Daily Archives: January 22, 2016

The Eighties

Imagine a video, grainy, herky-jerk
in the style of the day.  
There would be music —

ambient cheese,
machine dribbles and drip-drops

behind a voiceover of a poet
intoning something trivial.

The visual would be of a person in a crowded reception hall.  
Celebrities honored and infamous slapping them on the back.

Come-ons, sly glances,
hero worship.

The person walks home, accosted by random passers-by
insisting upon artifacts, autographs, posed pictures —

everyone’s got a camera, not a cell phone to be seen —
it’s a tourist town. The person is an attraction.

Gets home, climbs stairs,
sits heavily down amid squalor. 

Buries face in hands, or tries to, but the face passes through the hands
and now the person finds they are behind the neck,

as if there were cuffs to be applied
or a bullet is coming to the skull soon.

Outside, a crowd gathers,
looking up at the window, all of them holding candles.

Dissolve to seascape. The person walking, translucent;
the ocean can be seen through their twinkle, the moon above it all.

The person leaps into the surf as the shot dissolves again
to the crowd, the candles, the fade out.

If this were the Eighties we could get away with this:
the music dripping, the poem droning,

the air glimmering, the crowds desperate
for the Touch Of Meaning. The open ending, the after shrug.

And the Person, who exists in the video
for the sole purpose of being a patsy for the Director

who cannot be bothered to explain any of this
in later years when asked about it.

The Director waves an airy hand, says, 
“It was the Eighties. We got away with murder.” 

Didn’t everyone alive then
feel that way?
Didn’t it seem
like one big crime scene?
Didn’t it feel like
there was a concealed weapon
under every jacket? A body
in every trunk? There was a mystery
to be solved upon waking
every damn day and we all
were trying to solve it,

and we never did. It became 
the Nineties and then the Aughts
and now everyone can smell 
the bodies left unburied and 

everyone left has their hands up,
waiting.


Nothing Special

You keep at it 
as if being a poet is special.
There’s nothing special about it —

you see a thing you need to survive,
chase it down, catch it, consume it,
spend hours after cleaning up after yourself
and the mess you’ve made of it, then
sleep until it’s time
to do it again.  Any cheetah can do it,
does it without a lot of thought.

Or you roam constantly foraging
and now and then break into a full run
zigging, zagging, leaping. Looks like fun
to the world watching but it’s complete 
terror on the hoof and maybe (eventually,
probably, certainly)
you die at the end; nothing to it,
any antelope could do it, does it
without a lot of thought.

Yet there you are, doing it
and straining to do it
and pouring angst about it
into a cup fashioned for blood, 
and you want
some kind of award
or some kind of book deal
or some kind of video ranking
or some kind of love for doing it —
God, look at yourself;
could you even survive
if you had to? Could you cheat death
multiple times, or even once?

You want fame for how hard
you’ve made this? You want joy
for being what you have no choice
in being?
Get running or
get gone.
Nothing to this
but that.