The man at the pharmacy counter and I are
picking up our prescriptions.
He notices the names on my slips.
He pulls me aside on the way out the door
and says,
“What does a gun barrel
taste like? Are you suicidal if
you can simply imagine
it? Even if you don’t own a gun? if
you know you’d more likely use
a knife or a rope? if you haven’t
so far and you’re in your thirties?”
I tell him
I wouldn’t know anything
about that. He nods
and waits for me to go
to my car. In the rear view mirror
I see him sit down on the curb
and run his fingers through his hair.
I will drive away, I tell myself,
and I do. I stop looking
in the mirror once I’ve pulled out,
stop thinking about it
until I get home and write this poem.
If you lick the end of a pen
it’s almost the same
is what I should have said.
Dark Matter 
May 3rd, 2005 at 5:26 am
you have a much subtler way….
…of saying what I said in my poem sunday night. Went over weirdly, because I think people don’t want to hear how you almost killed yourself and the detail of it and why it happens….
Very weird vibe. But I just had it happen and had to get it out, and I think when I’m in this mood, I get a little annoyed at people who say “why are you suicidal? You have so much to live for”….
It’s like trying to explain a sunrise to a blind man. There are no words. (nice metaphor for something so dismal, no?)
May 3rd, 2005 at 5:26 am
you have a much subtler way….
…of saying what I said in my poem sunday night. Went over weirdly, because I think people don’t want to hear how you almost killed yourself and the detail of it and why it happens….
Very weird vibe. But I just had it happen and had to get it out, and I think when I’m in this mood, I get a little annoyed at people who say “why are you suicidal? You have so much to live for”….
It’s like trying to explain a sunrise to a blind man. There are no words. (nice metaphor for something so dismal, no?)
May 3rd, 2005 at 5:26 am
you have a much subtler way….
…of saying what I said in my poem sunday night. Went over weirdly, because I think people don’t want to hear how you almost killed yourself and the detail of it and why it happens….
Very weird vibe. But I just had it happen and had to get it out, and I think when I’m in this mood, I get a little annoyed at people who say “why are you suicidal? You have so much to live for”….
It’s like trying to explain a sunrise to a blind man. There are no words. (nice metaphor for something so dismal, no?)
May 3rd, 2005 at 5:26 am
you have a much subtler way….
…of saying what I said in my poem sunday night. Went over weirdly, because I think people don’t want to hear how you almost killed yourself and the detail of it and why it happens….
Very weird vibe. But I just had it happen and had to get it out, and I think when I’m in this mood, I get a little annoyed at people who say “why are you suicidal? You have so much to live for”….
It’s like trying to explain a sunrise to a blind man. There are no words. (nice metaphor for something so dismal, no?)
May 3rd, 2005 at 5:26 am
you have a much subtler way….
…of saying what I said in my poem sunday night. Went over weirdly, because I think people don’t want to hear how you almost killed yourself and the detail of it and why it happens….
Very weird vibe. But I just had it happen and had to get it out, and I think when I’m in this mood, I get a little annoyed at people who say “why are you suicidal? You have so much to live for”….
It’s like trying to explain a sunrise to a blind man. There are no words. (nice metaphor for something so dismal, no?)
May 2nd, 2005 at 6:28 pm
thank you, laura.
May 2nd, 2005 at 6:28 pm
thank you, laura.
May 2nd, 2005 at 6:28 pm
thank you, laura.
May 2nd, 2005 at 6:28 pm
thank you, laura.
May 2nd, 2005 at 6:28 pm
thank you, laura.
May 2nd, 2005 at 6:27 pm
Stunning.
May 2nd, 2005 at 6:27 pm
Stunning.
May 2nd, 2005 at 6:27 pm
Stunning.
May 2nd, 2005 at 6:27 pm
Stunning.
May 2nd, 2005 at 6:27 pm
Stunning.
May 2nd, 2005 at 5:50 pm
it is said, if you live long enough you will get cancer…. or your heart will give out, or while everything else is happening pnmonia will sneak in while they are just giving you morphine to witle away your hours…..
sat for 2 days watching death claim it’s aged. I am not ment for medical work.
I think quick and painless… one where you don;t know it’s coming is best…. or one of your choosing… were you make it quick and painless.
but it all makes me wonder why we ever have kids to begin with…. just to die in some painful way.
oh yeah, sex is fun to most people…. they are the side effect… ha ha.
May 2nd, 2005 at 5:50 pm
it is said, if you live long enough you will get cancer…. or your heart will give out, or while everything else is happening pnmonia will sneak in while they are just giving you morphine to witle away your hours…..
sat for 2 days watching death claim it’s aged. I am not ment for medical work.
I think quick and painless… one where you don;t know it’s coming is best…. or one of your choosing… were you make it quick and painless.
but it all makes me wonder why we ever have kids to begin with…. just to die in some painful way.
oh yeah, sex is fun to most people…. they are the side effect… ha ha.
May 2nd, 2005 at 5:50 pm
it is said, if you live long enough you will get cancer…. or your heart will give out, or while everything else is happening pnmonia will sneak in while they are just giving you morphine to witle away your hours…..
sat for 2 days watching death claim it’s aged. I am not ment for medical work.
I think quick and painless… one where you don;t know it’s coming is best…. or one of your choosing… were you make it quick and painless.
but it all makes me wonder why we ever have kids to begin with…. just to die in some painful way.
oh yeah, sex is fun to most people…. they are the side effect… ha ha.
May 2nd, 2005 at 5:50 pm
it is said, if you live long enough you will get cancer…. or your heart will give out, or while everything else is happening pnmonia will sneak in while they are just giving you morphine to witle away your hours…..
sat for 2 days watching death claim it’s aged. I am not ment for medical work.
I think quick and painless… one where you don;t know it’s coming is best…. or one of your choosing… were you make it quick and painless.
but it all makes me wonder why we ever have kids to begin with…. just to die in some painful way.
oh yeah, sex is fun to most people…. they are the side effect… ha ha.
May 2nd, 2005 at 5:50 pm
it is said, if you live long enough you will get cancer…. or your heart will give out, or while everything else is happening pnmonia will sneak in while they are just giving you morphine to witle away your hours…..
sat for 2 days watching death claim it’s aged. I am not ment for medical work.
I think quick and painless… one where you don;t know it’s coming is best…. or one of your choosing… were you make it quick and painless.
but it all makes me wonder why we ever have kids to begin with…. just to die in some painful way.
oh yeah, sex is fun to most people…. they are the side effect… ha ha.
May 2nd, 2005 at 5:28 pm
s’ok. I mean the same thing, more or less.
May 2nd, 2005 at 5:28 pm
s’ok. I mean the same thing, more or less.
May 2nd, 2005 at 5:28 pm
s’ok. I mean the same thing, more or less.
May 2nd, 2005 at 5:28 pm
s’ok. I mean the same thing, more or less.
May 2nd, 2005 at 5:28 pm
s’ok. I mean the same thing, more or less.
May 2nd, 2005 at 5:27 pm
i actually meant the stanza. it’s the best way i’ve heard “writing saved my life” described.
May 2nd, 2005 at 5:27 pm
i actually meant the stanza. it’s the best way i’ve heard “writing saved my life” described.
May 2nd, 2005 at 5:27 pm
i actually meant the stanza. it’s the best way i’ve heard “writing saved my life” described.
May 2nd, 2005 at 5:27 pm
i actually meant the stanza. it’s the best way i’ve heard “writing saved my life” described.
May 2nd, 2005 at 5:27 pm
i actually meant the stanza. it’s the best way i’ve heard “writing saved my life” described.
May 2nd, 2005 at 5:26 pm
maybe. i think it depends on the way your old age has developed.
May 2nd, 2005 at 5:26 pm
maybe. i think it depends on the way your old age has developed.
May 2nd, 2005 at 5:26 pm
maybe. i think it depends on the way your old age has developed.
May 2nd, 2005 at 5:26 pm
maybe. i think it depends on the way your old age has developed.
May 2nd, 2005 at 5:26 pm
maybe. i think it depends on the way your old age has developed.
May 2nd, 2005 at 5:24 pm
“What does a gun barrel
taste like? Are you suicidal if
you can simply imagine
it? Even if you don’t own a gun? if
you know you’d more likely use
a knife or a rope? if you haven’t
so far and you’re in your thirties?”
interesting…. how is it you want to die? pick your poison. been thinking about it resontly… being sorounded by death. dying of old age is no better than the rest.
May 2nd, 2005 at 5:24 pm
“What does a gun barrel
taste like? Are you suicidal if
you can simply imagine
it? Even if you don’t own a gun? if
you know you’d more likely use
a knife or a rope? if you haven’t
so far and you’re in your thirties?”
interesting…. how is it you want to die? pick your poison. been thinking about it resontly… being sorounded by death. dying of old age is no better than the rest.
May 2nd, 2005 at 5:24 pm
“What does a gun barrel
taste like? Are you suicidal if
you can simply imagine
it? Even if you don’t own a gun? if
you know you’d more likely use
a knife or a rope? if you haven’t
so far and you’re in your thirties?”
interesting…. how is it you want to die? pick your poison. been thinking about it resontly… being sorounded by death. dying of old age is no better than the rest.
May 2nd, 2005 at 5:24 pm
“What does a gun barrel
taste like? Are you suicidal if
you can simply imagine
it? Even if you don’t own a gun? if
you know you’d more likely use
a knife or a rope? if you haven’t
so far and you’re in your thirties?”
interesting…. how is it you want to die? pick your poison. been thinking about it resontly… being sorounded by death. dying of old age is no better than the rest.
May 2nd, 2005 at 5:24 pm
“What does a gun barrel
taste like? Are you suicidal if
you can simply imagine
it? Even if you don’t own a gun? if
you know you’d more likely use
a knife or a rope? if you haven’t
so far and you’re in your thirties?”
interesting…. how is it you want to die? pick your poison. been thinking about it resontly… being sorounded by death. dying of old age is no better than the rest.
May 2nd, 2005 at 5:20 pm
Thanks — and it is true.
May 2nd, 2005 at 5:20 pm
Thanks — and it is true.
May 2nd, 2005 at 5:20 pm
Thanks — and it is true.
May 2nd, 2005 at 5:20 pm
Thanks — and it is true.
May 2nd, 2005 at 5:20 pm
Thanks — and it is true.
May 2nd, 2005 at 5:19 pm
I like the last stanza a heck of a lot.
May 2nd, 2005 at 5:19 pm
I like the last stanza a heck of a lot.
May 2nd, 2005 at 5:19 pm
I like the last stanza a heck of a lot.
May 2nd, 2005 at 5:19 pm
I like the last stanza a heck of a lot.
May 2nd, 2005 at 5:19 pm
I like the last stanza a heck of a lot.
May 2nd, 2005 at 5:15 pm
Re: I love this.
Thanks.
Lonely seems to be in the wind lately.
May 2nd, 2005 at 5:15 pm
Re: I love this.
Thanks.
Lonely seems to be in the wind lately.
May 2nd, 2005 at 5:15 pm
Re: I love this.
Thanks.
Lonely seems to be in the wind lately.
May 2nd, 2005 at 5:15 pm
Re: I love this.
Thanks.
Lonely seems to be in the wind lately.
May 2nd, 2005 at 5:15 pm
Re: I love this.
Thanks.
Lonely seems to be in the wind lately.
May 2nd, 2005 at 5:14 pm
I love this.
Swear to god I wear lonely better than a good cut of jeans these days. I was watching the old move Conspiracy Thoery last night. I get a kcik out of Mel Gibson in that apt, although I can do without the taping of the eyelids.
May 2nd, 2005 at 5:14 pm
I love this.
Swear to god I wear lonely better than a good cut of jeans these days. I was watching the old move Conspiracy Thoery last night. I get a kcik out of Mel Gibson in that apt, although I can do without the taping of the eyelids.
May 2nd, 2005 at 5:14 pm
I love this.
Swear to god I wear lonely better than a good cut of jeans these days. I was watching the old move Conspiracy Thoery last night. I get a kcik out of Mel Gibson in that apt, although I can do without the taping of the eyelids.
May 2nd, 2005 at 5:14 pm
I love this.
Swear to god I wear lonely better than a good cut of jeans these days. I was watching the old move Conspiracy Thoery last night. I get a kcik out of Mel Gibson in that apt, although I can do without the taping of the eyelids.
May 2nd, 2005 at 5:14 pm
I love this.
Swear to god I wear lonely better than a good cut of jeans these days. I was watching the old move Conspiracy Thoery last night. I get a kcik out of Mel Gibson in that apt, although I can do without the taping of the eyelids.
May 2nd, 2005 at 4:49 pm
There is something appealing about the taste.
May 2nd, 2005 at 4:49 pm
There is something appealing about the taste.
May 2nd, 2005 at 4:49 pm
There is something appealing about the taste.
May 2nd, 2005 at 4:49 pm
There is something appealing about the taste.
May 2nd, 2005 at 4:49 pm
There is something appealing about the taste.
May 2nd, 2005 at 4:45 pm
“If you lick the end of a pen
it’s almost the same
is what I should have said.”
yum.
May 2nd, 2005 at 4:45 pm
“If you lick the end of a pen
it’s almost the same
is what I should have said.”
yum.
May 2nd, 2005 at 4:45 pm
“If you lick the end of a pen
it’s almost the same
is what I should have said.”
yum.
May 2nd, 2005 at 4:45 pm
“If you lick the end of a pen
it’s almost the same
is what I should have said.”
yum.
May 2nd, 2005 at 4:45 pm
“If you lick the end of a pen
it’s almost the same
is what I should have said.”
yum.