Monthly Archives: November 2005

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thank you to all

who are making comments on my personal drama right now.

I really appreciate it. I’ll keep you posted…

(I’m doing this rather than individual responses, by the way…)

love ya.


the first thing i see

the idea that you
will be the last one for me
shakes me.

it is not necessarily
a bad shaking. more like the shiver
they say you feel

when someone walks over your grave.
that’s not a bad thing. it just
is. it’s part of a supernatural

underground life i lead — while
the daily things are happening
as they always do,

the existence
i never understood
is ending.

i wonder sometimes if you know
that you’ve led me to feel
my own mortality in a glance from you,

your dear face a memento mori
reminding me not to waste time.
there is loveliness in knowing

i am doomed. I know from looking at you
that love is as much a resignation
as it is a struggle.

i’m walking toward you now,
over the ground that promises to swallow us.
no matter; forever is a dark and fertile place.


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thank you, providence

and Jessica D for a great time and a great feature set…

nice joint ya got there.


And remember…

if you’re near Providence tonight, come see the fantabulous Jessica Dalzell (psyches_task) and me featuring at the Spoken Word at the Brooklyn Tea and Coffee House, 215 Douglas Avenue, sometime between 7 and 9.

We both have colds so we’ll sound all rumbly and shit. Think Leonard Cohen and Marianne Faithfull.

First trip back to the old neighborhood in years (I used to live at 75 Douglas). Have no clue — is it still the same enchanted land of shooting galleries and hookers it used to be? (This was in the heady days before Crack and AIDS…ah, how innocent it all seems now…)

Anyway, git yer butt on down and repreZENT.


From the “imagine that” department

http://www.foxnews.com/story/0,2933,174917,00.html

I wonder who they’re gonna get to forge their parents’ signatures on their report cards?


Rioter

let us now kill
those who have made us

(let us at least begin)

occult urging of moon
and wind aside
there is much to recommend
a massacre

when we see ourselves
in their faces
we feel the allure
of broken mirrors
when we see our feet
in their footprints
we understand the ripping
of maps

we are smeared with the honey
of their world
the ants who trail us
are our conscience

surely we were born riotous
and have simply forgotten
the glad sweat on the brow that comes
from trashing the iron past
in favor
of the porcelain future

let us then begin
to kill that which has made us
as to stand alone
is the only way one can stand
at the end of the day


My particular radio heaven tonight

is a women’s choir from Cote d’Ivoire praising Jah in French with percussion backup.

I wish I had better luck in my use of languages other than English. I have no easy facility with them. I can stumble through French to speak read and understand; have lost most of the conversational Spanish I acquired through long exposure in the warehouse and hours of poring over bilingual editions of Neruda, Lorca, and Mistral; don’t really get German all that well.

But I have strong affinities with each of them because they each seem to reveal a different way of looking at the universe in the way they are structured and syntaxed.

Almost every day I change my mind as to which language’s nuances best describe creation at that moment for me. Most nights I settle on Spanish with its liquid melancholy. German does the job better other nights when I feel the need for its muscular definition of solid matter in the service of spirit.

I almost never choose English, as it seems to lack something of the necessary metaphysical flair. Perhaps this is why I am a poet who writes in English.

Tonight, though, it’s all about French and its difficult scaffolding of gender and address. There are times when the only way to worship is in French, because God’s so distant that only French will do for the necessary elliptical approach.

I do not know what I am talking about. At least, not in English I don’t.

Again, I think this is why I am a poet…


recipe suggestion or existential query:

how flavorful a meat is sloth?


the week ahead

is shaping up as an important one. More on that later in the week.

Right now, focus on the fact that I’m doing a split feature Tuesday night in Providence at the Spoken Word reading at Brooklyn Tea and Coffee House, 215 Douglas Avenue, from 7-9ish.

I’m spliting my half hour with Jessica Dalzell (psyches_task)and we’ve got an interesting set planned…so you need to be there if you can.

In other news, sancochao (Rich Villar) did a sterling set at the Hut tonight. He’s always consistently excellent and represents a whole new generation of excellence coming out of the louderArts (Bar 13/Acentos) scene in NYC. Get your ass out and see him when you can.

‘Nuff said for now…beddy-bye.


breath

your last breath
is already inside you
tucked into
a pocket of a lung

it’s the one
that entered you
when you were drawn
from your mother

that cry you bawled out then?
that was someone else’s last breath
that had been given to you to hold
until you emerged

how it got
from them to you
although a puzzle
is not your concern

focus here instead:
how sweet the sound
of energy returning
when all was thought lost

who were you
you should ask the next newborn
are you my former angel
are you someone i should know

exhale that
and your questions will settle
where they belong — on the ears of
the past becoming the present


note to various anonymous non thinkers:

call me a spoken word artist again and i’ll clock you one.

i am an old school, unapologetic, unreconstructed POET. it’s tattooed on my arm, my heart, and my last breath.

i prefer the narrower term because it is more precise for what i do. others can be spoken word artists and more power to them. i am not that.


some kind of prayer

there is a kind of prayer
crazier than most
dusted with black sugar
studded with hard knocks
soaked for hours in confessional brine
a prayer that eats false piety clean through
and drinks like a sailor on one last bender

these prayers were first written in the plague years
rode on the saddle horns of cavalry in civil wars
were breathed by the dozens on reservations and in camps
became stronger thru pogroms and holocaust
and glowed poison white when offered to the traditional god —

because you don’t pray like this
to just any god

this prayer reaches a god of gold cadillacs
a god of ptomaine diners and roundheeled hookers
a god of dropped balls and last chances
this crazy prayer
drags a true god kicking and screaming
into view
a god who loves the desperate
and allows the sword to once in a while
be mightier than the pen
the word
or mercy


question

This, by the way, has nothing to do with critique I’ve received here. It applies to another site where I post stuff from time to time.

I recently received feedback on a poem (the “country highway” poem) that followed all along the same lines — which is that the piece was unfinished, was too symbolic, needed more detail, etc.

One of the critics took it upon himself to riff on the poem, not editing it but creating a whole follow up stanza which the various critics agreed was better than the original and showed more of what they were talking about. One even suggested i should now move the poem to the “collaborative” poems section because of the additions that had been made. And the author of the new stanza — whose work i do respect — said he was was just doing it to show me “the poem that the sketch i had written could have been.”

Now, mind you, I’m not upset about any of this. People have their own perceptions, of course. But this doesn’t feel like useful feedback, paritally because it missed the point of how i wanted the original poem to feel — deliberately dry and academic in its approach to a powerful subject. In other words, no one dealt with the poem in front of them, but rather with the poem they would have written on the same subject.

I’m at a loss as to how to respond. How do I say, “um…no” when critique is this far off of the intent without appearing totally asinine and defensive?