numbness as an approach to life is much underrated.

if i acted more in my self-interest, was more selfish with my needs and desires, i do not think i’d be happier unless i simultaneously became more immune to the pangs of conscience and self-consciousness that define me.

i think sometimes i will die in a flame of self-pity and foolishness.

couldn’t even see to drive this morning.

i usually get these when the stress in my life builds to an unimaginable level.

surprise.

in other news, i haven’t eaten and i haven’t thrown up.

whee.

(took me ten minutes to type this — i just checked)