Daily Archives: September 14, 2009

Meditation #21

Everyone on this show is
LOUD

from the insistently
neutral host

to the mother
screaming indignantly
at being accused of sleeping
with her eighteen year old stepson
calling the accuser
A DOG

to the stepson who is proclaiming that
it’s not true
that the four year old is not his
he would have been fourteen
and that’s
NASTY

to the aggrieved father
of said eighteen year old
who is making the accusation
and is himself accused
of not

MANNING UP

to the crowd cheering on their favorites

and the only moment of hush comes
with the ripping of the envelope
and the announcement that
NO ONE HERE
is the father

at which point there’s more yelling than ever

and everyone running around
to thunderous applause

All we ever see of the four year old
is a still picture
his eyes wary
his head thrust forward just a little
leading with his chin


Newport Beach, California

In the embrace
of the best Scotch
I’ve ever had
in the Four Seasons Hotel
in Newport Beach, California;

a perfect measure drawn neat
into a brandy snifter.
One hundred seventy five dollars a glass,
purchased on a rich man’s dime.

I catch the crawl
on the muted lounge TV
telling me that Kurt Cobain
has died.

“What the hell did he have
to be depressed about?”
says one of my companions,
and I take a swig, not a sip,
and mumble,

“You wouldn’t understand…”

I notice the rich man
turning his eyes down,
looking into the gold
rapidly disappearing
from his own glass.

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This Ship

Considering
the vagaries of life
and time, we should discuss
what will happen if
we do not see each other
again,

for this ship we’re on
is vast and leaking,
and a boatload of mystery
it is, with a cargo of loose ends
not likely to be tied up
while we roam rootless
around the Earth.

I can say on my part
that I never meant
to deliver the first wound
and am sure each of you felt the same,
it was never in our nature,
I know that now; we hurt each other
through unsteady footing
as we rocked and fought storms
and lost sight of the horizon,
I know that now.

There are words each of us meant to say
which remained unsaid
and things we did say
that we left mostly undefined,
so let us
admit without judgment
that we did not understand
each other well enough to be clear
of our mutual necessities for the voyage;
let it pass that all those things were unclear
and will remain so,
let us accept that this is how we are
and who we are,

for we were put aboard
with blank charts,
no anchor, too little sail,
no engine worth the mention.
No need for such power
when there’s no course before us;
we were put here not to arrive,
but to journey.

If we do not see each other again
in this life or any other, let’s agree
to each take the time,
whenever we can,
to imagine us all standing at the rail
confused but delighted at the endless,
deathless sea before us
with no need to speak of desperation
for once.  Imagine us all
in sunset, in sunrise, under a laughing moon.
Imagine a shared moment
where it didn’t need to make sense
that there was no sense to the voyage.

Imagine that moment
is this moment.

What is there to say but:

isn’t this
a grand, daft,
sacred sea we’re on?

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