Category Archives: poetry

Gratitude

Thanks for the shrimp
and the butter on my chin.
Thanks for the way they pop
going in.

Thanks for the momentary,
the transient, the true
for a moment.  Thanks for
sharing my ineptitude.

Thanks for the level gaze,
the fingers tip-tapping on my wrist.
Thanks for the falling, the landing,
soft focus, pulse, resist.

No knee to take, no head to bow.
Thanks for the upright posture, your stand
in favor of receiving my difficult offer.
Thanks for open ears, open hand.

Gratitude’s a piece of charred wood
with a core still sound and deep grained.
Thanks for your willingness to burn
when you lifted it from my flame.

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Adam’s Joy (draft)

They were the People. 
The People Who Defined. 
Who took to heart the dictum
that good fences make good neighbors.
Who wanted to be seen as Good Neighbors
and had to reconcile that
with the need to own completely
both what was inside
and what was outside
The Fences. 

So they were The People,
and the others were The Others.  Easy at first
when all that was required was to say
this is a House and that is Not, this
is Our Side Of The Fence and that is Yours
(also defined as Theirs For Now). 

That’s a Rabbit
than can jump freely over, and a Fox
that can follow.  That’s a Stream
which cuts through.  (They call it a Creek
over the Fence.)  That Stone
is the defining Stone.  Any other stone
is measured against that Stone, is found
Wanting.  Easy, easy,
easy…Adam’s Joy,
they called it.

The People ran into trouble
when it came to the abstract: what is Freedom, for instance,
when there’s that Fence plainly creating an exception
to however Freedom would come to be defined?
Take this Poetry, they said,
or this Painting, or this Rhetoric;
this Music.  How to define those things
when there’s another definition over the Fence
and we need to include both if we are to own it all?

Perhaps, said the Wisest Of The People,
we could define by negation to begin? 
So the Others have no Poetry, no Art,
and we can say that what we have Is,
and theirs is Not That, and What We Have is
Not Theirs?

But what if we want That Which They Have,
said some of the People.  And what if we consider
that they may have their own definitions?  Perhaps
Adam’s Joy is cumulative and not exclusive.
Perhaps we may find more Joy over the Fence.

Then we shall redefine enough to hold them
in our Paddocks and Pastures, said the Wisest.
We shall move the Fence, and call their definitions
into question for being Lesser, or Stolen.
Or perhaps,

you are not of the People?
Perhaps we missed something when we fenced you in
with us? 

Whatever, said a painter
and a sculptor and a poet.  Whatever,
said the Free. 
We just do.  We
are the source of definition,
and the Fence is nothing to those
who have no idea of neighborhoods.
Who look over the top
and never look down.

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The Fan

There you are,
resplendent
and undeniably
on the slab, perhaps
prematurely but
still certain of
the oncoming
outpouring of grief
and accolades —
how much did you have to spend
to get this deep into the luxury
of wallowing in your own mortality?

If the ring on your finger
falls off when you decay,
can I have it?  Is it
a poison ring
with a compartment
full of rationale? Or
instead is it a charm,
scarab as saturated
with your obsession
as any Egyptian artifact?
Seems a shame
not to perpetuate
your masterpiece of suffering,
not to allow someone else
the chance to extend
the metaphor
for a few years yet;

let me try it on at least;
let me see what I can do
with what you’ve started.

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Vintage

In pursuit of
an indescribable
quality, hipsters
search for vintage

as if past
holds spice
not easily found
in present.

Without pretending
to be ancient, still
obsessed with
their own youth,

they adorn firm wrists
with patina-dull watches
they will overwind
and deck taut throats

with cameos
as if those permanent
faces could mask
how their own

will soon droop
and vanish
into that same past
they revere

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Retort

this is just to say
I read
your note

if you think
poetry excuses theft
you’re wrong

however

I am prepared
to drop the charges if

you’ll replace
the plums

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Settling The Guitar

into the lap.
hand on the gloss —
quick rubout of the spot
on the bass side.  first note
a B fretted high on the first string.
always, the same note to begin —

all art a recovery
from first stroke.  first stroke
always awkward, always the same.

settling the guitar into the lap —
angle its face up, music up
and out in ascent.
tough on the left wrist, though.
tough on the hands that have to work
the column of sound.

the wood’s too bright
to make this dark a song
this Sunday.

into the wood, settling
the guitar, the axe
on the leg.  chop at it —
and a beer would taste good
if only convention kept me
from opening one this early.
and I would have to stand up
and I’ve just settled the guitar,
the axe, the music into place.

settling the guitar into place
for playing.  chop wood, carry
a tune.  woodshedding a new song.
settling into place.

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OSPREY

you call yourself a poet
which means you arrange words
into patterns for fun or
profit as do the professional
crossword puzzlers among us.  if you
call yourself a performance poet
it means that more people
than just you and your mom
like the sound of your voice when
you describe the patterns you have been arranging
for fun or profit which makes you much the same
as a crossword puzzler who goes on the radio
to speak of crosswords.  if you call yourself
a page poet you do crossword puzzles
in the privacy of your own home.  if you call
yourself a political poet you look for clues
in crossword puzzles and tell everyone
what you’ve found.  if you call yourself
a love poet you get a tingle down under
whenever you figure out 16 across.  if you
call yourself a slam poet you get a tingle
down under at the prospect of arithmetic
which makes you a sudoku puzzler.  if you
don’t call yourself a poet at all and prefer to say
just that you write poems now and then you might be
a person who when bored or thoughtful
picks up a discarded puzzle on the train
and fills in the empty blanks left by the last puzzler
while staring out the window wondering
what’s a six letter word for fish eagle
when the second letter is S and the last is Y.
you don’t figure out it is OSPREY until you’ve left
the train and the puzzle behind and you spend
the rest of the day with a photorealistic image
of an osprey in your head all though every meeting
and dull lunch break.  
see that? 
now you are just another
person obsessed with a word and its meaning
and how it might carry you through tough times
and how it fits into a pattern
and while that sounds like it might make you
at last
a poet worthy of the claim
really you will still be a casual gamer
unless and until you become
the osprey
and forgo the debate in favor of
the hunt.

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The Morning After

First, remembering
how cool her skin was under your fingers
when you first touched it,
though it did not stay that way…then,

hearing your mother’s angry heels
in the downstairs hallway as she starts in with,
“Are you up?  What time
did you get in? Did your idiot friend

bring you home? I didn’t hear
his muffler this time — did he get it fixed?
Get down here or you’ll be late for school.
We’ll talk about this tonight.”

Still wrapped in last night,
you rouse yourself from the shining inside you
to consider the answers
you’d like to give her: no, it was not

your idiot friend did not bring you home.
He hasn’t fixed his muffler. You don’t know
what time you got home, but there’s no way
you’ll be late for school today,

and no,
you will not talk with her
about any of this
tonight.

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The Storm

We aren’t about to address the storm
if to speak will change our voices.

We’ll watch it tear our sacred groves
into splinters.

We’ll stand in front of it
as it lifts us into the rubble.

We’ll whisper as we cower
under the eaves hoping it will pass.

But to offer a word against it,
spell out our power and force it back?

No.  Not that.
It’s not a good time.  It’s not

what we were made for.  We were built
to watch it kill us

and then blame someone
for not speaking.  We were made

to be silent and let the storm
carry our voices away.

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Clouds Over Reactors

Steam above reactors:
what might be in there?

How false or honest are the possible answers?
Frankly, I don’t care. 

I adore
this not being sure

because I can fill the vaccuum
with my own terror.

I’ve been looking for a place
to put it and keep it from pressing

on my recent joy and calm.  It’s not directly
relevant at all; I don’t have to stress

that I’ll be on fire soon or turn up dripping
skin, tending a body rife with tumors.

Those clouds billow and abstract into threat —
not my threat, though. These rumors

are just art to be savored. The reactors
are my gallery, my museum of doubt.

I sit a long time before the news.
When’s the end coming? I try to work that out.

Someone’s going to burn soon.
It won’t be me.  I can watch it and be glad

even as I sob and gasp at the thought
of lives ending, lives I never had.

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Music For Funerals (old poem revisited)

It seems to happen often
that I receive
a phone call to request music
for a friend’s funeral. 

This is my role in my circle, my holy manacle,
this ability to know the voice of personal
grief intimately well; the understanding of which songs will speak for us
the way we would if we could stop our voices from cracking.

When it happens I run through a list in my head
at once, moving to the CD rack
only after some thought.
This time, I hear Cat Stevens and Richie Havens;

the time before that, it was Des’ree, Sweet Honey in the Rock, ZapMama;
in the past I’ve heard Ornette Coleman and Frank Sinatra
alternating with Johnny Ramone and Frankie Laine, have laid on the floor
trying to choose between the requiems of Gounod and Mozart, and selecting both at last.

Sometimes I reach for the guitar, thinking that maybe this time
I will compose a song that will
make all future requests moot. It never happens,
but I still think of it from time to time,

imagining that all at once I will know
the song I have always wanted to find: the one
that, if played well enough,
will bring them back.

When I go, don’t make anyone choose songs for my funeral.
When I go, burn me like sheet music, burn me like hell money,
burn me the way children burn their parents’ love letters.
Lift any uncrumbled pieces from my ashes with drumsticks held like chopsticks.

Set them in a tambourine, take turns pounding it, set me rattling against that skin.
Ring me out until we all grow hoarse
and our voices become as soft and ragged as old clothes.
Make me into the song I never could write by myself.

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Me For President (Platform)

I would make a good President
because I would have to be dragged
kicking and screaming to the job
because I am relatively free of the mental defect
that would make me think I could do the job
and that makes me more qualified
than those who usually try and do it

I would make a good President
of these Disunited States
because of all the hot bones in my closet
I’ve been everything at one point or another
and everyone could find in me something to hate
or use to declare me unfit for the office

I would make a good President
because my father’s an Apache right off the rez
and my mother’s an Italian immigrant
(don’t worry, she got here legally —
not so sure about my dad)
I’ve got the whole American Dream covered
in one package, baby —
was here, came here
colonized, colonizer

I’d make a good President
because I have inhaled
snorted popped booted swallowed
all the good national drugs —
money fame and casual cruelty
to my fellow Americans
and while I’m on the wagon now
I still know my way around
a finger flipped in traffic
whether domestic or foreign
(I know my enemies can change
on a dime into allies and back again
from years of merging onto freeways)

I’d make a great President
because I’ve got the allegedly necessary genitalia
for the job
I don’t look biracial
so I can be slotted without too much fuss
and I know how to wink and nudge
and slap a back when a back needs slapping

I’m not running
if nominated will not run
if elected will not serve
but boy howdy I’d be good at it
and man oh man you’ll be kicking yourself
next time the vote comes around
that I wasn’t in the race
in fact
I’m thinking of changing my name
to
None Of The Above
just to test the waters

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How To Interpret Current Events: A Lesson Plan

Start with a Tunisian fruit vendor
who sets himself on fire.  Add
an entire region which subsequently demands
that he shall not have burned for nothing.

Multiply by the shifting
of tectonic plates, factor in
water, water everywhere, some of it
carrying fire deep into Japan.

Determine
your valuation of the variable stories
of body counts, scenarios,
what the army wants, what the reactors
will do, what (if anything)
has actually happened
in these places you’ve never seen —

then,
subtract your attention. 
Get up.
Go to the sink.  Pour yourself
a plastic glass of water.  Get
a snack of winter grapes
from the fridge.  Sit back down
on the sofa
and turn the TV off,
sip the water,
eat the grapes
one at a time.

Show your work.  Struggle
to swallow.  Remind yourself
you survived a bad winter
and you’re working again.

Damn the oil companies
and the nuclear industry.
Resolve to call your representative,
to send money
to Egypt.

After an hour,
turn the TV back on.
Find a way
to take your mind off things.

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Colors/Conflict

Red comes first, heat
among the rods and cones.
Then black, to hide
the humanity of the Other.
Yellow’s the final hue,
the cry of the flash as it
comes home.  We’ve got
red stripes, black ops,
yellow ribbons —
why does it feel like
we’re out of order?

Blue, blue water,
drenching fire; white, the
blank peace after.  Much
of the flag remaining
unused.  What do we see
when it waves?  We’re
the big bull.  Movement
and charge. 

I sit with my hand on my eyes.
Press hard on the sockets, bring up
red, call up black;
no yellow, no blue, no white.
Not now.  Only
the blind palette of hatred.
Only the colors of not feeling
the result.  It’s
exactly enough, like
a damned orgasm.

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Clown Therapy

Clown says,

“C’mon, it’s all copasetic.”

Says,

“If you dare claim you are afraid of me
you can kiss my bagged-out ass.
Both our hearts are costumed;
my pulse is as naked underneath
as yours.”

Clown,
dress-up id,
says,

“Let’s get in that car with
my bosom friends. I’m
looking forward
to getting to know you.”

Open your eyes once inside.
You’re not laughing,
exactly; there’s not enough
room for that. But
you’re not crying exactly,
either.

All these shoes,
for one thing,
seem to have
improved your mood.

Clown says,
“This is called
getting over it,”

and you honk
your surprised assent.

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