This last defiant breath
I will not release
without a struggle. To breathe it
would be to admit
I’m past resistance
and have surrendered
to easy despair
with the world and its
grasp upon me, that I’ve begun
to interpret the velvet of
its grip on my throat as
less heinous than that
of an iron hand crushing
me swiftly into choke though
the end result will be the same:
my white-lit death. My tunnel
opening. Even if I remain
alive after breathing, that moment will signify
my willingness to walk into
my own captivity to their New World —
so I fight, holding my breath
against that. If I die fighting, may it be
that my body will hold that breath
for the next fight, the next fighter,
then for the next fight and fighter
and all the ones after that;
not only for my world,
but for those to come.
