Monthly Archives: February 2006

“poems about poetry are stupid” = snobbery

the next time
someone tells you
that writing a poem
about writing a poem
is a poor use of poetics,
tell them
that talking dirty
to a lover
is a waste of time
when the equipment
is so close at hand.

I am tired of the argument that poetry should be off-limits as a topic for poetry. My own view is that human endeavor, passion, love, sorrow, sweat, pain, and blood are all worthy of consideration, and I can’t think of anything that engages more of those things for me than the creation of poetry. Why should I not write about something that is the central organizing principle and driving force of my existence?

I think the source of much hatred of meta-poems is that most of them (like most other poems) suck, and because they are self-reflective, they amplify their own suckitude.

When I write a poem about poetry, about writing a poem, I try to expand the scope of what I write to include all sorts of thoughts about life, the universe, and yes, everything; poetry becomes a catalyst and a ground for larger thought. But it doesn’t mean I don’t mean what I say about poetry itself.

The writing of poetry, the reading of poetry, the performance of poetry are all religious rituals to me. I will write about my relationship with God as I see fit.

Try it sometime, o topic snobs: do a little self-reflection on why you do this. See if it inspires you to try and capture it in a poem.

If it doesn’t? I feel sorry for you. And yeah, I mean that.


memory

javabill, thisrabbit, theryk, rainbows27, johnpowers, and I went to the calling hours for Lisa King tonight.

I’ll spare you a blow by blow; the family was grateful for the love Lisa inspired and seemed genuinely pleased that she and her work would live on.

But there were a couple of moments that bear mentioning…

— the photo of Lisa and final_girl, smiling in a bar in NYC. I called Ms. D to let her know she was there in spirit.

— and speaking of there in spirit: in one of Lisa’s personal albums that was out for visitors to see was a picture of…the infamous, legendary, 1997 NPS Naked Poets Pool Party.

So you were all there in spirit — yes, you, pinata; Wammo, Danny Solis, Lisa Martinovic, Jason Carney, and a whole host of naked, drunken people, all having a great time. The date was on the photo: August 8, 1997.

The minute her cousin heard us exclaiming over the photo, she came over — no one in the family had a clue as to what it was or where it had come from, and we stood there in the middle of the wake naming names and laughing.

Everyone was having such a great time in that photo.

I signed the guest book, not only with my name, but with a note from “all the poets who couldn’t be here.”

Afterwards, we went to dinner down the street at a really good Chinese place – lucky find. We raised a glass to Lisa and talked and told bad jokes and all that.

I’m glad I went.


for ryk, who requested a superhero poem

This stems from a misreading of a label in a car window, advertising “Superflo” gasoline.

SUPERHO

About the name: she came up with it
in an off moment. Not that she liked the label,
or thought it applied to her or anyone else, really;
but after years of being ogled by teenagers
who caught her in midflight all spangled and
skin-tight, after selling her image
to the pinball and video game merchants,
after trying to make a living fighting crime
and only getting noticed for tits and ass,
it only took a last-straw leer and a bad joke
to make it stick in her head for good.

She thought about changing the costume to Juicy Couture,
changing the persona to soccer mom from another planet, modern woman
bitten by a radioactive feminist spider — eh. Stick with
the tried and true, she decided, and let the bastards
think what they want. I’ll keep at it my way,
maybe kick more balls than ass for awhile
just to make them a little more wary of what they think.

Soon enough, she started skipping the superhero meetings. She cropped her hair
and stopped talking to Ironman, that condescending prick.
She never went by the bar anymore, missing out on
the locker-room jokes and tips for dealing with
parallel universes — hell, she thought, I’m in a parallel universe
every time I step into a room with these jokers.

On a cold day on October she hung up the leotard for the last time.

These days she sits around a lot. She uses her powers sparingly —
turning back time, for example, to get to the video store before it closes.
She watches a lot of movies and wishes she was Katherine Hepburn, sometimes,
but mostly she’s happy — takes lovers when she chooses
but more often sleeps alone and loves it, lets the catalogs pile up untouched,
and never, ever, thinks of her name.


observation:

The row over the company from the UAE buying the company that runs operations in some US ports strikes me as a particularly obvious example of people missing the fact that when it all comes down to brass tacks, nationalism will always play second fiddle to corporate interests.

I don’t think it makes an ounce of difference whether or not the company is based here or on the moon, frankly.

That people are shocked that such a thing could happen is a sign of naivete. That others are surprised that there’s an outcry is disengenuous.

Nationalism is a shallow trick played to disguise big capitalism at work. If you play the trick well enough, you shouldn’t be surprised when people believe that you meant it, and expect you to act as if you believed it.


there once was a man from…oh, forget it.

Nantucket reading rocked. The great hall of the Nantucket Atheneum / Library hosted one of Frederick Douglass’ first public speeches. Quite an honor to read there.

The passage out and back…rocky. Big swells, bouncy ride, many kids.

I am finally memorizing more poems, new poems. It feels good. I’m reading as well as I have in years.

I feel good. Cool.


typical: middle of the night wake-up, bullshit in the news

I’ll be asleep again soon. I love sleep apnea — even when i’m hooked up to the Machine, I never sleep a full night through.

A quick surf revealed this:

http://www.cnn.com/2006/WORLD/europe/02/17/italy.abuse.reut/index.html

Ah…misogyny…the international language of bullshit.


good mood…

and now I get to go to sleep early in order to drive down and make my 9:15 AM ferry to Nantucket in the AM.

It shall be cold and choppy. I look forward to both that and the return trip that evening.

Anyone going to be on Nantucket tomorrow? (ha ha) Come see me at the Atheneum at 2:00.

Night!


things are looking up

i swore i wouldn’t do this, but i’m getting a little scared, y’know…this is the longest I’ve been out of work in 20 years.

i went to a job interview yesterday.

a full-time job. a job doing pretty much what i’ve been doing for the last 15 years, just for a different humongous company.

good job. great money. large amount of travel to a wide variety of places.

impressed the interviewers. second round of interviews week after next.

got in the car. was almost home when the phone rang. i was in traffic, so I let it ring.

got home, picked up.

the contract trainers i’ve been trying to work for — the ones who pay well and let me set my own schedule and whose original discussions got me to consider quitting the job in the first place — want me to work for them. a spot finally opened up.

if this works out, i’ll make roughly 500-1000 dollars a day on my own schedule working for a company I like and know well, thus allowing me to also develop a consulting practice and — of course — pursue poetry more thoroughly.

leap, and the net will appear.

ETA, 2:43 PM: It’s a go. I just got off the phone with the director. I’m in.


they just dropped off my new CPAP machine, meaning I’m no longer in danger of choking to death in my sleep. which means I can finally sleep.

I mean that literally. I was so scared of dying in my sleep I barely even dozed.

about time I fixed that. g’night.


you have got to be fucking KIDDING ME

http://www.cnn.com/2006/POLITICS/02/17/cheney/index.html


RIP, Lisa King

Lisa and I were never really friends, but we knew each other as part of the New England scene of the early-mid 90s. She always intimidated me in a good way.

Sitting tonight with Zork and a couple of SUNY-Purchase students after the reading, I got to reminiscing about those early days; and while no one in the group knew Lisa or her work, she was much on my mind as I spoke.

The last time I saw her, she was hosting the Queer Slam at the BPC a few years ago. We reconnected briefly, and she introduced me to a woman named Joan who looked very familiar, but I casually brushed the feeling off, figuring she was a poet I’d seen around and forgotten. Marty McConnell looked at me strangely a little while later when I asked who she was, after she’d left. It was Joan Jett, who I think Lisa was dating back then. (I think I should be forgiven, as she had blonde hair at the time.) Lisa was so busy with the hosting and stuff (and I was pretty drunk, thanks to Roger and Marty) that I never did get to really talk to her that night. I regret that now.

I feel like I’ve lost another link to why I originally got involved with slam. The fact that we are the same age only amplifies that.

So — shall we do the sad roll call? Pat Storm, Chris Branch, Ken Hunt, Angela Boyce, Peter Conti, Lisa King. William McLain too, although his was old age. I’m sure there are others.

Do the new slammers know these people? Know their names, their work, their legacies?

Bring them back, indeed.

The Ken Hunt Prize is definitely on for this year, I swear.


reminder — Tonight!

For those of you intrigued by the possibilities inherent in a visit to White Plains, NY:

Poetry at Barnes and Noble
230 Main Street
White Plains NY

Hosted by the esteemed Zork
Featured poet, Tony Brown @ 7, followed by open mic after (sign up for the open is 6:30)

Be there or be pointy.


Well, I’m temporarily fucked.

I have a very long day today, including a trip to NY and back, and a job interview tomorrow.

The motor on my CPAP (breathing device for sleep apnea) just gave out, and I likely won’t be able to get one until Friday afternoon at the earliest.

This means at least one night of horrendous, choking sleep.

Joy.


gentrification (rewrite from last night)

two old men walk in front of me,
discussing a recent robbery.
one says, this is why i never carry money,
i just leave it in the liquor store.
the other one laughs.

i twist the earbuds deeper.
somebody rich sings a rock song
and the neighborhood disappears.


two notes of interest

The first one is especially for my superhero/comic book buddies:

Go check out my buddy theryk‘s LJ entry for today for a publishing opportunity.

And: the new Zero Point Zero is up.


Read The Zero Point Zero Regular Coulmn!

It’s better than poetry!