you are telling the truth
when you say that what drives you to

the need to question
then disregard the answers
the need to chop down hard on the belay rope
then seize on the joy in the snap as it releases
the need to be heard
no matter the discomfort given to the one who hears
the need to be felt
even as the one who has touched you backs away screaming
the need to say something that seems true
even as contrary wisdom is spilled useless on the dry earth

is quite mysterious

then you learn
that there is also a species of moth
that sucks tears
to survive
and you say

ah-ha

then roll yourself up
and fly into a fire