More ABQ thoughts

OK…I’m starting to get excited now.

It’ll be good to see y’all.

I am nervous as hell about managing stress/time dilation/alcohol/poetry tag and most of all sleep deprivation.

See, I trace a lot of my most recent breakdown and worsening of the overall diagnosis to the disruption I went through at NPS 2003. That trip screwed my sleep cycles up so badly that I went into a tailspin right afterward and then it just got worse.

I’m on different meds now, vastly different meds; I’m far more conscious of what I need to do to align myself with health, too. Nonetheless, I worry.

I do hope I get to read at one or two side events.

I need to get out of the city one day and head to somewhere like Acoma or Mescalero. Acoma because the church there is such a sacred space, Mescalero because that’s where my dad is from and I need a peek at Sierra Blanca again. Although I’ve been in NM a couple of times since then, I’ve not been on the rez since 1990.

But I’m thinking Acoma might be more my speed this trip.

I’ll have a laptop with me so I can update LJ if I feel like it.

I am betting I won’t feel much like it.

And I’m counting on this trip to clear my head in a couple of important ways, in regard to a whole host of questions I’ve been thinking about. More, perhaps, about that later.

Right now, I’m just thinking of sunset on the Sandia Range…