I’ve contracted to do a session for Deloitte and Touche in NYC on October 30.

Just learned that they’ve confirmed that the day will hold two sessions, one in the AM and a second one in the PM for a different audience. When I agreed to do the session, it was with the understanding that nine times out of ten they combine the two audiences into one decent size session that is done in the AM, so I can just take off after that. This office wants to keep the two audiences separate, so the two sessions will happen regardless of the attendance in each.

If I end up doing the day in NY, I’ll never get back in time to be there for theklute‘s feature at GPL that night. (Sorry, man. ) That’s not the big issue here though — when I contract a session I contract for the day and get paid no matter how many classes I run on that day.

No…that’s not the big issue at all.

The big issue is that the session is in Two World Financial Center and it overlooks the WTC site.

I went and visited the site in November of 2001. Many nightmares later I made a promise to myself that I would not return until it was rebuilt.

Part of me says I need to go — I desperately need the money (I get $1k/day as a fee) and it might be good for me to do it for personal reasons. Part of me says I need to honor the promise I made to myself not to return this soon.

I am truly torn. Love to hear some perspectives before I make the decision, although (as always) in the end I will keep my own counsel on this.

So…