Realizing you’re so much like everything you never wanted to be.
And very little like what you did want to be.
And wondering how much energy you have to make changes, and thinking that so much pain got you here, and so much more will be asked of you, and it still may never be enough to make it worthwhile.
All I can think of here is Morris’ “Clockwork.” I am that guy, I think, sometimes; and other times I’m not sure I could describe the guy I am at all; I’m too close to see myself.
I’ve got college looming, and I hope more poetry and more living to do; but there are nights like this, when it’s damn cold out and not snowing enough to be interesting, that all you can do is go to bed and hope for a warmer day tomorrow.
That day seems so far away, sometimes.
Dark Matter 
December 9th, 2004 at 8:44 am
I had a bad moment of “who i am” vs “what i didn’t want to be” vs “what i wanted to be”.
it made sense to me eventually though… i questioned those wants and want nots… sometimes the image is sexier then the actuality, in love with the idea of being something, abhorrent with the stereotype of being something else, when in fact, anecdotally, we only seem to become more what our desires dictate…
So for me, it’s a strugle to descover healthy ways of dealing with desire, rather then trying to concern my self with the image it shows.
December 9th, 2004 at 8:44 am
I had a bad moment of “who i am” vs “what i didn’t want to be” vs “what i wanted to be”.
it made sense to me eventually though… i questioned those wants and want nots… sometimes the image is sexier then the actuality, in love with the idea of being something, abhorrent with the stereotype of being something else, when in fact, anecdotally, we only seem to become more what our desires dictate…
So for me, it’s a strugle to descover healthy ways of dealing with desire, rather then trying to concern my self with the image it shows.
December 9th, 2004 at 8:44 am
I had a bad moment of “who i am” vs “what i didn’t want to be” vs “what i wanted to be”.
it made sense to me eventually though… i questioned those wants and want nots… sometimes the image is sexier then the actuality, in love with the idea of being something, abhorrent with the stereotype of being something else, when in fact, anecdotally, we only seem to become more what our desires dictate…
So for me, it’s a strugle to descover healthy ways of dealing with desire, rather then trying to concern my self with the image it shows.
December 9th, 2004 at 8:44 am
I had a bad moment of “who i am” vs “what i didn’t want to be” vs “what i wanted to be”.
it made sense to me eventually though… i questioned those wants and want nots… sometimes the image is sexier then the actuality, in love with the idea of being something, abhorrent with the stereotype of being something else, when in fact, anecdotally, we only seem to become more what our desires dictate…
So for me, it’s a strugle to descover healthy ways of dealing with desire, rather then trying to concern my self with the image it shows.
December 9th, 2004 at 8:44 am
I had a bad moment of “who i am” vs “what i didn’t want to be” vs “what i wanted to be”.
it made sense to me eventually though… i questioned those wants and want nots… sometimes the image is sexier then the actuality, in love with the idea of being something, abhorrent with the stereotype of being something else, when in fact, anecdotally, we only seem to become more what our desires dictate…
So for me, it’s a strugle to descover healthy ways of dealing with desire, rather then trying to concern my self with the image it shows.
December 9th, 2004 at 8:44 am
I had a bad moment of “who i am” vs “what i didn’t want to be” vs “what i wanted to be”.
it made sense to me eventually though… i questioned those wants and want nots… sometimes the image is sexier then the actuality, in love with the idea of being something, abhorrent with the stereotype of being something else, when in fact, anecdotally, we only seem to become more what our desires dictate…
So for me, it’s a strugle to descover healthy ways of dealing with desire, rather then trying to concern my self with the image it shows.
December 9th, 2004 at 8:44 am
I had a bad moment of “who i am” vs “what i didn’t want to be” vs “what i wanted to be”.
it made sense to me eventually though… i questioned those wants and want nots… sometimes the image is sexier then the actuality, in love with the idea of being something, abhorrent with the stereotype of being something else, when in fact, anecdotally, we only seem to become more what our desires dictate…
So for me, it’s a strugle to descover healthy ways of dealing with desire, rather then trying to concern my self with the image it shows.
December 9th, 2004 at 8:44 am
I had a bad moment of “who i am” vs “what i didn’t want to be” vs “what i wanted to be”.
it made sense to me eventually though… i questioned those wants and want nots… sometimes the image is sexier then the actuality, in love with the idea of being something, abhorrent with the stereotype of being something else, when in fact, anecdotally, we only seem to become more what our desires dictate…
So for me, it’s a strugle to descover healthy ways of dealing with desire, rather then trying to concern my self with the image it shows.
December 7th, 2004 at 3:38 am
I feel like that often – it’s what I’m always talking about in therapy. Who am I? Where will I be in six months…six years? Is it worth it? I hope so.
December 7th, 2004 at 3:38 am
I feel like that often – it’s what I’m always talking about in therapy. Who am I? Where will I be in six months…six years? Is it worth it? I hope so.
December 7th, 2004 at 3:38 am
I feel like that often – it’s what I’m always talking about in therapy. Who am I? Where will I be in six months…six years? Is it worth it? I hope so.
December 7th, 2004 at 3:38 am
I feel like that often – it’s what I’m always talking about in therapy. Who am I? Where will I be in six months…six years? Is it worth it? I hope so.
December 7th, 2004 at 3:38 am
I feel like that often – it’s what I’m always talking about in therapy. Who am I? Where will I be in six months…six years? Is it worth it? I hope so.
December 7th, 2004 at 3:38 am
I feel like that often – it’s what I’m always talking about in therapy. Who am I? Where will I be in six months…six years? Is it worth it? I hope so.
December 7th, 2004 at 3:38 am
I feel like that often – it’s what I’m always talking about in therapy. Who am I? Where will I be in six months…six years? Is it worth it? I hope so.
December 7th, 2004 at 3:38 am
I feel like that often – it’s what I’m always talking about in therapy. Who am I? Where will I be in six months…six years? Is it worth it? I hope so.
December 6th, 2004 at 11:40 pm
i know of that feeling. oik.
December 6th, 2004 at 11:40 pm
i know of that feeling. oik.
December 6th, 2004 at 11:40 pm
i know of that feeling. oik.
December 6th, 2004 at 11:40 pm
i know of that feeling. oik.
December 6th, 2004 at 11:40 pm
i know of that feeling. oik.
December 6th, 2004 at 11:40 pm
i know of that feeling. oik.
December 6th, 2004 at 11:40 pm
i know of that feeling. oik.
December 6th, 2004 at 11:40 pm
i know of that feeling. oik.
December 6th, 2004 at 8:40 pm
Or that you’re not what other people think you are, but you can’t outrun your past.
December 6th, 2004 at 8:40 pm
Or that you’re not what other people think you are, but you can’t outrun your past.
December 6th, 2004 at 8:40 pm
Or that you’re not what other people think you are, but you can’t outrun your past.
December 6th, 2004 at 8:40 pm
Or that you’re not what other people think you are, but you can’t outrun your past.
December 6th, 2004 at 8:40 pm
Or that you’re not what other people think you are, but you can’t outrun your past.
December 6th, 2004 at 8:40 pm
Or that you’re not what other people think you are, but you can’t outrun your past.
December 6th, 2004 at 8:40 pm
Or that you’re not what other people think you are, but you can’t outrun your past.
December 6th, 2004 at 8:40 pm
Or that you’re not what other people think you are, but you can’t outrun your past.
December 6th, 2004 at 8:37 pm
I’m not the man I thought I’d be, either, but then, I used to assume I’d be dead by thirty, so I don’t think my opinion counts. (:
December 6th, 2004 at 8:37 pm
I’m not the man I thought I’d be, either, but then, I used to assume I’d be dead by thirty, so I don’t think my opinion counts. (:
December 6th, 2004 at 8:37 pm
I’m not the man I thought I’d be, either, but then, I used to assume I’d be dead by thirty, so I don’t think my opinion counts. (:
December 6th, 2004 at 8:37 pm
I’m not the man I thought I’d be, either, but then, I used to assume I’d be dead by thirty, so I don’t think my opinion counts. (:
December 6th, 2004 at 8:37 pm
I’m not the man I thought I’d be, either, but then, I used to assume I’d be dead by thirty, so I don’t think my opinion counts. (:
December 6th, 2004 at 8:37 pm
I’m not the man I thought I’d be, either, but then, I used to assume I’d be dead by thirty, so I don’t think my opinion counts. (:
December 6th, 2004 at 8:37 pm
I’m not the man I thought I’d be, either, but then, I used to assume I’d be dead by thirty, so I don’t think my opinion counts. (:
December 6th, 2004 at 8:37 pm
I’m not the man I thought I’d be, either, but then, I used to assume I’d be dead by thirty, so I don’t think my opinion counts. (:
December 6th, 2004 at 8:22 pm
You think that’s bad? I told my son today that he looked like a “ragamuffin”. Holy shite, I’m starting to sound like my mom!!!
December 6th, 2004 at 8:22 pm
You think that’s bad? I told my son today that he looked like a “ragamuffin”. Holy shite, I’m starting to sound like my mom!!!
December 6th, 2004 at 8:22 pm
You think that’s bad? I told my son today that he looked like a “ragamuffin”. Holy shite, I’m starting to sound like my mom!!!
December 6th, 2004 at 8:22 pm
You think that’s bad? I told my son today that he looked like a “ragamuffin”. Holy shite, I’m starting to sound like my mom!!!
December 6th, 2004 at 8:22 pm
You think that’s bad? I told my son today that he looked like a “ragamuffin”. Holy shite, I’m starting to sound like my mom!!!
December 6th, 2004 at 8:22 pm
You think that’s bad? I told my son today that he looked like a “ragamuffin”. Holy shite, I’m starting to sound like my mom!!!
December 6th, 2004 at 8:22 pm
You think that’s bad? I told my son today that he looked like a “ragamuffin”. Holy shite, I’m starting to sound like my mom!!!
December 6th, 2004 at 8:22 pm
You think that’s bad? I told my son today that he looked like a “ragamuffin”. Holy shite, I’m starting to sound like my mom!!!
December 6th, 2004 at 8:16 pm
There’s not much more that I could say other than.
Yes. I agree.
December 6th, 2004 at 8:16 pm
There’s not much more that I could say other than.
Yes. I agree.
December 6th, 2004 at 8:16 pm
There’s not much more that I could say other than.
Yes. I agree.
December 6th, 2004 at 8:16 pm
There’s not much more that I could say other than.
Yes. I agree.
December 6th, 2004 at 8:16 pm
There’s not much more that I could say other than.
Yes. I agree.
December 6th, 2004 at 8:16 pm
There’s not much more that I could say other than.
Yes. I agree.
December 6th, 2004 at 8:16 pm
There’s not much more that I could say other than.
Yes. I agree.
December 6th, 2004 at 8:16 pm
There’s not much more that I could say other than.
Yes. I agree.