i knew it would be, but it doesn’t make it any easier.

this is the loneliest and saddest xmas eve i’ve spent in my entire life.

i’m fine, but still…

you can know something’s right, follow through on it, and it still hurts.

i’m not one of those who believes that happiness is the be-all and end-all of existence. at least, not moment to moment happiness…fulfillment takes time, and pain, and suffering in some degree.

i am suffering tonight. i expected to be suffering tonight. that doesn’t make it easier.