was interesting.
A small crowd of 6 gathered for “charm” night (we do a theme at every reading). During the course of the night, we got into a discussion about how our work had changed over time.
I’m not sure I told the truth about that when I said that I thought I was being more careful and economical with language.
I know I was telling the truth when I said I had lost a sense of abandon: an ability to just let go and write like a wild fuck, chasing the words where they go and determining the destination after I get there.
I’ve gained control only to lose a measure of freedom.
An even trade in terms of art?
We’ll see.
Dark Matter 
January 30th, 2004 at 4:34 pm
Thanks, Dave.
I’m not really complaining — more musing on the inevitability of it, I think.
January 30th, 2004 at 3:55 am
Next SPEAK: the date is February 11, the theme is “forged”, and the feature from NY/NJ is Marj Hahne.
January 30th, 2004 at 1:23 am
I don’t know if it is an even trade, but it is the normal trade. We give up abandon sometimes, and are left with the care that was missing. Don’t think of it as one to one correspondence. Think of it as two seperate events. Okay, so you are no longer the crazy fuck with the smoking pen and the still drying poem. Now you are the guy who can hear the metaphors and the structures (something you always had, but now it is in the forefront.) It sucks that you can’t write like a madman if that’s what you were when you did “Punk”, but look what you are now. I think of the new stuff, like Suicide Note and am in awe.
January 29th, 2004 at 11:15 pm
When is the next SPEAK, and what is the theme? I’d like to check it out, if I can get there.