I’m just starting to realize

how difficult it is for me to not be spending much time at iWPS this year.

I’ll be up on Wednesday after SPEAK, taking Thursday off to play with y’all, MCing a bout on Thursday night, and then I’m gone until Finals night — working Friday, class Friday night, class all day Saturday, and I can’t even play much Saturday night because I have class Sunday AM.

I miss you guys, and I know it’s likely that with school becoming a more intensive part of the next couple years, I won’t tour much or get out around here as much, either.

I’ll be 47 when I get my degree. 3 years from 50. Damn.

Well, we’ll always have LJ.

Think any of us will still be in slam in two years? I know I won’t, though I’ll always be a poet, till the day I die.

But I do wonder where the rough beast is headed. It certainly seems to be slouching these days.

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72 responses to “I’m just starting to realize

  • emceereeree

    Re: as long as i get to see you for like, a SECond

    ok, good.
    YAY!

  • emceereeree

    Re: as long as i get to see you for like, a SECond

    ok, good.
    YAY!

  • emceereeree

    Re: as long as i get to see you for like, a SECond

    ok, good.
    YAY!

  • emceereeree

    Re: as long as i get to see you for like, a SECond

    ok, good.
    YAY!

  • emceereeree

    Re: as long as i get to see you for like, a SECond

    ok, good.
    YAY!

  • emceereeree

    Re: as long as i get to see you for like, a SECond

    ok, good.
    YAY!

  • emceereeree

    Re: as long as i get to see you for like, a SECond

    ok, good.
    YAY!

  • emceereeree

    Re: as long as i get to see you for like, a SECond

    ok, good.
    YAY!

  • multimediagrl

    Re: well, I don’t know —

    (whew)..

    I ~think~ I could do without the bullshit (my friends are giving me ebnough added drama!) but I could NEVER live withoutthe Fam. Can;t wait!

  • multimediagrl

    Re: well, I don’t know —

    (whew)..

    I ~think~ I could do without the bullshit (my friends are giving me ebnough added drama!) but I could NEVER live withoutthe Fam. Can;t wait!

  • multimediagrl

    Re: well, I don’t know —

    (whew)..

    I ~think~ I could do without the bullshit (my friends are giving me ebnough added drama!) but I could NEVER live withoutthe Fam. Can;t wait!

  • multimediagrl

    Re: well, I don’t know —

    (whew)..

    I ~think~ I could do without the bullshit (my friends are giving me ebnough added drama!) but I could NEVER live withoutthe Fam. Can;t wait!

  • multimediagrl

    Re: well, I don’t know —

    (whew)..

    I ~think~ I could do without the bullshit (my friends are giving me ebnough added drama!) but I could NEVER live withoutthe Fam. Can;t wait!

  • multimediagrl

    Re: well, I don’t know —

    (whew)..

    I ~think~ I could do without the bullshit (my friends are giving me ebnough added drama!) but I could NEVER live withoutthe Fam. Can;t wait!

  • multimediagrl

    Re: well, I don’t know —

    (whew)..

    I ~think~ I could do without the bullshit (my friends are giving me ebnough added drama!) but I could NEVER live withoutthe Fam. Can;t wait!

  • multimediagrl

    Re: well, I don’t know —

    (whew)..

    I ~think~ I could do without the bullshit (my friends are giving me ebnough added drama!) but I could NEVER live withoutthe Fam. Can;t wait!

  • radioactiveart

    Re: well, I don’t know —

    The relationships I love, G. And the hug is not an option. 😉

    It’s the PSI/NPS/Slam with a capital “S” I’m saying goodbye to. I hope to be one of the folks who figures out what “life after slam” is going to be, and I hope I get to help fashion the world that continues to honor good output even after you leave the competition and the organizing behind. I think I will.

    But the Family itself? Nah. You’re stuck with me.

  • radioactiveart

    Re: well, I don’t know —

    The relationships I love, G. And the hug is not an option. 😉

    It’s the PSI/NPS/Slam with a capital “S” I’m saying goodbye to. I hope to be one of the folks who figures out what “life after slam” is going to be, and I hope I get to help fashion the world that continues to honor good output even after you leave the competition and the organizing behind. I think I will.

    But the Family itself? Nah. You’re stuck with me.

  • radioactiveart

    Re: well, I don’t know —

    The relationships I love, G. And the hug is not an option. 😉

    It’s the PSI/NPS/Slam with a capital “S” I’m saying goodbye to. I hope to be one of the folks who figures out what “life after slam” is going to be, and I hope I get to help fashion the world that continues to honor good output even after you leave the competition and the organizing behind. I think I will.

    But the Family itself? Nah. You’re stuck with me.

  • radioactiveart

    Re: well, I don’t know —

    The relationships I love, G. And the hug is not an option. 😉

    It’s the PSI/NPS/Slam with a capital “S” I’m saying goodbye to. I hope to be one of the folks who figures out what “life after slam” is going to be, and I hope I get to help fashion the world that continues to honor good output even after you leave the competition and the organizing behind. I think I will.

    But the Family itself? Nah. You’re stuck with me.

  • radioactiveart

    Re: well, I don’t know —

    The relationships I love, G. And the hug is not an option. 😉

    It’s the PSI/NPS/Slam with a capital “S” I’m saying goodbye to. I hope to be one of the folks who figures out what “life after slam” is going to be, and I hope I get to help fashion the world that continues to honor good output even after you leave the competition and the organizing behind. I think I will.

    But the Family itself? Nah. You’re stuck with me.

  • radioactiveart

    Re: well, I don’t know —

    The relationships I love, G. And the hug is not an option. 😉

    It’s the PSI/NPS/Slam with a capital “S” I’m saying goodbye to. I hope to be one of the folks who figures out what “life after slam” is going to be, and I hope I get to help fashion the world that continues to honor good output even after you leave the competition and the organizing behind. I think I will.

    But the Family itself? Nah. You’re stuck with me.

  • radioactiveart

    Re: well, I don’t know —

    The relationships I love, G. And the hug is not an option. 😉

    It’s the PSI/NPS/Slam with a capital “S” I’m saying goodbye to. I hope to be one of the folks who figures out what “life after slam” is going to be, and I hope I get to help fashion the world that continues to honor good output even after you leave the competition and the organizing behind. I think I will.

    But the Family itself? Nah. You’re stuck with me.

  • radioactiveart

    Re: well, I don’t know —

    The relationships I love, G. And the hug is not an option. 😉

    It’s the PSI/NPS/Slam with a capital “S” I’m saying goodbye to. I hope to be one of the folks who figures out what “life after slam” is going to be, and I hope I get to help fashion the world that continues to honor good output even after you leave the competition and the organizing behind. I think I will.

    But the Family itself? Nah. You’re stuck with me.

  • multimediagrl

    well, I don’t know —

    I know life is full of busy and change, but it’s too bad. If anything might make you happy about slammy-things, it’s this show. I had SUCH a good time last year.

    I’ll still be here in two years, until we dirve the beast into the ground, because for me, I still get much more positive than negative about it. Really, since this will only be the second time I’ve competed nationally in NINE years of participating, it’s just an excuse for good friends, great people, and occasionally good art.

    Don’t miss the baby (the relationships that span years and miles) for the bathwater (hours and hours of crappy poetry on a local level). I hope I get a hug as well.

  • multimediagrl

    well, I don’t know —

    I know life is full of busy and change, but it’s too bad. If anything might make you happy about slammy-things, it’s this show. I had SUCH a good time last year.

    I’ll still be here in two years, until we dirve the beast into the ground, because for me, I still get much more positive than negative about it. Really, since this will only be the second time I’ve competed nationally in NINE years of participating, it’s just an excuse for good friends, great people, and occasionally good art.

    Don’t miss the baby (the relationships that span years and miles) for the bathwater (hours and hours of crappy poetry on a local level). I hope I get a hug as well.

  • multimediagrl

    well, I don’t know —

    I know life is full of busy and change, but it’s too bad. If anything might make you happy about slammy-things, it’s this show. I had SUCH a good time last year.

    I’ll still be here in two years, until we dirve the beast into the ground, because for me, I still get much more positive than negative about it. Really, since this will only be the second time I’ve competed nationally in NINE years of participating, it’s just an excuse for good friends, great people, and occasionally good art.

    Don’t miss the baby (the relationships that span years and miles) for the bathwater (hours and hours of crappy poetry on a local level). I hope I get a hug as well.

  • multimediagrl

    well, I don’t know —

    I know life is full of busy and change, but it’s too bad. If anything might make you happy about slammy-things, it’s this show. I had SUCH a good time last year.

    I’ll still be here in two years, until we dirve the beast into the ground, because for me, I still get much more positive than negative about it. Really, since this will only be the second time I’ve competed nationally in NINE years of participating, it’s just an excuse for good friends, great people, and occasionally good art.

    Don’t miss the baby (the relationships that span years and miles) for the bathwater (hours and hours of crappy poetry on a local level). I hope I get a hug as well.

  • multimediagrl

    well, I don’t know —

    I know life is full of busy and change, but it’s too bad. If anything might make you happy about slammy-things, it’s this show. I had SUCH a good time last year.

    I’ll still be here in two years, until we dirve the beast into the ground, because for me, I still get much more positive than negative about it. Really, since this will only be the second time I’ve competed nationally in NINE years of participating, it’s just an excuse for good friends, great people, and occasionally good art.

    Don’t miss the baby (the relationships that span years and miles) for the bathwater (hours and hours of crappy poetry on a local level). I hope I get a hug as well.

  • multimediagrl

    well, I don’t know —

    I know life is full of busy and change, but it’s too bad. If anything might make you happy about slammy-things, it’s this show. I had SUCH a good time last year.

    I’ll still be here in two years, until we dirve the beast into the ground, because for me, I still get much more positive than negative about it. Really, since this will only be the second time I’ve competed nationally in NINE years of participating, it’s just an excuse for good friends, great people, and occasionally good art.

    Don’t miss the baby (the relationships that span years and miles) for the bathwater (hours and hours of crappy poetry on a local level). I hope I get a hug as well.

  • multimediagrl

    well, I don’t know —

    I know life is full of busy and change, but it’s too bad. If anything might make you happy about slammy-things, it’s this show. I had SUCH a good time last year.

    I’ll still be here in two years, until we dirve the beast into the ground, because for me, I still get much more positive than negative about it. Really, since this will only be the second time I’ve competed nationally in NINE years of participating, it’s just an excuse for good friends, great people, and occasionally good art.

    Don’t miss the baby (the relationships that span years and miles) for the bathwater (hours and hours of crappy poetry on a local level). I hope I get a hug as well.

  • multimediagrl

    well, I don’t know —

    I know life is full of busy and change, but it’s too bad. If anything might make you happy about slammy-things, it’s this show. I had SUCH a good time last year.

    I’ll still be here in two years, until we dirve the beast into the ground, because for me, I still get much more positive than negative about it. Really, since this will only be the second time I’ve competed nationally in NINE years of participating, it’s just an excuse for good friends, great people, and occasionally good art.

    Don’t miss the baby (the relationships that span years and miles) for the bathwater (hours and hours of crappy poetry on a local level). I hope I get a hug as well.

  • radioactiveart

    Re: I was gonna say…

    SPEAK — kicks off at 7:15-7:30. More to come on details — I’m gonna post something specific in the next day or so.

    and you KNOW I’ll be seeing you…

  • radioactiveart

    Re: I was gonna say…

    SPEAK — kicks off at 7:15-7:30. More to come on details — I’m gonna post something specific in the next day or so.

    and you KNOW I’ll be seeing you…

  • radioactiveart

    Re: I was gonna say…

    SPEAK — kicks off at 7:15-7:30. More to come on details — I’m gonna post something specific in the next day or so.

    and you KNOW I’ll be seeing you…

  • radioactiveart

    Re: I was gonna say…

    SPEAK — kicks off at 7:15-7:30. More to come on details — I’m gonna post something specific in the next day or so.

    and you KNOW I’ll be seeing you…

  • radioactiveart

    Re: I was gonna say…

    SPEAK — kicks off at 7:15-7:30. More to come on details — I’m gonna post something specific in the next day or so.

    and you KNOW I’ll be seeing you…

  • radioactiveart

    Re: I was gonna say…

    SPEAK — kicks off at 7:15-7:30. More to come on details — I’m gonna post something specific in the next day or so.

    and you KNOW I’ll be seeing you…

  • radioactiveart

    Re: I was gonna say…

    SPEAK — kicks off at 7:15-7:30. More to come on details — I’m gonna post something specific in the next day or so.

    and you KNOW I’ll be seeing you…

  • radioactiveart

    Re: I was gonna say…

    SPEAK — kicks off at 7:15-7:30. More to come on details — I’m gonna post something specific in the next day or so.

    and you KNOW I’ll be seeing you…

  • just_jeff

    i’ve been to the slam like twice in eight months, and t. and i aren’t going to nats this year–second year in a row–and it’s way more pull than push. other parts of life, the kids, work, couple time, working on my other art, like the novel, just fill up the time and slam isn’t the magnet that it was. that’s all fine–i’ll get into it again or i won’t (and i have some pretty cool jack mccarthy visions of myself as an older guy busting some serious poetry at the slam and winning), BUT i’d come to use the slam as my default mode of socializing and actually, you know, SEEING most of my friends instead of just shooting the shit on lj. the best thing about slam was always social for me, and that’s what i miss. you just head on down there, and there are all these great people!

    anyway, i hear you on feeling weird about not being around for it.

  • just_jeff

    i’ve been to the slam like twice in eight months, and t. and i aren’t going to nats this year–second year in a row–and it’s way more pull than push. other parts of life, the kids, work, couple time, working on my other art, like the novel, just fill up the time and slam isn’t the magnet that it was. that’s all fine–i’ll get into it again or i won’t (and i have some pretty cool jack mccarthy visions of myself as an older guy busting some serious poetry at the slam and winning), BUT i’d come to use the slam as my default mode of socializing and actually, you know, SEEING most of my friends instead of just shooting the shit on lj. the best thing about slam was always social for me, and that’s what i miss. you just head on down there, and there are all these great people!

    anyway, i hear you on feeling weird about not being around for it.

  • just_jeff

    i’ve been to the slam like twice in eight months, and t. and i aren’t going to nats this year–second year in a row–and it’s way more pull than push. other parts of life, the kids, work, couple time, working on my other art, like the novel, just fill up the time and slam isn’t the magnet that it was. that’s all fine–i’ll get into it again or i won’t (and i have some pretty cool jack mccarthy visions of myself as an older guy busting some serious poetry at the slam and winning), BUT i’d come to use the slam as my default mode of socializing and actually, you know, SEEING most of my friends instead of just shooting the shit on lj. the best thing about slam was always social for me, and that’s what i miss. you just head on down there, and there are all these great people!

    anyway, i hear you on feeling weird about not being around for it.

  • just_jeff

    i’ve been to the slam like twice in eight months, and t. and i aren’t going to nats this year–second year in a row–and it’s way more pull than push. other parts of life, the kids, work, couple time, working on my other art, like the novel, just fill up the time and slam isn’t the magnet that it was. that’s all fine–i’ll get into it again or i won’t (and i have some pretty cool jack mccarthy visions of myself as an older guy busting some serious poetry at the slam and winning), BUT i’d come to use the slam as my default mode of socializing and actually, you know, SEEING most of my friends instead of just shooting the shit on lj. the best thing about slam was always social for me, and that’s what i miss. you just head on down there, and there are all these great people!

    anyway, i hear you on feeling weird about not being around for it.

  • just_jeff

    i’ve been to the slam like twice in eight months, and t. and i aren’t going to nats this year–second year in a row–and it’s way more pull than push. other parts of life, the kids, work, couple time, working on my other art, like the novel, just fill up the time and slam isn’t the magnet that it was. that’s all fine–i’ll get into it again or i won’t (and i have some pretty cool jack mccarthy visions of myself as an older guy busting some serious poetry at the slam and winning), BUT i’d come to use the slam as my default mode of socializing and actually, you know, SEEING most of my friends instead of just shooting the shit on lj. the best thing about slam was always social for me, and that’s what i miss. you just head on down there, and there are all these great people!

    anyway, i hear you on feeling weird about not being around for it.

  • just_jeff

    i’ve been to the slam like twice in eight months, and t. and i aren’t going to nats this year–second year in a row–and it’s way more pull than push. other parts of life, the kids, work, couple time, working on my other art, like the novel, just fill up the time and slam isn’t the magnet that it was. that’s all fine–i’ll get into it again or i won’t (and i have some pretty cool jack mccarthy visions of myself as an older guy busting some serious poetry at the slam and winning), BUT i’d come to use the slam as my default mode of socializing and actually, you know, SEEING most of my friends instead of just shooting the shit on lj. the best thing about slam was always social for me, and that’s what i miss. you just head on down there, and there are all these great people!

    anyway, i hear you on feeling weird about not being around for it.

  • just_jeff

    i’ve been to the slam like twice in eight months, and t. and i aren’t going to nats this year–second year in a row–and it’s way more pull than push. other parts of life, the kids, work, couple time, working on my other art, like the novel, just fill up the time and slam isn’t the magnet that it was. that’s all fine–i’ll get into it again or i won’t (and i have some pretty cool jack mccarthy visions of myself as an older guy busting some serious poetry at the slam and winning), BUT i’d come to use the slam as my default mode of socializing and actually, you know, SEEING most of my friends instead of just shooting the shit on lj. the best thing about slam was always social for me, and that’s what i miss. you just head on down there, and there are all these great people!

    anyway, i hear you on feeling weird about not being around for it.

  • just_jeff

    i’ve been to the slam like twice in eight months, and t. and i aren’t going to nats this year–second year in a row–and it’s way more pull than push. other parts of life, the kids, work, couple time, working on my other art, like the novel, just fill up the time and slam isn’t the magnet that it was. that’s all fine–i’ll get into it again or i won’t (and i have some pretty cool jack mccarthy visions of myself as an older guy busting some serious poetry at the slam and winning), BUT i’d come to use the slam as my default mode of socializing and actually, you know, SEEING most of my friends instead of just shooting the shit on lj. the best thing about slam was always social for me, and that’s what i miss. you just head on down there, and there are all these great people!

    anyway, i hear you on feeling weird about not being around for it.

  • aurorabell

    I was gonna say…

    if there’s anyway to sneak a coffee in there….i’d be happy to drive all over hell and highwater just for 15 minutes with you.

    But you are close enough that if you haven’t the time (or need the time to hang out with folks like emceereeree who lives in Cali) That’s cool. Just wanted to see.

    and besides…there’s always wednesday night. what time does Speak start? I’d like to try and get into town to catch some of it.

  • aurorabell

    I was gonna say…

    if there’s anyway to sneak a coffee in there….i’d be happy to drive all over hell and highwater just for 15 minutes with you.

    But you are close enough that if you haven’t the time (or need the time to hang out with folks like emceereeree who lives in Cali) That’s cool. Just wanted to see.

    and besides…there’s always wednesday night. what time does Speak start? I’d like to try and get into town to catch some of it.

  • aurorabell

    I was gonna say…

    if there’s anyway to sneak a coffee in there….i’d be happy to drive all over hell and highwater just for 15 minutes with you.

    But you are close enough that if you haven’t the time (or need the time to hang out with folks like emceereeree who lives in Cali) That’s cool. Just wanted to see.

    and besides…there’s always wednesday night. what time does Speak start? I’d like to try and get into town to catch some of it.

  • aurorabell

    I was gonna say…

    if there’s anyway to sneak a coffee in there….i’d be happy to drive all over hell and highwater just for 15 minutes with you.

    But you are close enough that if you haven’t the time (or need the time to hang out with folks like emceereeree who lives in Cali) That’s cool. Just wanted to see.

    and besides…there’s always wednesday night. what time does Speak start? I’d like to try and get into town to catch some of it.

  • aurorabell

    I was gonna say…

    if there’s anyway to sneak a coffee in there….i’d be happy to drive all over hell and highwater just for 15 minutes with you.

    But you are close enough that if you haven’t the time (or need the time to hang out with folks like emceereeree who lives in Cali) That’s cool. Just wanted to see.

    and besides…there’s always wednesday night. what time does Speak start? I’d like to try and get into town to catch some of it.

  • aurorabell

    I was gonna say…

    if there’s anyway to sneak a coffee in there….i’d be happy to drive all over hell and highwater just for 15 minutes with you.

    But you are close enough that if you haven’t the time (or need the time to hang out with folks like emceereeree who lives in Cali) That’s cool. Just wanted to see.

    and besides…there’s always wednesday night. what time does Speak start? I’d like to try and get into town to catch some of it.

  • aurorabell

    I was gonna say…

    if there’s anyway to sneak a coffee in there….i’d be happy to drive all over hell and highwater just for 15 minutes with you.

    But you are close enough that if you haven’t the time (or need the time to hang out with folks like emceereeree who lives in Cali) That’s cool. Just wanted to see.

    and besides…there’s always wednesday night. what time does Speak start? I’d like to try and get into town to catch some of it.

  • aurorabell

    I was gonna say…

    if there’s anyway to sneak a coffee in there….i’d be happy to drive all over hell and highwater just for 15 minutes with you.

    But you are close enough that if you haven’t the time (or need the time to hang out with folks like emceereeree who lives in Cali) That’s cool. Just wanted to see.

    and besides…there’s always wednesday night. what time does Speak start? I’d like to try and get into town to catch some of it.

  • radioactiveart

    Re: as long as i get to see you for like, a SECond

    but of course, of course!

  • radioactiveart

    Re: as long as i get to see you for like, a SECond

    but of course, of course!

  • radioactiveart

    Re: as long as i get to see you for like, a SECond

    but of course, of course!

  • radioactiveart

    Re: as long as i get to see you for like, a SECond

    but of course, of course!

  • radioactiveart

    Re: as long as i get to see you for like, a SECond

    but of course, of course!

  • radioactiveart

    Re: as long as i get to see you for like, a SECond

    but of course, of course!

  • radioactiveart

    Re: as long as i get to see you for like, a SECond

    but of course, of course!

  • radioactiveart

    Re: as long as i get to see you for like, a SECond

    but of course, of course!

  • emceereeree

    as long as i get to see you for like, a SECond

    like, just a hug, at least, right?

  • emceereeree

    as long as i get to see you for like, a SECond

    like, just a hug, at least, right?

  • emceereeree

    as long as i get to see you for like, a SECond

    like, just a hug, at least, right?

  • emceereeree

    as long as i get to see you for like, a SECond

    like, just a hug, at least, right?

  • emceereeree

    as long as i get to see you for like, a SECond

    like, just a hug, at least, right?

  • emceereeree

    as long as i get to see you for like, a SECond

    like, just a hug, at least, right?

  • emceereeree

    as long as i get to see you for like, a SECond

    like, just a hug, at least, right?

  • emceereeree

    as long as i get to see you for like, a SECond

    like, just a hug, at least, right?

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