes
or supervolcanoes tonight.

If the world is going to end,
I want to be awake when it happens.

There will be something to see
in those last seconds

before the curtain tumbles around us
laden with stone and flame,

and I just know I’ll be the one
compelled to capture it

and cram what little sense
could be made of it into words

no one will read, but dammit,
I’ll try, and I would like

a good night’s sleep before I face that,
thinking of good things to do in my future.

It’s not much to ask, I think,
to want to be at my best when the worst happens.

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The Big

The band that sings the Big
breaks open more often than not
spilling hope and ambition
into smaller buckets

but the band that sings The Big
is always the band I want to hear

No matter the way they sing
be it simple guitar or sample bombast
if there’s Big in the reach
I will watch as they stretch

Even if the subject matter
tends to the small
if the band sees the Big
encompassed in the detail they seize

(like a universe in a pinhead
or the history of desire in one lover’s pining
sharply defined)

I’ll gladly pray for their strength and grasp
to hold out long enough
for them to bring the Big to me

for I know the Big in me
and the band that sings the Big
that serenades me large
is my minstrel pal
The band that sings the Big
gets my voice on the chorus

The band that sings the Big
has me from the first

Pretentious or humbled before the scope
of what they tackle
I will honor any who desire
to snatch up a cosmos
to corral it in three minutes
to be overwhelmed by the struggle
to fail
to fail repeatedly
to fail utterly
and still never stop singing

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Self-Fulfillment

Such a dark and common
moment of purely human
triumph: to forget

a section of your life,
tell yourself in its place
a lie you can live with,

a lie you then come to believe
with all your heart,
one from which you take

your impetus to action,
a lie growing proud as a demon
to set you aflame

with a fading sense of its falsehood
and subsequent absolute conviction —
a lie like that is as good as Scripture,

a Gospel rock on which to build
a fortress, a slaughterhouse,
a beautiful tomb.

In the forest of your life,
you fell a tree and block your ears.
This clearing has always been here,

you tell everyone.  Always a barren spot.
See how the light glares here.
Maybe there was a fire here long ago —

in fact, you are sure of it.  You insist you were there.
Show off your burns. Use the scars
to chart your course out of the woods.

End up somewhere you never expected
as someone you aren’t, feeling
the gray rain on your ashen skin.

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Philadelphia tonight

Just a note to all in the Philadelphia area:  Duende will be performing tonight at Infusion Tea and Coffee, 7133 Germantown Avenue, as the feature performers for the Philadelphia Slam.  7:30 to 10:30 PM.  There will be books and CDs available.  Come out — love to meet new friends and see old ones…

Check the “Show Schedule” tab for details or to listen to some Duende tracks…

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On First Glance

First thing to catch my eye
in the living room this morning
is the plastic Halloween glass
with the whimsical skeletal girls
in pigtails, shaking
Jack o’ lantern maracas
as they dance.
Two weeks after Christmas,
and not the least bit out of place.

When the Tasmanian wolf —
said to be extinct but, well,
there it certainly is, at least this morning
in the living room —
wanders in, I’m not at all
fearful.  Spider legs
and stripes, jaws like a car crusher
in this salvage yard of an apartment;
its presence make sense on first glance,

since my place is full of discards,
second hands, re-purposed items
finding new lives.  The animal
must have spun in here by chance
when the earth
passed through its dimension,
and decided to stick around.
I can do something
with anything I get my hands on;
maybe that appeals to it.

I decide to name the beast Johnny
and it looks up when I call it,
comes over, as confident in its power
as a myth.  There’s still some water in the glass
so I offer it a drink and it begins to lap,
the long pale tongue flickering,
not caring that the water comes
from an off-season source, or that
it’s going to become a metaphor for something
as soon as it blinks back into its usual state
of not being.  It’s safe here,
here in the room of taking something
that looks wrong on first glance
and making it right.

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Frozen

Walking at night in winter.

Looking into parked cars —
unlocked cars.

There is a backseat
in this car with
a coat on it. 

If there is
a pocket in this coat
there may be a candy
in the pocket.  If there is a candy
in the pocket it may have
melted.  If the candy
in the pocket has melted
it will have refrozen.
If the candy has been refrozen
it will be misshapen. 

The deformed sweet
is my favorite kind.  If it seems
that it should be discarded,
I want it that much more.

Walking at night in winter
wanting the sweets others have tossed.
It’s cold outdoors
but only if you spend too much time
indoors.  Walking and trying doors
toughens you.  If you harden enough,
you don’t mind after a while.
Things are sweeter, even the garbage
is desirable.

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Praise For The Day Of Praise

Praise to the Being
not to be called God
for that is understood
as a Noun and not
a Verb
by too many
and it should be known by all
that this is praise for the entirety
of All, its ongoing
Going, its Movement
and Shifting Nature;

praise be to Being, then,
to grouching and farting
at daybreak before work,
to loneliness of the unemployed
facing the emptying streets,
to the words “what exactly shall I do today?”
and the words “I wish I was doing anything else,
not what I am doing now or
am about to do,” praise to the chance
of change or the comfort of no change;

praise to the dead of last night
who are beyond the new things
of this morning, who are Elsewhere;

praise to the positive
who fool themselves, the negative
who fool themselves, the ones
who are not thinking at all today
but who move solely in response;

praise to the calculation
of the middle aged man
who looks at his life and decides
there are maybe fifteen years left in it,
who decides to live as he has been
because he is glad of the short term;

praise to the calculation
of the middle aged man
who looks at his life and decides
there are are maybe fifteen years left in it,
and decides that it is not enough,
and sets his coffee down and goes outside
and walks to the corner, is winded, goes back
to the living room and knows he’ll do more
tomorrow, who believes again
in tomorrow;

praise to the Internet
and its fallacies, its snap judgments
and foolish conspiracies, its reinforcement
of the worst, its stupid cats
and moments of connection facilitated
by the dumb video, the effervescence
of a spoiling joke, praise always
to the moment as revealed and removed;

praise to the things we always forget to praise
and cannot recall now, but they exist and do not fail
to appear at the right moments, they know
when they are needed, come through phone calls
and unexpected visits, letters, odd news stories,
mentions by random strangers, trashing of old yearbooks
and bills from vacations forgotten in the rush of Being;

praise then for that Being, for all Being known and unknown;

praise for disgust at slipping through the cracks,
for shame at crossed fingers on rent day, for joy in ten-dollar prizes
on lottery tickets, for rage at celebrity,
politics, terror alerts and body searches,
for imprisonment of whole generations of our own;

praise for the privately balled fists of the pacifists;

praise for the soldier cradling his enemy’s child
after killing the enemy;

praise for the moldy bread
in the mouth of the stray, for the tinfoil hat,
for the long shelves of pills illuminated by sunrise
through the narrow apartment window;

praise for the silence in which only Being exists
and for the stark fact of another day
exactly like the last one,
exactly like the next one;

praise for the Being of Being itself
and its sacred and profane wind
that is like unto the breath of the beating wings
of the Angels we are
as we trumpet in hope of the End of Days
again and again
until the Days indeed end
as if there were only days, no history,
no progress;

praise at last and again and always for Being,
simple and dear in the light of Order
that appears as Chaos
but is magnificent in its
sealed completion.

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Last Entry In The Log

Today in the ruins, we found a child still alive
with white hair, like that of an ancient woman,
growing out of her chest as if rooted in her heart,
as if it had lanced
through bone and flesh to hang limply
against her belly.

The child was not breathing but her eyes rolled back and forth
among us when we gathered around,
catching us all in the moment of wonder.

When she finally exhaled, the hair rose and waved
like kelp in a current, and we knew at once
(without being able to explain how we knew)
of the sea of age within her, informing her gaze.

We are resting now, with the child saying nothing
as she sits upon her mat by the fireside.

It is two days travel back to base.  Tomorrow
we will begin the journey, leaving a small crew behind
to keep watch on the ruins; perhaps
there are others?

The men are arguing about who will stay behind
for this.  All are eager.  Strangely so…
as if the notion of a sage intelligence
that might be watching for us from the wreckage
has seized them all.

I have been staring back into
the child’s eyes.  She has told me
nothing, no hint of origin, no explanation
for the thread of history she carries.
There is something obviously important
in the way she holds herself,
but none of us can quite explain
what we are feeling.

I have decided that we will delay our return until we are certain
there is nothing more to be learned here.

More, I think, later.

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Free

A rework and combination of two earlier pieces…

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Violet energy
of  a packed nightclub. Far
corners dim and busy.
Startled remainders of dinner crowd.
Slick aficionados,
novice
joy chasers,
mages in watchful attendance.

Then, the horns –

saxophone
asters, trumpet
roses.

The essence of horn is in blowing and blocking.

Ivory bones
of keys and
starflung bass,
the fertile underlying soil
of swift sifting drums.

The essence of string is in striking, permitting, and stopping;
this is the essence of piano as well.

Do you know the essence of the drum?
Of objects in action,
rush of shaken skin, thrumming in ear canals,
the memory of the tree blown down in the storm,
striking the ledge?

Oh, the shocked eyes
and the odd remastered ears…

Melody is a pirate rejecting unjust law.
One rebel line cabled
among many,
carrying the current.

It is a crime against the essence of sound
to call music into confinement.
There is a trial going on
and jeopardy attaches
so it goes free,
or rather there is no crime and
it is a possibility inherently alive.
Essence snapped to a bent grid, evanescent.
A moment.
Memory transferring itself from past to now-being.

Play what is needed, in thrall to essence,
the nature of the reed, the harmonic.

Under it all, the idea:

white noise does as it wishes;
all control is relinquished in the moment
of white noise,
underlying the point of struggle.

Beating shape out of raw time,
examining the sound of its bones
falling onto the hearth.

The essential call of a summary command
to call up
the only voice that is under all.

The tree crashing
to the ledge unseen crying
I exist,
I existed,
respond.

The stop at the bottom of the tumble
allows for beginning…

outside the doors
an altered few find
an opened world

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First Person Shooter

Living in the time of decline
is a game of inches, like
football: grinding effort,
slogging through.  Imagining with every play
the single piercing moment
of the certainty
of defeat or triumph, staving it off
a while.  But there’s a known deadline there
and none here.

Thick as the line in a thermometer
in a Massachusetts window
on January 13 comes a message:
sun’s going down, wind’s picking up.
It’ll get colder.

In the mornings
I have lately risen to this:
first person shooter vision,
blued barrel
facing away from me, the cylinder
open, see how my fingers
seat the rounds, steady thumb and forefinger
plucking them from the box.  Two or three
still to be loaded.  I shake off the image,
but then what? 

Asked for a pen
and got a revolver. A laurel wreath
replaced by a gin blossom
on a thin cheek. Grubs
under glass, fossilized oysters.
The forbidden and frightening sound
of one sure shot
at peace, but not on my watch
if I can help it, not in my house
if I have something to say about it.

Still, such moments in winter
have their place, and I surmise
that I am that place.  Sun goes down
and comes up, it gets colder
and warmer, wind picks up
and dies down, and there is a voice
out there, not only in here.

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Iguana

To not be
iguana
is to be able to stand outside
iguana
and know iguana
somewhat

but it is not the same as
being iguana

to be within the scale
and spines
looking out

no iguana
is able to fully know iguana
himself, a dinosaur
writ small

doesn’t understand evolution

does understand
lettuce
aggression
a snappy tail

is enough
for iguana
to say upon seeing another iguana

grey green
yellow black

that’s war or sex
an iguana union in iguana-
ness
is enough
and silly human need
for classification
is not
iguana necessary

nod the head of the iguana in question
up down
up down
threat display

leave me alone!
I’m iguana
that’s all

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