Monthly Archives: December 2008

Nice job, johnnylexicon…

Yup…if you weren’t there, you missed a good night of poetry indeed down in Providence…all kinds of cool stuff, including blues harp, the filthiest haiku of all time as Christian attempted to meet Max the barista’s challenge to “murder his mind,” and some damn fine debut work from Mr. Drake. Sending the old year out in style…

Continue on with us next week as we welcome the master of what-the-fuck-did-he-just-say (and I mean that in a totally positive way) himself, Morris Stegosaurus, to the GotPoetry Live Stage!


0.4

I have lived a life aimed at making
The Big Statement.
Handcuffed to a lust for spectacle,
I have always swung for the fence.

Out there is where the crowds are, after all.
Out there is the World Beyond, waiting to see someone
touch every base. They worship
at the throne of Babe Ruth, who said once

when asked if he could have hit .400 for a career average
if he hadn’t tried to hit so many home runs: “.400? Hell, kid,
I could have hit .500.”
We’d still have known his name, of course,

but it would have had so much more dust on it, layers building through time,
brushed off only when some fan, some hardcore fan,
came hunting for the name of the guy who was consistent, made it work
one base at a time, moving others ahead. Most of us would have forgotten him

in the day to day, preferring to honor the home run kings
who shot themselves out there with every torn off cover,
every leathery poem whose distorted round made the watchers
shout, “Yeah! Look at that mother fly…”

I’ll never be that guy. No matter how I change my swing,
I miss far more than I hit.
I’ll never be the one whose name sits on every set of lips,
no icon for the masses to stare at and whisper about,

my appetites the stuff of legend, my face
a whetstone for the sharpening of ambitions, my name itself
a charm to urge the fast and ready. I’m ready to say it and mean it:
give up the fence for the sacrifice and things will fall

the right way more often than not, if not for me, then for someone else.
Those crowds will never call me out, but the game will go on,
a better game for my having played it.
That’s enough.

— 12/31/08


Interesting…

Haiku2 for radioactiveart

the signal path of
excess leads to the roadhouse
of wisdom and god

@ aboutmylife.netadvogato.orgblogger.comblogs.gnome.orgblogspot.comdeadjournal.comgreatestjournal.cominsanejournal.comlivejournal.commyspace.comspaces.msn.com
Created by Grahame

mother’s day

all of you
have disappointed me
in so many ways,
she said.

just look at you —
you’ve all
so obviously failed —
each of you

with your two eyes weeping,
two ears shuttered,
one mouth
muttering.

I ask you,
all of you,
where are the mirrors
I deserved?


Link to Gaza article, and an old poem…

http://www.countercurrents.org/arrigoni291208.htm

And it seems fitting to repost this, a poem from long ago that’s appeared in a few anthologies and such.

POLITICAL ART

a print of “Guernica” hangs on the foyer wall
above the drink table
here are the famous horse and the upraised human face
they’re screaming as the hors d’oeuvres are passed

and on the facing wall
behind the buffet
hang two photographs
carefully chosen for tonight

in this one is a girl we have seen before
running and burning on a road in Vietnam years and years ago
back then she was trying to fly to safety
on the innocent strength rising along her fiery arms

in this one is a man we’ve also seen before
and despite his death in 1890 he also keeps trying
but he’s frozen awkward and insolent in his attempt
to rise from the snow at Wounded Knee

we are making small talk tonight
clicking our tongues at all these pictures
making crestfallen small talk
because we know we should

handing over money
to save Afghani statues from the guns of rapists
handing over fistfuls of green guilt
for the anesthetic of aesthetics

buying permission to posture unflinching
before those who have fallen
permission to shelter in these picturesque memorials
in the hope of receiving from them some kind of prophylactic grace

as we stare at the burning girl
as we sadly regret Wounded Knee and genocide
as we admire the abstraction of that burning Spanish town
we will click our tongues

while marking the skill of the artist at having those faces
seem so stark in their angled black and white
seem so shot through and through
with an undertone of subconscious red

it’s from this we’ve learned how to watch the news
the news that gives us each day our daily dread
a new crop of victims to be cropped and photoshopped
and we know just what to do when we see the faces

we observe
we regret
we remark
we move on

tonight there’s a gallery fundraiser
tomorrow there will be another
we’ll see the burning girl and the rising corpse again
and we’ll make another print of “Guernica”

why
do we need
all these prints
of “Guernica”?

someday we’ll see
that if we had been changed by all this art
at the first hint of genocide we would smash our cameras
hang our paintbrushes back on the wall

stick our checkbooks back in our pockets
lift the paintings from their frames
and carry them through the streets
to the places of power calling why

why

if the people inside our work could speak
they would tell us that if witness alone could change the world
the world would be changed by now
and we would have no need to learn

that this picture
of that girl
is not
beautiful


Tomorrow at GotPoetry Live: Christian Drake!

Ryk’s got this up, but figured I’d repost it for my list…

This Tuesday, December 30th, closing out 2008 is Christian (fucking) Drake, yo!!!!

Multiple NPS team member, NPS Final Stage poet, and quite frankly, one of the best writers in Performance Poetry today, Christian brings his emotionally charged, blisteringly intelligent poetry to our humble venue. Covering topics as diverse as forestry, ornithology, war, menstruation (to name only a few examples) Christian brings page and stage skills in one amazing package. This is not a show to miss!

GotPoetry Live!
Blue State Coffee
300 Thayer Street
Providence, RI
Tuesdays 8-10pm
$2 + 1 item from cafe

Coming in January:

Jan 6 — Morris Stegosaurus
Jan 13 — Cowboy Matt Hopewell
Jan 20 — The Reverend Mike McGee
Jan 27 — The return of Providence spoken word founder Sam Grabelle with Gary Mercure

BE there!!!


Night Terrors

I woke up to the sound of a pipe being banged
and then the sound of a cough. No one
was home beside me. I did not think of ghosts
or intruders. These were outside me,
coming out from inside me. I’d dreaded this day
for years. I’d always suspected
that I would eventually
become secluded among them,
lost in a grove in my head.
What appeared at first to be fertile imagination
was in fact the crazy coming on for its first show.
“Do you have a name?” I asked. No answer.
They would speak in their time which was not mine.
I wasn’t important. I could be if I agreed to listen
and it was hard not to, even as some part of me
stepped aside from the sweats and the beating chest
to remind me that there were likely some pills for this.
“Stay awhile. I’m lonely. It would be nice to have someone
to talk to, even if it’s only me, even if all you can do
is bang on pipes that aren’t out there, but in here.” Still
no answer. I can’t even talk to myself right, I thought,
or heard. I bet there’s a pill for this. I bet again
that I could talk them back inside. I don’t know yet
if I have won. There’s nothing out there now, or in here,
except the furnace and the light in the living room,
the clack of my nails on the keys, my chest still heaving.
I’m no longer worried about waking anything up, disturbing anything.
A good night’s sleep among the gray firs I can see in the kitchen
(formed I am sure by bars of moonlight or perhaps the neighbor’s porchlight)
will be enough to make it all go away. There’s a pill for it,
at any rate, or so I’m told. Someone keeps telling me that, anyway.


Matters of Controversy

Gaza

is approximately
25 miles long
and between 4 and 7
miles wide, contains
around 1,500,000
people, is the 6th
most densely populated area
on the planet with around
4200 people per square kilometer,
although due to issues
with access and administration,
many of those figures
are a matter of some controversy.

It is controlled
by Hamas
and that is a matter of some
controversy.

Hamas has frequently launched rocket attacks
from Gaza into Israel. In recent days
(speaking now at the end of 2008)
said attacks have killed 1 person
and wounded dozens,
although numbers may change,
and the figures remain
a matter of some controversy.

Airstrikes by Israel against targets in Gaza
have led to the deaths of at least 275 people
to this point, with the Israeli government promising that
operations will be continuing for some time.
This is a matter of some controversy.

The pronunciation of the word
"Gaza"
is a matter of some controversy.
Some pronounce it
"My Lai," or "Sand Creek,"
while others pronounce it "necessary
if regrettable" or "a situation that must be
closely monitored."  Which pronunciation
will prevail, even who gets to choose
which pronunciation will prevail —
these are matters of some controversy.

Under the arc of rockets and bombs
there is little to debate.
A limb severed is a limb severed.
A hat still moist with scalp
and brains is irrefutable.
A baby’s arm dusted
in the matte silver of concrete dust,
protruding from rubble and still twitching,
is described the same way in every account,
with wailing and gnashing of teeth.

Controversy
is the art of saying something
that is in opposition
to what someone else is saying.

Silence
is the art of saying nothing.

War is the art of attempting to end
controversy.  It works best in concert
with silence.

Whether a particular war
is a masterpiece of the art form
is frequently
a matter
of controversy for a few,
upon which the majority
is mostly silent.


Tail In Mouth (was: After The End — revised)

somewhere near megiddo,
empty dust city in a poor valley,
with armageddon
its holy unholy avatar;
with detroit in background,
new york in background,
washington left to fend off dogpack imaginations,
london a screen for chopped limb and stink,
paris a mistake now corrected back
to abandoned marsh village on septic banking,
moscow ice darling,
beijing concrete boiling,
with a black breeze
hurtling over all
through all
and into every crevice,

he finds a rent metallic casket
by a ravine trash-full of mango peels,
flutes, silk pajamas, and books.

terrific, he said.

early on
we had opened up that lid and let it all fly —
dead trees, faces shrouded in magenta
with burned eyes,
a wailing that went on and on
but we had stopped our ears and pushed ahead
with lamps and bulldozers,
guns and gin.
hammers to nail hands to charred symbols.
nails on blackboards.

it had all ended too slowly to be officially noticed.
rot increasing far out at sea.
sargasso triangle in our heads
becalming solutions.
land falling before relentless chewing of greedy teeth.
unexplained mutations of remembered familars.
oiled-up trivia on papyrus, on monitor,
on showcase pillars on street corners,
on every mind ad infinitum,
"per aspera ad astra"
no more than mystic hokum
from a man
behind a curtain.

he spat on a patch of bare earth.

his blue gray muscles
remembered what had failed
and he recited that bullet dharma:

no more demands,
no fear of summons,
no still unbroken law.
no etiquette, no condescending nod
to willing suspension
of social code.
no notion of art. 
no blisters. 
no callused palms,
no ridges on index fingers.

terrific,
he said.

I can do better
next time.
yes.

he bays

yes
Yes
YES
at an unchanged moon.

someone, he thinks,
will answer,

YES.

that box
may creak,
but it will
open,
someone will say
yes,
and we’ll get back
to work.


Signing off here

to go finish up stuff for the holiday…very little left to do, but it’s gotta get done.

Have good times with your loved ones, all.  See you on the other side.  Be good to one another.


Car’s up and running!  Turned out to be a dead cell in an otherwise relatively new battery…found the crack/flaw this AM, went out and got a new one, all set.

Which means i’ll be at GotPoetry Live tonight for our Holiday open.  Will you???


The Article is up…

Zero Point Zero: Report From IWPS, 2008

Go there, read, comment there, comment here…have fun.  (Commenting over there, of course, will keep the discussion going with the article right there for reference…but here is good, too.)

I expect some hate, some love, and a lot more indifference than either.  We’ll see.  For the first time in a long time, I don’t really care all that much about any of that…


Crap, pt 3

Reposted my list to albumchallenge , with expanded notes. 

I figured, why let all the fun happen without me?

Plus, I managed to find a way to insult people in the notes…well, I don’t think it’s insulting, more observational.  I expect some others won’t see it that way, though…i’m used to it.

The IWPS article has been submitted to GP for review.  I’ll let you know when it’s up.

Also, my car is dead.  I think it’s just a battery and the cold, but it’s never been a problem before…fingers crossed.


Cashing Out

Each of us is no more
than a vault of moments,
a bank for remembered scenes.

Poets spend all that they save,
and I am one —
or rather, have been one,
for from this moment on

I refuse to fritter
a second more
in letting my mysteries out
for the world to pick up
like so many stray pennies.
Let it be someone else’s turn.

Yes, there are times
when it comforts me to think again
of the way her hair felt
the first time I touched her
on a Providence street;
there is more to say about that,
and I know ways to make others feel it too,
but I want to keep it for myself.

I could describe what it feels like to press
the point of a hunting knife into my chest,
adding a quarter pound of pressure
with every breath,
shaking and snotty with tears
until I pulled it away…
I could make that real
for anyone who asked,
but could anything I got back
make it worth my while
to transfer that
from my own private store
into the public treasury? 

So much that I saved
from youth to now
has ended up on stages,
spent for others’ amusement,
traded for glad hands
and shifting feet. 
What has it ever gained me?

Just give me now, at last, 
my hoard to hold for me alone.
Let me count my terrors and my ecstasies
in my own time, sitting up late at night
to avoid dreaming them out of my grasp.
Call me a miser if you want.  Complain
that it is not in my character
to be this selfish, and I will agree;
but Lord, how I wish I had been
less profligate with these
when it would have been wiser
to keep them close.

If I can learn to be tighter
with a memory now,
I might yet be happy. 

I could get a job
where no one will ever ask me
about who I was,
where I’d been,
how I view the search for meaning,
how I got here. 

It’s none of your business,
I will say if they ask me. 

Write your own goddamn poems,
that’s what I’ll say. 


Revolution

We have lived
too long
among replica altars
among liars
among stars full of gunpowder
among jars of fatal honey
among tongues that sharpen crowns
among feral cats who eat sleep

Now we say
This is war

We can taste old tobacco tonight
in the snow-heavy wind

We believe power can be stunned
by an army of empty pockets
Believe the honor assigned to our charming foes
in their secret councils is a paper-poor foundation
for their church of generals

We are coming into our own

Set phosphorus by their sinks
and lay mines in their marble yards

Speak machete in their stores
Spell our names with letters threaded on fuses
and sign away our lives and theirs

We are coming
Magnet doctors
Shoestring traders
Slim warriors with bones akimbo
Reptile headed whores and their lovers

We know this land as well as they do
Better —
we know where the damage is
how to worm a finger in there
pry out loose bricks
for the throwing
at eagle darkened
sale junky
wealthy dog
soon to be
dead