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Estrangement

Originally posted 3/5/2011.

What do you say to your long-lost arm
when it comes crawling back?

You’d better start thinking of how
you will answer; look behind you — 

here it comes,
one finger length at a time.

Do you demand to know where it went,
why it took so long 
to return? Or should you

ignore it, brazen it out,
turn and walk away,

its vacancy hanging
like a banner on your shoulder?

No, you owe it more than to break it like that,
seeing how it’s come so far 
seeking its former home.  

You should use finesse to bluff the past
whenever it comes back demanding its place.

You at least should know better than to say, 
“I’ve gotten used to living without you.  

I have a better hold on things without you,”
even though it’s true.

Don’t be that cruel. Show it a little love.
At the least, lay a light kiss upon its open hand.

You have nothing to lose now
from offering it that moment of care, nothing

you could not easily surrender,
regain, and retain. That is, after all,

why you are now whole
in spite of having lost it in the first place.


Want to hear a poem or two?

Indiefeed, the premier site for podcasts of live poetry of ALL sorts, has long been a supporter of the poetry and music ensemble I perform and record with, The Duende Project.  Here’s a podcast with commentary on a cut from our last album, “Basement Takes.”  Hope you enjoy it.

On Nantucket

If you do like what you hear, ALL of our albums are available for purchase as digital downloads in any format you choose here:

Bandcamp for The Duende Project

And we occasionally post demos of prospective recordings for future albums here for your listening and occasional FREE downloading pleasure here:

Soundcloud for The Duende Project

Give any or all a listen!

Thanks,
Tony


Season’s Greetings to all…

Whatever your spiritual or family tradition, may this season be one of reflection, increasing light, and love.  Thanks for reading here over the last year; hope to see you all in 2015.


Flight

Originally posted 7/12/2003.  The OLDEST poem on this blog, though not even remotely my oldest poem.

There’s a hole in me the size of a departing flight.
Something taxis up to my edge and takes off,
flying out of me toward a horizon.

Not that I can see that horizon;
that’s just what planes are supposed to fly into these days. 
It used to be the wild blue yonder that planes

flew into, but no one thinks planes are that wild anymore —
they seem to us more like stale buses
full of cranky people eating meals

that never fill them,
in precisely the same way
that nothing fills me now. 

Somehow I keep thinking 
even after my mind falls into this hole
and disappears.

I keep thinking that I’m going to rise
and follow that vapor trail into the blush,
catch up to the flight before the sun goes down.

You’d think I’d know better by now.
I ought to know better by now. I ought to be able
to figure this one out.  Some flights

are just lost. You can’t catch
a plane that has been lost, 
not by thinking.


Note to all subscribers

I’m sorry for the low number of posts lately.  I’ve been involved in the demonstrations and other work being done around the current situation in the US.  It has taken up a lot of time, my energy, and now my health to some extent.  I’ll be fine, but I will likely be somewhat detached from my work here for a bit.

Please, please, PLEASE look up some older poems here if you could.  I write them for more than the moment, y’know.

Thanks.

Tony


New demo track available on Soundcloud

Carve on Soundcloud

Above, you’ll find a link to a demo recording of my poem “Carve” — something I laid down tonight as a demo for the Duende Project.  If you like it, it’s available as a free download.  Thanks!

T


Sound and vision: Four Stones

I recorded a demo for the Duende Project for my recent poem, “Four Stones.”  It’s available for free download here:

SoundCloud

Hope you enjoy it!  Let me know what you think.  Thanks!


Gravedancers’ Ball

Originally posted 2/26/2011.

Which graves we choose
to tarantelle upon 
is less relevant
than realizing we all 
have the deep longing 
to dance on the grave
of some dead someone 
whose movement once
made us hate and rage.

We love to sin that light fantastic.
Can’t sit still — red, blue, 
left, right — love that happy dance.
How soft the ground, how haughty 
our heels. How good it feels to swing
on top of them; they can’t do a thing
about it. 

A beautiful American word,
revenge; it names
a toe dance of righteousness.
Everyone’s tapping. Some on top,
some impatiently waiting
their long delayed turn,
every smoldering one of us

wanting the last dance.


Phoenix (for Blair)

Originally posted 7/24/2011.  

The cut on my arm reminds me
that after the phoenix has flown some
always gather around its birth-hearth
to stir the ashes with dirty sticks.
What do they expect will come of that — 

is it the same thing
I expected
from the blood
I drew from myself
when I heard he was gone?

Did I think that if I drew enough,
the phoenix would rise again
from where my blood
had pooled? I don’t know.
I’m old enough to know better

but for a second there I became young again
and fell in love with childhood magic,
believing that if I gave enough
and hurt enough,
the phoenix would return.

I am old enough
to know better
so I bind the wound
and listen as I do
for the song.

The myth says when the bird flies
he sings, and the song
burns the air behind him
with the fire 
that released him.

A myth becomes a myth
not because it’s a lie,
but because it is a truth
that cannot ever
die for long.

It rises again and again.
It flies blazing
up from the ash.
It is never in the ash.
It is in the clean, bloodless sky.

— for David Blair


Publication news…

My poem, “Exam Questions For The Next World” appears today in the online journal “Truck.” Very pleased about that.

TRUCK


Photo

Photo

Just in case you were actually wondering what I look like…Photo credit upon request…


A note to the daily subscribers to Dark Matter…

Just wanted to give you folks, you 500+ loyal readers, a hearty thank you and a heads up.  

After 40 some years of writing new poems pretty regularly, I am coming to a point I am calling the Hard Stop.  I will be completing and posting another 19 poems, and then calling a stop to the writing and posting of NEW work.

I’ve got a backlog of over 2000 poems on this blog alone.  In other files and archives are roughly another 2000, dating back to early high school efforts (say, 1974 or so).  Many of them — perhaps the vast majority — are not very good.  But some of those might actually benefit from a second look and more editing and revision.  

I have decided that this will be my focus for the future.  I think I have enough material written to work with for the rest of my lifetime, frankly.

I will also be working hard on submissions to various journals and compiling one or more manuscripts as well.  There are some logistical things that will need to be worked out around those efforts — namely, finding journals and presses that don’t consider this blog a “publication” — but I’ve dealt with that before and no doubt will figure it out again.

I will continue to post “newly revised” poems as often as I can, so you may not actually notice a large reduction in posts.  I do hope you’ll see and appreciate any improvements I make no matter how often I post.

Your loyalty and readership have been a great comfort to me over the years.  I think every poet — every artist — needs a great audience.  You have been that for me, and I thank you yet again.

I hope you stay with me on this next phase of the journey.  I will understand if you choose not to, of course.  

Here’s to the future.  I think the next 19 new poems or so will be interesting to write and I hope you let me know how you feel about them and about this.  

Thanks, again.

Tony Brown
May 9, 2014


Recent Publication

http://drunkinamidnightchoir.com/

The link above will take you to a relatively new online journal, “Drunk In A Midnight Choir,”  which published three of my poems this week.  I don’t submit to publications all that often, so I’m always pleased when pieces are accepted.  

The work being published in this journal is excellent, and I highly recommend adding the publication to your reading.

My thanks to the editors for their kind attention.

–T


Note to subscribers

Just a note to regular subscribers — I’m still writing but am in a cycle of revisions and also working on music for my poetry/music group The Duende Project.  There’s been a bit of a break in posting new work, I know…but that will change shortly.  Thanks for your patience…


Shameless Horn Tooting

Happy Thanksgiving indeed…grateful and pleased to hear that my poem “The Blood I Can Draw” has been nominated for a Pushcart Prize by the good folks at Radius.

Very honored — they have a lot of amazing work to choose from and it’s nothing I would have expected. Thanks!

Maybe fourth time will be the charm… 😉