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Cobblers And Watchmakers

Originally posted 7/31/2011; original title, “Cobbler’s Faiths.”

Some cobble their religion
from old songs half remembered
stray parental advice
advertising scripts
movie scenes
observations made upon losing virginity
every episode of favored cartoons
lines grabbed from books sniffed out at yard sales
or learned from peers better versed in cool
rare T-shirts
well-shouted poems

It seems as valid
as anything put together
by committees of old men
staring suspiciously at past wisdom
scrapping over papyrus and parchment
and vellum
with an eye toward
power

Each seems to offer
as much comfort to its believers
as the other does to its congregation

My God
is also a crafter
A maker of watches and clocks

Long ago
the Holy Mechanism was turned on
It made a cog of me
I learn the secrets of time
and motion for myself
as I mesh with All
and work in tandem with All
to bring All
forward

Sometimes I do envy
those whose shoes fit well enough
to let them cross these stone-seeded grounds
with such ease 
especially on those days when I’m deaf
to the Ticking
and I stumble and stub and bleed
while straining to hear it again

but then I reconsider
and smile through the pain

imagining what more important things
than worrying about me
the Watchmaker may be up to


I Loved Him Like A Mirror

Originally posted 1/21/2010.

This is how I learned it

On the one hand
Big Shiny Jesus
Sweetness
Little-children-come-unto-me cuddly

On the other
Scary Bloody Jesus
Big wounds
Three days give or take two thousand year stare
Just-got-in-from-Hell-and-boy-are-my-arms-tired

On my own I figured out
that if there had been a third hand
Jesus could have built his own crucifix
Nailed himself there with a rueful smile

so
whatever I wanted most after that
I called on Jesus to give me

I sang out
Lay me like a babe in the arms of Papa Jesus
so he can toss me backwards over his thorny head
in a salty ritual against the enticements of Satan

Let me grab hold of the ammo belt
of Soldier Jesus and bring him
into my trench before he’s cut down

I loved the Jesus of the moment
whoever he was
like a mirror

until one day
Loc’d Jesus
in the blue grime rags of the alley
wouldn’t take my pity dollars
Then Righteous Jesus went through a phase
where he’d only listen to Rise Against
and bemoan my bad taste
and Dice Thrower Jesus
laughed like Einstein
whenever I chewed my nails
over bills and lack of work

I’m not a fan anymore but
because of how I learned

I keep looking over my shoulder
for whatever Jesus
I might have overlooked