David Beauchamp

This guy named David Beauchamp
used to host one or two ghosts at
every meal.

I watched him, sometimes, serving food
to an empty table.
I couldn’t tell exactly what
happened to the meal,
but it always
disappeared.

He drank
beer on Friday nights
with a poltergeist
at a local dive called Rosie’s.

He said once
of the spectres all around him that
they were lonely, he was lonely,
it worked out — and
what did it matter anyway
where you put your trust — in the dead
or living? Suppose, he said,
they’ve lied about being dead, the way
so many people do — suppose I’m already
dead? Would I even know?

Better, he said, to just give up
this fantasy of life
and move along. We don’t have a clue,
anyway, he said,
about what it means to be here, or there. Better to make peace:
come down on a Friday night and have
a beer or two or three,
and some small talk
in Rosie’s back room.

He put his head down on the table then.
He never saw me. I put my hand on his neck,
and held him, gently, until
we faded away.


Fnord!

I am staggered, nay, astonished — no, FUCKING astonished — that no one here has commented on my referring to a SubGenius text a few posts back.

Granted, it was a gift and all, and I’ve never actually read it; but I thought that was the point of slack, anyway?

I did read the first book, years ago, and chortled mightily throughout.

C’mon. Is this a forum full of PINKS?

The SubGenius must have SLACK!!!

(We now return to actual, original, non pop subculture related blog content.)

PS: does it disturb anyone else that the LJ spellchecker doesn’t recognize “blog?”


Feature/Book release/Now it can be told

Went great. (Even I think so.)

Set list:

Cante Jondo for the Left Side
In America
Getting Ahead
The Last Word (aka “Let’s Fuck”)
Punk
Seafoam Green
The Kathy Bag
Chrysler
Mission Statement
DIY

As promised, a real old school set, with the exception of “The Last Word” and, comparatively, “Cante Jondo.” A good 70% off page, which is rare for me nowadays.

I feel like this stage of my poetic life is really over. The poems aren’t being retired, but I’m letting them go.

One more volume to this go-round, maybe in February, and then it’s no more chapbooks…and onto more magazine submissions and eventually the manuscript.

Sold about half the print run of the new book. (Time to make some more before DC, I think.)

I’ll start mailing them to you blurbers when you let me know your addresses…hint, hint…

Thanks to all in attendance; you made me very happy. I hope I did the same for you.

++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

The big secret I mentioned earlier is that I’m going back to school. I’m entering the Bachelor’s in American Studies program at Lesley University in January — a low-residency intensive program that gives me my long-delayed BA in twenty-two months.

After years of foot dragging, abortive attempts at re-entering broken by breakdowns and job responsibilities, I think I’m well enough and generally pissed enough at my inertia to do this.

Let the games begin.


Slamlist

A while back, I signed off of the slamlist.

Tonight, I signed back on, temporarily, to help push the CD project at iWPS. Figured it was my duty.

I discovered I’d never completely disconnected myself, just had set myself to web-only. Huh.

Think of all the fun I missed.

At any rate, I just wanted to say that I feel…dirty. Oooooh..


imminent announcment

…I’m working on my biggest project in ten years right now.

More when I know more.

I’m deeply, deeply excited.


The column’s up.

And it features reviews of two CDs —

“Live at Beyond Baroque 2” from EM Press, featuring Patricia Smith, Saul Williams, Regie Gibson, johnnyappledog, Viggo Mortenson, et al;

“Macaca Fuscata Autodidact” by RC Weslowski ( monkeypudding). (Love that butterfly sex!)

It also contains a short rant about how I generally dislike poetry on CD. I contradict myself, I embrace multitudes.

Please, visit here to read these nuggets of wisdom.

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Picked up the new book tonight…it looks hot. Thank you, thisrabbit, as always.

pinata, your blurb graces the back cover. Thank you again.

I’ll be getting addresses from the blurbers shortly to send along your copies. If you wanna hit me backchannel, it’s chrysler.poet@verizon.net.

Thank you again…

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Other good news: They’ve lowered my Prozac dosage to 20 mg every three days now.

And, most important, I’m off Seroquel entirely. YAY!!!!

I hated that drug.

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Will check in before the feature on sunday. Come if you can.


BY THE WAY…

I’ll be featuring at the Java Hut, the Poets’ Asylum, home of the Worcester Slam, my second home, Worcester’s very own, on Sunday night.

I’ll be releasing my new (old) book, poet., Vol.1 of a two volume set of greatest hits from the last twenty years, thanks to Doublebunny Press.

Tell you what — it’s gonna be a night of old school. I’m putting the slam stuff to bed — maybe not permanently, but somewhat finally and with bittersweet regrets and cheer.

Come play.


first draft

this is very much a first draft — may look better or worse in the AM. Comments welcome.

I don’t believe in you, Beauty

A man in the corner of the laundromat
repeats this every twelve seconds
while my clothes spin dry behind him

I am sure he’s talking to me
I don’t believe in Beauty either
We’ve had this talk before

I wash my clothes three times a week
here on Highland Street where all the philosophers do
I get everything very clean

because cleanliness is near unto God
and since I don’t believe in Beauty
God’s what I fall back on

For the man in the corner God is Beauty
His existence is neither clean nor holy
He washes his clothes only when they stink

I try to keep my distance
afraid of lowering my standards
perhaps

but I listen and it’s hard sometimes
not to disagree when he says it
in an effort to make him feel better

I don’t believe in you, Beauty

his face so grey
his hands so gnarled
his eyes so soft

I would hold him close
if I could
get by the smell

but if that were meant to be
surely God would wash him
or at least get him to wash his clothes

I shake it off
I ask him to move
It’s time to fold


Eileen makes a comeback

The Worcester folks who hear all my stuff may recall a poem (from Mano Poderosa)called “Eileen is Burning,” about a long suffering, artistically stifled suburban woman who at last figures out a way toward a bit of freedom.

Think of this as a prequel, or perhaps I’m turning her into a multipart poem.

Eileen’s Moment of Truth


Draft of tactics and strategy for the culture war:

1. Overt/confrontation.

Direct action. journalism — response articles, public argument, opinion pieces, etc, that are designed to help recast the debate from (Christian)Morality/Conservatism vs. Secular Humanism/”Liberalism” to one of restriction vs. equitable treatment, intolerance vs. tolerance, etc.

Direct action, cultural — lend artistic voices to benefits and protests. Consider that written/spoken media may be less powerful these days than visual/interactive, and look for opportunities to go multimedia where possible.

Boycotts of businesses that discriminate against oppressed populations and/or support conservative/oppressive social policies.

What else?

2. Covert/Subversion.

Specific ideas: the sign thing from my earlier post.

Bumper stickers/T-shirts that flip the script:

“LEFT WING PATRIOT”
“CULTURAL WARRIOR”
“MEAN RELIGION SUCKS”
“NOT MY PRESIDENT — OR ANYONE ELSE’S”

Street teams for infiltrating neighborhoods, etc. with contrary opinions. (Not sure what this looks like — just seems to bea method that might be useful.)

Try to avoid large scale demonstrations. I think they’ve lost their effectiveness.

PUT FACES ON ISSUES IN THE NEWS. Reduce abstractions, make stuff personal.

Take back our language from the Right. Speak of patriotism, morality, etc. as we talk of our own positions.

Fly the flag AND leftist iconography. Stop being afraid to claim our citizenship.

Avoid demonizing/stereotyping Christians as a group. Attack and relentlessly pursue behaviors, not people.

MORE!!!!! What do YOU got?


checking in…

Long day.

Seems like I didn’t miss a whole lot, looking back over the day’s entries.

The high point of my day was finally, decidedly, settling in to a confirmed 30-lb. weight loss (by which I mean the average fluctuations for the last week or so have been within a pound or two of a point 30 lbs off of my peak weight, which I was at when I started watching my carbs).

It is a measure, I think, of how overweight I am that people keep saying, “You’ve lost some weight, haven’t you?” and are then genuinely surprised when I tell them how much I’ve lost. It’s really not so noticeable yet. I can tell, of course.

I didn’t start out trying to lose weight. I started this because my meds manager suggested that I might be less groggy and lethargic from all those lovely drugs if I tried reducing my carb intake. It worked. The weight loss has been a welcome side effect.

Now if I could just find the right hair care products and win the culture war, I’d be happy.


checking in…

Long day.

Seems like I didn’t miss a whole lot, looking back over the day’s entries.

The high point of my day was finally, decidedly, settling in to a confirmed 30-lb. weight loss (by which I mean the average fluctuations for the last week or so have been within a pound or two of a point 30 lbs off of my peak weight, which I was at when I started watching my carbs).

It is a measure, I think, of how overweight I am that people keep saying, “You’ve lost some weight, haven’t you?” and are then genuinely surprised when I tell them how much I’ve lost. It’s really not so noticeable yet. I can tell, of course.

I didn’t start out trying to lose weight. I started this because my meds manager suggested that I might be less groggy and lethargic from all those lovely drugs if I tried reducing my carb intake. It worked. The weight loss has been a welcome side effect.

Now if I could just find the right hair care products and win the culture war, I’d be happy.


Three things before bed and a short disappearance.

1.

Condi Rice as Secretary of State. Bush gets the lapdog he always wanted.

2.

Don’t expect this to ring a bell with everyone, but Abimael Guzman, head of Sendero Luminoso (Shining Path ), the extremely violent Maoist/Native revolutionary movement in Peru, saw his trial collapse today when two out of three judges recused themselves.

I followed Sendero pretty closely at their peak in the 80s. Really, the first group of terrorists to make regular use of suicide bombers, most of whom were women. They also used to send dogs wired with explosives into crowded marketplaces.

It’ll be interesting to see what comes of this.

3.

I’ll be in a loooong-ass class through Thursday, so if you don’t hear from me, it doesn’t mean anything except I’m away from the computer.

Be well.


O NYC, my love, my other heart-home,

when will I come to you again for featury goodness?

I need an excuse to come down, dammit!!!!

I’ll even read poems for food.

Love me, NY. If I can make it there, I’ll have passed through Connecticut.


Like A Cigarette Should

If I still smoked,
I’d be lighting up right now
right after rolling out of bed
to taste the only cigarette
I would truly taste all day,
out of all the ones I’d smoke in a day
that was the one cigarette I wanted most,
the one every smoker lives for, the one I smoked
before anything else could get into
my body and come between the smoke
and the smoker, the one that smelled
like my father and his habits, him at the table
with a cup of coffee and the Tribune,
grunting merely, not seeing me
steal a Winston from the pack before school
so I could light up walking along the tracks
and suffer the giddy nausea as I walked,
wondering if the feeling went away
once you smoke more, wondering
if it got easier as you went along,
learning only later that it did not
and smoking even more after my father died of it
because it was what I did back then,
what I thought I was supposed to do,
keeping at it until you taste so little
you have to keep trying to find it again,
living beyond giddiness and nausea and my wondering
at where it all would go
until I saw myself in my father’s habits,
and saw my father in the dark bedroom, in the morning
when I awoke, and though I am like him
I am not him
so I quit.