I went to the dentist today to have a minor crack fixed in a tooth.
Last time I was there, the hygienist took a lot of notes about my current condition, and we talked about some of the ramifications of the meds I take for my mental health on my dental health (dry mouth, etc.). Very helpful, quite appropriate. I really like my hygienist — and my dentist, too, I should mention.
He came into the room today, we shook hands…and he asked me where I was living these days. As I haven’t moved in a while, I was a bit puzzled.
Then he asked me if I was living in a group home.
Ah, the stigmas of mental illness…
I was gentle with him, as he was about to drill into my face.
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John Powers gets married tomorrow!!!! Off to the wedding early, back late. Might take the camera…
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Finally, here’s a rewrite of the last poem, which I really like; not at all like the recent poems, but I am definitely hearing it in performance right now.
Thanks for the feedback, dead_kitty.
If something got loose in me and I stepped out
onto a sidewalk and started to say, “let’s fuck”
to everyone I saw, I would certainly be
punched, struck, kicked; there is the chance
I might get arrested, but also a rarer chance
that I might indeed find myself fucking someone,
a stranger perhaps, someone who heard the words
as cracked revolution, a way to shake the earth.
If we then each rose from the place of fucking
and spoke again, asking new passers-by
to fuck us, there might be pandemonium
and bombs addressed to the possible children
of the fucking, and some would mishear us,
and plan to hunt foxes, or sell trucks,
but eventually a chain of fucking masses
would snake over hills and down into gutters and plazas,
swan necked, soft as feathers, ferocious as the syllables
we had bent to offer up this genital hope;
we would ruffle and rumble in alleys like cats,
tear superfluous bedrooms out with the public force
of thrust and arch and strike and cry;
there’d be no reason for
phobia, modesty, drama, industry,
shards of glass, razor blades;
we’d be smooth as beach stones after a while,
the edges gone: a hippie nonesuch,
all this sweet fucking everywhere,
like an afterlife of dandling, dabbling in
each other’s permeable time;
and this is just how it is
in our eyes, today: the
same plea, different voice.
Let’s fuck, let’s fuck, let’s fuck;
inside one another we’ll roam,
we will slip past the guards,
blow past the checkpoints, roar into battle together,
underwrite each other’s skin, let’s fuck, hold me,
let’s fuck, let’s fuck, stay with me,
be here, be me, save me, fuck me,
let’s fuck.
Dark Matter 
September 26th, 2004 at 8:49 pm
I do not know what a “group home” is, so I cannot appreciate a stigma you mention.
I second Ryk and appreciate your openness, and your posts.
September 26th, 2004 at 8:49 pm
I do not know what a “group home” is, so I cannot appreciate a stigma you mention.
I second Ryk and appreciate your openness, and your posts.
September 26th, 2004 at 8:49 pm
I do not know what a “group home” is, so I cannot appreciate a stigma you mention.
I second Ryk and appreciate your openness, and your posts.
September 26th, 2004 at 8:49 pm
I do not know what a “group home” is, so I cannot appreciate a stigma you mention.
I second Ryk and appreciate your openness, and your posts.
September 26th, 2004 at 8:49 pm
I do not know what a “group home” is, so I cannot appreciate a stigma you mention.
I second Ryk and appreciate your openness, and your posts.
September 26th, 2004 at 8:49 pm
I do not know what a “group home” is, so I cannot appreciate a stigma you mention.
I second Ryk and appreciate your openness, and your posts.
September 26th, 2004 at 8:49 pm
I do not know what a “group home” is, so I cannot appreciate a stigma you mention.
I second Ryk and appreciate your openness, and your posts.
September 25th, 2004 at 7:54 pm
Thanks, hon. I think it’s one that is going to be far better live than on page — and I haven’t written one like that in a while.
September 25th, 2004 at 7:54 pm
Thanks, hon. I think it’s one that is going to be far better live than on page — and I haven’t written one like that in a while.
September 25th, 2004 at 7:54 pm
Thanks, hon. I think it’s one that is going to be far better live than on page — and I haven’t written one like that in a while.
September 25th, 2004 at 7:54 pm
Thanks, hon. I think it’s one that is going to be far better live than on page — and I haven’t written one like that in a while.
September 25th, 2004 at 7:54 pm
Thanks, hon. I think it’s one that is going to be far better live than on page — and I haven’t written one like that in a while.
September 25th, 2004 at 7:54 pm
Thanks, hon. I think it’s one that is going to be far better live than on page — and I haven’t written one like that in a while.
September 25th, 2004 at 7:54 pm
Thanks, hon. I think it’s one that is going to be far better live than on page — and I haven’t written one like that in a while.
September 25th, 2004 at 7:49 pm
I’m fond of that piece. I like the way it sounds, and nice use of the word fuck.
It sounds so much better as a verb than an adjective.
September 25th, 2004 at 7:49 pm
I’m fond of that piece. I like the way it sounds, and nice use of the word fuck.
It sounds so much better as a verb than an adjective.
September 25th, 2004 at 7:49 pm
I’m fond of that piece. I like the way it sounds, and nice use of the word fuck.
It sounds so much better as a verb than an adjective.
September 25th, 2004 at 7:49 pm
I’m fond of that piece. I like the way it sounds, and nice use of the word fuck.
It sounds so much better as a verb than an adjective.
September 25th, 2004 at 7:49 pm
I’m fond of that piece. I like the way it sounds, and nice use of the word fuck.
It sounds so much better as a verb than an adjective.
September 25th, 2004 at 7:49 pm
I’m fond of that piece. I like the way it sounds, and nice use of the word fuck.
It sounds so much better as a verb than an adjective.
September 25th, 2004 at 7:49 pm
I’m fond of that piece. I like the way it sounds, and nice use of the word fuck.
It sounds so much better as a verb than an adjective.
September 25th, 2004 at 4:52 am
Group Home Stigma
I am finding out through a relative’s mental illness, and all she has been through the past two years, that there really are many stigmas and hurdles out there surrounding the mentally ill.
She is living with us, and we see her daily struggle. The phrase “group home” has been tossed around a bit, but we don’t think it has reached that point. Most days she can do things like clean, cook, run errands, etc. Some days she can’t get up out of bed. She cannot work, at all.
Unfortunately, at this point, the only reason a group home would be an option is because it is difficult to keep her on track, not being professionals. So, in that respect a group home, while still not sounding like the most pleasant of options, may have some benefits.
Otherwise, I truly believe that as long as one is able to remain with loving family members, who care enough to go through the struggle as well, people suffering from depression are better off knowing their loved ones care that much.
September 25th, 2004 at 4:52 am
Group Home Stigma
I am finding out through a relative’s mental illness, and all she has been through the past two years, that there really are many stigmas and hurdles out there surrounding the mentally ill.
She is living with us, and we see her daily struggle. The phrase “group home” has been tossed around a bit, but we don’t think it has reached that point. Most days she can do things like clean, cook, run errands, etc. Some days she can’t get up out of bed. She cannot work, at all.
Unfortunately, at this point, the only reason a group home would be an option is because it is difficult to keep her on track, not being professionals. So, in that respect a group home, while still not sounding like the most pleasant of options, may have some benefits.
Otherwise, I truly believe that as long as one is able to remain with loving family members, who care enough to go through the struggle as well, people suffering from depression are better off knowing their loved ones care that much.
September 25th, 2004 at 4:52 am
Group Home Stigma
I am finding out through a relative’s mental illness, and all she has been through the past two years, that there really are many stigmas and hurdles out there surrounding the mentally ill.
She is living with us, and we see her daily struggle. The phrase “group home” has been tossed around a bit, but we don’t think it has reached that point. Most days she can do things like clean, cook, run errands, etc. Some days she can’t get up out of bed. She cannot work, at all.
Unfortunately, at this point, the only reason a group home would be an option is because it is difficult to keep her on track, not being professionals. So, in that respect a group home, while still not sounding like the most pleasant of options, may have some benefits.
Otherwise, I truly believe that as long as one is able to remain with loving family members, who care enough to go through the struggle as well, people suffering from depression are better off knowing their loved ones care that much.
September 25th, 2004 at 4:52 am
Group Home Stigma
I am finding out through a relative’s mental illness, and all she has been through the past two years, that there really are many stigmas and hurdles out there surrounding the mentally ill.
She is living with us, and we see her daily struggle. The phrase “group home” has been tossed around a bit, but we don’t think it has reached that point. Most days she can do things like clean, cook, run errands, etc. Some days she can’t get up out of bed. She cannot work, at all.
Unfortunately, at this point, the only reason a group home would be an option is because it is difficult to keep her on track, not being professionals. So, in that respect a group home, while still not sounding like the most pleasant of options, may have some benefits.
Otherwise, I truly believe that as long as one is able to remain with loving family members, who care enough to go through the struggle as well, people suffering from depression are better off knowing their loved ones care that much.
September 25th, 2004 at 4:52 am
Group Home Stigma
I am finding out through a relative’s mental illness, and all she has been through the past two years, that there really are many stigmas and hurdles out there surrounding the mentally ill.
She is living with us, and we see her daily struggle. The phrase “group home” has been tossed around a bit, but we don’t think it has reached that point. Most days she can do things like clean, cook, run errands, etc. Some days she can’t get up out of bed. She cannot work, at all.
Unfortunately, at this point, the only reason a group home would be an option is because it is difficult to keep her on track, not being professionals. So, in that respect a group home, while still not sounding like the most pleasant of options, may have some benefits.
Otherwise, I truly believe that as long as one is able to remain with loving family members, who care enough to go through the struggle as well, people suffering from depression are better off knowing their loved ones care that much.
September 25th, 2004 at 4:52 am
Group Home Stigma
I am finding out through a relative’s mental illness, and all she has been through the past two years, that there really are many stigmas and hurdles out there surrounding the mentally ill.
She is living with us, and we see her daily struggle. The phrase “group home” has been tossed around a bit, but we don’t think it has reached that point. Most days she can do things like clean, cook, run errands, etc. Some days she can’t get up out of bed. She cannot work, at all.
Unfortunately, at this point, the only reason a group home would be an option is because it is difficult to keep her on track, not being professionals. So, in that respect a group home, while still not sounding like the most pleasant of options, may have some benefits.
Otherwise, I truly believe that as long as one is able to remain with loving family members, who care enough to go through the struggle as well, people suffering from depression are better off knowing their loved ones care that much.
September 25th, 2004 at 4:52 am
Group Home Stigma
I am finding out through a relative’s mental illness, and all she has been through the past two years, that there really are many stigmas and hurdles out there surrounding the mentally ill.
She is living with us, and we see her daily struggle. The phrase “group home” has been tossed around a bit, but we don’t think it has reached that point. Most days she can do things like clean, cook, run errands, etc. Some days she can’t get up out of bed. She cannot work, at all.
Unfortunately, at this point, the only reason a group home would be an option is because it is difficult to keep her on track, not being professionals. So, in that respect a group home, while still not sounding like the most pleasant of options, may have some benefits.
Otherwise, I truly believe that as long as one is able to remain with loving family members, who care enough to go through the struggle as well, people suffering from depression are better off knowing their loved ones care that much.
September 25th, 2004 at 4:36 am
Thanks, Ryk.
I figure, the more open we are about it, the less often things like the “group home” comment will occur in the future.
September 25th, 2004 at 4:36 am
Thanks, Ryk.
I figure, the more open we are about it, the less often things like the “group home” comment will occur in the future.
September 25th, 2004 at 4:36 am
Thanks, Ryk.
I figure, the more open we are about it, the less often things like the “group home” comment will occur in the future.
September 25th, 2004 at 4:36 am
Thanks, Ryk.
I figure, the more open we are about it, the less often things like the “group home” comment will occur in the future.
September 25th, 2004 at 4:36 am
Thanks, Ryk.
I figure, the more open we are about it, the less often things like the “group home” comment will occur in the future.
September 25th, 2004 at 4:36 am
Thanks, Ryk.
I figure, the more open we are about it, the less often things like the “group home” comment will occur in the future.
September 25th, 2004 at 4:36 am
Thanks, Ryk.
I figure, the more open we are about it, the less often things like the “group home” comment will occur in the future.
September 24th, 2004 at 8:30 pm
Mr.Tony
First off, thank you for making so many posts regarding your mental health, the medications you take for it, and effects it has on your life.
I don’t feel so alone. Or so weird. Or such a loser.
I feel like I’m not the only one.
Thank you.
your true friend,
ryk
September 24th, 2004 at 8:30 pm
Mr.Tony
First off, thank you for making so many posts regarding your mental health, the medications you take for it, and effects it has on your life.
I don’t feel so alone. Or so weird. Or such a loser.
I feel like I’m not the only one.
Thank you.
your true friend,
ryk
September 24th, 2004 at 8:30 pm
Mr.Tony
First off, thank you for making so many posts regarding your mental health, the medications you take for it, and effects it has on your life.
I don’t feel so alone. Or so weird. Or such a loser.
I feel like I’m not the only one.
Thank you.
your true friend,
ryk
September 24th, 2004 at 8:30 pm
Mr.Tony
First off, thank you for making so many posts regarding your mental health, the medications you take for it, and effects it has on your life.
I don’t feel so alone. Or so weird. Or such a loser.
I feel like I’m not the only one.
Thank you.
your true friend,
ryk
September 24th, 2004 at 8:30 pm
Mr.Tony
First off, thank you for making so many posts regarding your mental health, the medications you take for it, and effects it has on your life.
I don’t feel so alone. Or so weird. Or such a loser.
I feel like I’m not the only one.
Thank you.
your true friend,
ryk
September 24th, 2004 at 8:30 pm
Mr.Tony
First off, thank you for making so many posts regarding your mental health, the medications you take for it, and effects it has on your life.
I don’t feel so alone. Or so weird. Or such a loser.
I feel like I’m not the only one.
Thank you.
your true friend,
ryk
September 24th, 2004 at 8:30 pm
Mr.Tony
First off, thank you for making so many posts regarding your mental health, the medications you take for it, and effects it has on your life.
I don’t feel so alone. Or so weird. Or such a loser.
I feel like I’m not the only one.
Thank you.
your true friend,
ryk