by writing a paper about Anthony Braxton while listening to the Dresden Dolls.
Strangely (or not so strangely) Sonic Youth seems fine for this experiment, as does King Crimson’s “Red” album.
Not so the Jorma Kaukonnen, or the Bash and Pop.
I left the Braxton at work, or I’d be listening to that, of course.
Received this earlier tonight from a longtime local poet and all around cool person.
____________________________________________________________
Dear poets, hosts, and writing workshop leaders,
My name is Angela DiVeglia, and I am helping to run a poetry and spoken word event called Words 4 Change. We are in need of poets, storytellers, etc. to read at the event, and I was hoping that you could share the announcement (below) at your readings/workshops. Also, as I know most (if not all) of you are writers yourselves, I wanted to invite all of you to perform as well. Thank you for your help!
Words 4 Change is a poetry and spoken word event being held on Saturday, April 30, from 11 a.m. to 4 p.m. It is a fundraiser for the Boston Adult Literacy Fund, and will take place at the Boston University College of General Studies, 871 Commonwealth Avenue, Boston. We need poets and spoken word artists to perform at the event! If you are interested in sharing your words for a great cause, or if you have any questions, please email words_4_change@yahoo.com.
____________________________
Angela’s good people. Please do your thing.
I’m working on the NEXT paper, but had to pass this along:
At the end of Antiques Roadshow tonight (I played a little hooky) when they were doing the cute lil’ thing about people looking into the camera and talking about what a gas the whole shindig was, one woman held up a pistol (pointing it directly at her friend the whole time) and said,
“I learned all about this antique pistol which belonged to my late husband. He only fired it once.”
I’m numb these days.
It’s not that I feel bad, or that I feel good; it’s that I don’t really feel. It’s Virginia Woolf’s “cotton wool” in full effect: life lived through gauze.
I know it’s keeping me from the spike and the downward spiral, but I’m not sure flat is better.
I seem to be able to write, at least. It’s hard, but it’s doable.
The old myth about psychiatric drugs robbing you of your creativity is thus again disproved. I’ve always held it in contempt, as a creation of those who believe that artists must be miserable in order to create.
See, I’ve always believed that myth was created at least in part to scare people away from creative pursuits. The more you teach people that misery, poverty, and art go together, the less attractive it will seem.
This is not to say that I don’t acknowledge the established link between bipolar illness and literary success. I do. But to suggest that to treat the disorder will eliminate the creative spark? Horseshit.
If the only time you can write is when you’re depressed, you’re not a writer. You’re someone using writing as therapy. Which is fine, but it’s not the same.
And if you aren’t taking your drugs because you’re afraid of losing your edge…
Horseshit. You may have to work harder, but it’ll still be there.
Remember: you can’t write well in a catatonic state. You can’t write coherently in a psychotic state.
And you can’t write at all if you’re dead.
Continue readingI skipped the Asylum tonight, the first of a long series of nights I’m going to skip.
After all these years, I really feel out of it. It’s not my place anymore.
This is the right move. So why do I feel so guilty?
So — there I was
at the Salvation Army store
with Sandra Bernhard.
She had “Pretty Lady” snarls
coming out of every pore.
I stepped over into
the red tag specials
while she let rip a snorting rant
about the lack of opportunity
for whores these days. What is the point
of being a professional, she said,
with all these amateurs cluttering up
the trade? Her wig fell off then
and I recognized the face anew: someone
the television had featured, briefly,
perhaps a lottery winner or a fugitive
with a face once blurred for legal reasons
that stayed blurred afterward.
Sandra Bernhard, wherever you are,
I have hidden a vintage jacket in your size
in a box near the aisle of broken toasters.
Come soon, your doppelganger is moving toward the door,
and if she gets loose,
there’s no telling what will happen to you:
you might end up in a place
where nearly familiar faces thrill at first glance,
and just as quickly disappear into the crowd.
The Pope awakens in Nigeria
with a pen in his hand.
“I write to you, most esteemed
friend, in the hope of
succor in this hour of darkness.
I am Karol Wojytla, former Pope
of the Most Holy Roman and Apostolic
Catholic Church…”
He is aghast at
the foolishness of this. Is he not
a humble servant of God, the Holy Father
of millions, infallible in matters
of faith? Why should he need validation
in the Afterlife? Had he
had it wrong all along?
“…Due to recent uncertainties in
my life and times, I have been deprived
of my birthright and seek to protect what meager
resources I have left…”
Still trembling, he puts the pen down. He wants
to go to the window. All those people below him
in the street, waiting for a blessing…
Yes, that’s it. It’s all familiar now.
He shakes no longer, even as he begins to understand.
He looks out of the cinderblock frame
of the window, high over Lagos,
just another man
with a plan. Nothing’s changed, except this:
no one looks back at him.
“…I write to you now, as last hope
of deliverance, that I will transfer to your
account…”
What? What does he have now?
What will make them look?
i’m starting work on one, but am curious: are there any poems out there about “Nigerian Scams?”
Terry Schiavo, Mitch Hedberg, Prince Rainier, Pope John Paul, Johnny Cochran, Robert Creeley…
Can’t anyone die anonymously anymore?
Oh, wait. Now I remember…
The Event: Sample at the Bronx Museum of the Arts, a monthly open mike/feature reading. Curated beautifully by Oscar Bermeo (geminipoet)
Feature readers:
Eliel Lucero (ambitious and well built poetry, plus a nice guy — great stuff)
Kyra Wolfe (wonderful delivery of really excellent work; her last poem was the poem of the night for me)
Tony B (ancient hack)
LJ folks in attendance: sancochao, ladyliberate, azureflame, aurorabell.
Random thoughts:
— BELGIANS!!! A school group from Bruges in Belgium showed up at the museum for the reading just before it started. There had to be 5,000 of them. It was like looking out over a blond sea.
— If you are a shit-hot, fire-spittin’ rapper, you should consider that not leaving your crew behind, including your manager, when you approach the mic really damages your credibility. Especially when none of them can beatbox. At all. When they don’t even try, even though you’re nonplussed by the fact that there’s no music.
— And when your manager blames the venue for not having music.
— Oh, and you should reconsider your career overall when you SUCK OUT LOUD.
— On the other hand, the guy who was “Blessin’ the Mic” was pretty tight.
— Cuban Sandwiches rule, even without pickles.
— And meals for six people, including a couple of beers, for 39 bucks in NYC is excellent in general.
— This is a great venue, a good time, and you all need to go. NOW.
Thanks and love to all who came out! We stopped the war with Belgium!
I’m headed out the door for NYC! Come see me tonight at the Bronx Museum of the Arts, 6:30!
I’ve been working on this for a while; was playing with it last night as the drugs took hold. Woke up this AM determined to finish it so I could have it to possibly read tonight. Finally fell into place. The new hotness reigns!
See ya…
No
Somewhere between the time
I walked with you to my car
and the time I climbed through your window
to open the door because (you said)
you’d locked your keys inside, I lost
my uncle’s hollow-ground, double-edged
Russell boot knife with the word
“Othello” engraved on the blade.
More precisely: I lost it, I suspect, sheath and all, somewhere
in the pile of laundry you’d heaped under the window,
knocking it off my belt when I scraped through the frame.
And once I realized that, even though
I was terrified that I’d be subjected to
another bad recitation of what you called
“Noir Erotique” to me while I hunted for it,
I had to come back.
You were, of course, nude when I returned.
If you’re wondering why I asked you to put a robe on
and then turned and left after
the briefest search, here’s why:
I would rather you have the knife
and not know the story
than for me to have the knife
after telling you the story
while lying in bed together
after fucking you just that one time
(even though I didn’t like you)
only because we were both lonely.
I wish I could explain this better to you.
I know you’ve got the damn knife, whatever you say.
It surely cost a hundred dollars over the counter
and that’s just a small part of the price of the loss.
My father gave it to me,
his dead brother’s blade, when I was thirteen
and told me no man in our family was ever without a knife,
and to never forget that my uncle
never turned down a fight or a woman
in his whole damn life.
I left you with the knife because
I am not my father, not my uncle.
I may not know what I am just yet,
but I am not a man who clings to things
that could smother him
just because they leave
an empty space
when they are gone.
That’s the final line from my poem “Geodes” about Sept. 11, or rather about one man’s reaction to losing a woman he loved that day.
I hate that poem, was glad I wrote it, hate it anyway. Hate that it exists. Love that it exists. Hate that I felt the need to write it. Hate that I needed to write it. Glad — glad? — that I did.
Everything is a metaphor, and nothing really hurts, or feels good, or is beautiful until it is interpreted. All the works of words and energy devoted to our perceptions exist only to damage our experience of things.
If poets put down their pens in order to live, would poetry not exist anyway?
That line I wrote is true, but are we better off if we speak the names? Or will we be better off if we let them exist and listen to a god that whispers without demanding that we shout and exalt any of the names?
Dark Matter 