In the way a house where a murder happened
is sometimes hated and left empty for months
after, though the wood and walls
were not guilty of anything
and merely contained it, though the house
is not a murderer or a murder,
I let a person
step into me after careful consideration
and listening to them for a long while,
let them use my body and voice to speak
since I had an audience
and they did not, but might
once they stepped back out,
when people saw what I had done
they called me a liar and shunned me,
for ritual demands a sacrifice
and confusion
leads to black magic,
but that is what a shaman does
or a poet sometimes does, this comes
with the title, this dislike
is honorable, who told you
you were supposed to be beloved
all the time, it was never something
I was promised, nothing I expected,
and while there’s pain, in the end
a voice was well-heard though it was not mine,
and is the hearing not enough
to make the sacrifice worthwhile?
The Spirit wants only hearing, after all.

March 9th, 2010 at 12:11 pm
This is very disturbing to me for some reason. I can’t put my finger on it. I’ve read it multiple times and each time I want to stop reading before “ritual demands” even though that’s the strongest voice of the poem. Amazingly done. I have to say I like it a lot, not withstanding my scaredy cat comments.
Pearl
March 9th, 2010 at 3:05 pm
There’s a lot of debate in the slam world about “persona poems” — poems where the poet takes on another voice, another skin, or even the more loosely defined work that creates a fictional character to speak. A lot of slammers think of it as lying to do that. This poem comes from that debate. (I’ve way oversimplified it for this comment.)
March 9th, 2010 at 3:18 pm
Oh. Nevermind then. Sorry to have misread it.
Pearl
March 9th, 2010 at 4:15 pm
Oh, no, Pearl — there’s a definite and deliberate creepiness to it. I hope it transcends the debate to work for others not involved in the debate — that’s just what spurred it.
March 9th, 2010 at 7:33 pm
Well then, don’t block me from your blog for saying that serial killers would really like it. Ahem. Pearl
March 9th, 2010 at 10:51 pm
HA!