nervous

i’m really ill again. I think the plane reaggravated everything.

perfect storm: severe strep related swollen throat lining meets already severe chronic obstructive apnea.

can’t breathe. haven’t eaten. keep choking/coughing. can’t speak, really, without strangling on my words.

only thing working is to put on the CPAP device and let it keep my throat open. I’ve taken all my pills, gonna give it a bit and try to eat something, and hope it clears up by tomorrow.

Can I be honest? I’m a little scared. The fact that I can only breathe without coughing by using a machine right now is a little overwhelming.

Fingers crossed, k? And y’know…a prayer wouldn’t hurt.