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About Tony Brown

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A poet with a history in slam, lots of publications; my personal poetry and a little bit of daily life and opinions. Read the page called "About..." for the details.

prayer

you
bastard
hear me

you
who never bends this beam
enough to break it
only warping it
enough to make it
useless to anyone else

somehow
you must find the curve
of this discard
of some interest
considering how often
you weigh it down

you must be a gambler
the way you make book
on this timber holding
fast

how you must love the lines
that can be traced along the shape
of its stress

and that’s it
isn’t it
it’s not about the wood
is it
it’s all about you
isn’t it

well then
load it on
you
son of hell
you fat august reverend
assclown
add another pound
hundredweight
ton

we both know
it’s gonna go
someday
but heaven be damned
if it breaks
until it’s bent almost
over
on itself

until a pencil
dragged against
its boundaries
describes
a divine
trajectory


Blind Bill Yeats, Delta Bard (revised)

Funny what a newly restrung guitar and a good drop-D tuning will do for ya. 😉

Second Coming Blues

Well, I ain’t superstitious
But a rough beast just crossed my path
Well, I ain’t superstitious
But a rough beast just crossed my path
Said the center isn’t holding
And my hour’s coming round at last

No I ain’t superstitious
But a rough beast just slouched my way
You know, I ain’t superstitious
But this rough beast just slouched my way
Said you’re between me and Bethlehem
And I’m late for my birthday

Well, the center isn’t holding
And the best lack all conviction
A cradle’s rocking gently
But the falcon just went missin’ —

Well, I ain’t superstitious
But a rough beast just crossed my path
Well, I ain’t superstitious
But a rough beast just crossed my path
Said the center isn’t holding
And my hour’s coming round at last


The Black Spot Cafe

Many eons ago, there was a Cape Cod Slam. It was based in a cafe in Hyannis, MA, called The Prodigal Son.

The Prodigal Son closed. Now, the business has reopened as The Black Spot Cafe. Serves excellent coffee and sandwiches, the owner is a wine connoisseur and the wine, beer, and mixed drink selection reflects that. WiFi, cool art, and an overall thoughtfully but not pretentiously progressive sensibility make the place one I shall revisit.

Last night, Duende had a gig there. Tiny audience for this new reading — 6 people, including the host (Jose Gouveia) and not including our entourage. It was only their second night and there was some sort of baseball game on (I brought my laptop so we could keep track of the score for the, um, audience — yeah, that’s right, the audience) so there were two BIG factors for the low attendance…and I don’t feel too bad, as we equalled Regie Gibson’s turnout for last month.

We played a good set; Faro did some unexpected improvising on a couple of pieces which was FUN, and it was a good night. Some good connections came out of it; we were asked back to play as a featured MUSICAL act, which I consider a big triumph since we want to take this outside of the poetry scene.

And…a full payday as promised, even considering the low turnout. Gotta respect that.

Highly recommended. Good Time.

NEXT DUENDE GIG: November 11. Cambridge, MA. The Lizard Lounge. Expect some jammin’ with the Jeff Robinson Trio…we got a little taste of that in April when we performed with Marc Smith and Regie and Iyeoka and Adam and all; this time, the mere thought of having two basses on stage along with Jerome and Jeff has us salivatin’. Be there!


Anyone interested in a road trip…

might want to head down to the Black Spot Cafe in Hyannis, MA tonight.

Duende’s headlining a gig at the recently revitalized Cape Cod Slam. They’re planning a Poetry + Music night, encouraging folks to perform with music. There’s also a spotlight feature by Isis, from Denver.

Fun starts around 7. I’d offer rides to folks, but I’m not leaving from Worcester and think I’ll have a full car.

Hope to see you!!!


Someone at Gotpoetry tonight read a poem about how they saw fascism in the eyes of militant vegans, and dedicated it to the folks at AS220.

Seems a little extreme, but I did understand it.

And Laura Moran? Wonderful as always…one of my favorites.

Listening to Laura makes me think there are three tiers within the performance scene — the poets who read their page work off page, those who have learned to perform works originally written for the page, and those for whom the stage is the medium. No critique there because there are great poets in each tier…but I have to say I find the most kindred spirits in the second tier.


Borrowed time

http://www.deathclock.com/

Of course, this has been around for a while and many of us have done it, but I looked at it again tonight and got a shock: according to this, I died eight years ago.


Persistence of Memory

Somehow
it is comforting
that when I see
a big cat (tiger lion
leopard or the like)
on the television, I can still imagine
how the teeth would feel
piercing my forearm, crushing through
into the bone; I can picture the beast
pulling my arm off of me thoughtfully,
chewing on it with a break now and then
to yawn, leaving me to thrash and then succumb
to pain and blood loss just off screen
while my arm is immortalized on film,
while horrified cameramen are unable
to tear themselves away from the scene
even as the host of the show intones
warnings of the power and majesty
of these creatures, even as I died the cat
would be uninterested in that death, having enough
to hold his interest in the way the tendons
pass among his teeth, I am satisfied that this moment
would still have felt correct,
as though I had made of myself a sacrifice to prehistory
that would feel better than the quiet death of cholesterol
and old age, as if I had somehow tied myself back into
something more than what I deserve, as if the cat that killed me
allowed me a gift of understanding what the tendons in my arm
were meant to do.


Remember I asked for good thoughts last week?

I’m asking for them again…for tomorrow AM. Say, between 10 and 1.

All will be revealed shortly, I promise.


It

It understands that it isn’t enough to be beautiful.
It knows that it’s not enough to be true.
It’s able to move when it’s threatened.
It knows how to run.

It has a regret or two every minute.
It allows them to speak then forgets them.
It has a motto it will not merchandize.
It models itself on its history.

It ought to have been born later.
It should have spent more time outdoors.
It should have been aware of its unlimited scope.
It needed more teeth in its mouth.

It chews what it can as much as it can before it swallows.
It makes do.
It learns incrementally.
It is at peace with what it has become.


Left Over Boy

Left over boy thinks his face ought to be
darker by now, hands should be
more gnarled, tongue
more supple. He hates
his easy aging, despises
the leisure in his eyes.
On a Thursday night he slips
his cigarettes into his jacket
and heads for a bar, a dive bar, first
cruising the main drag for a hooker
even though he would never, would never…
a left over boy would never, instead
the women would fall onto him, pay him,
give up their lives for him. Left over girls,
he thinks, know guys like him are good for
a cigarette and a soft shoulder. All that darkness
makes him a good listener, he thinks,
he thinks…At the bar
there are dangerous men who look
the way he thinks he should look. Forget
his own arms lengthened by years of carrying briefcases —
these guys have been stunted and strengthened
by what they do for a living.
He thinks he could have been one of them. He knows
he is one of them, he thinks,
he thinks…

he thinks about his high school, the awards
for math and science, how he mounted the stage
with a pistol under his jacket, not that he’d have used it
that day, but the thought of it made the hours
under the desk lamp palatable, the cheap old crime novels
under the bed that made the stolen gun sacred, the sacred
that made the grind worth grinding, the taunts of the jocks
that made the sacred necessary. Every time
he opened a book he thought of opening a vein
in someone who made him think too hard. He wanted
a life full of hard feeling, hard life borne well
by a brilliant mind gone fungal in the fertile dark…

he thinks he should have fired the gun at least once.

At the end of the night
he goes home alone,
sways while he pets the cat,
then stays up late
in clean underwear
over a few more cigarettes,
watching a police show.
He’d have gotten away with it
if it had been him, he thinks, he thinks…


Bye bye, Tribe…

I honestly don’t think Boston can beat the Rockies, but nothing makes me gladder than the departure of fucking Chief Wahoo.


Go Boston…

because if I have to look at Chief Wahoo during the series, I’m gonna puke.


Sad news for reggae fans….

Lucky Dube is dead:

http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/africa/7052050.stm


Erotic poetry

1.
Why is so much erotic poetry read in the slam scene these days so bad? Give the amount of bad poetry I hear at open mikes, I suppose it shouldn’t surprise me….but God, it seems like the addition of sex to the formula makes for an astronomically higher degree of suck.

2.
And why is it that men in particular have such bad imaginations about sex??? If I read or hear one more awful male authored dick wetting, pussy soaking, cum drizzling, nut-busting, nipple-licking piece of not at all sexy shit, I’m gonna become a monk.


hi folks…

Just a note — if you bought a book from me online, they’re going out tomorrow. I’ve been busy as hell the last week or so what with being on the road and such. But I’m committed to getting them out. Sorry for the delay.