You are planning a murder
when you are interrupted by sunlight.
Predawn, post-sleep had been devoted to
a revenge fantasy; it’s gone now.
It would have been so sweet,
and so cold. A true plum
of an execution, a person
richly deserving, someone whose absence
would make your presence whole.
Your fingers are still itching to think of it.
But there you were mid-plot
and the sun rose above the house next door
and came in through the window
like a damned angel, and you woke fully up
and there you were, fat old snoozer
emerging from your avenger dreams;
your old nemeses long dead
or as infirm as you are now;
you’ve had a pretty good life
so far as well and as searing as
the old days were, doing this would be
either a crown or a crash; no guarantees.
Anyway, with your hands and body
you’d likely couldn’t handle the work.
So: here’s the sunlight. Remember how
you’ve always been a good boy, a very good boy.
You’ll be a very good boy today,
all the way to dusk. All the way through
to the night and the bed. Tomorrow
is another day and between now and then
there will be more fantasy of opportunity and motive;
after all, even a very good boy can dream.