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Trials

The nourishment of the illegals is at hand, the Karen Read trial proves it, you can hand feed the test feed of media bits and let it hang, you can dance as if it matters, you can hang your jaw over the words for your own purposes and pretend it’s for Passover and remain invisible? What difference does it make?

The ravishing of the system is at stake, the white faces of the defendants are at hand, the Donald Trump trial challenges it, you can hand test the offspring for proof of the ravening and the lusting, what of it? What of it with the great grey lull of power gnarling over it all? 

You can challenge it, is all. You can imagine it all in power, all invited to lust within, all incited to yearn with invertebrate longing of grand glow and globs of deep glow.  It won’t matter at all. It won’t and it can’t. The sun will shine, the rocks will glow.  You’ll be fine, or you will die. Thank Jesus for that one. Thank someone, for Chrissakes.


Baltimore Bridge

Take the case of a bridge that breaks in a quite unexpected way.  The morning news shows it collapsing when struck by a ship.  We are told — and by “we” I mean the handful of us up at four AM to see; aren’t we special to know so early? — that seven people or more have fallen into that black night water and that divers have gone in after them.

Take the case of the blood vessel in my head that did the deed less than a week ago.  I’ve told pretty much anyone who would listen that there’s a bridge in my cerebrum that snapped and now, I’ve got to keep an eye on everything. Can’t send anything or anyone in after it to rescue the cells that were impacted by the rupture, this time.

Take the case of the Rapture. Take the case of the Apocalypse. Take the case of not knowing what comes after the long plunge from a height.  The ice water in the dark. The looming demise, the struggle to survive.  Attempted rescues in the cold dark. All the likely failures; the rare miracles you hope for.

Take the case of all the morning numbers. It’s early, very early — the BP, the sugar, the pulse of me watching that slow fall over and over on the daybreak news.  I’ve been on that bridge before, long ago. I’m recalling that it was long and seven fallen seems low even this early. 

Take my case. Take my head as a full bridge tumbling. What should I save, what can I save? This isn’t Baltimore, there’s no traffic this early.  I’m one man with a busted passage, and no one thinks it’s news that this passage is snapped. I should have seen it coming. I should have taken a different road. I should make myself get more sleep.


Jerry Jeff Walker Sings Of Heaven

Well, I’m here — who have expected that I would have made it to Heaven?  Here I am, though. And it’s just as it’s been described. Clouds, pink light, music from an unseen source. And yes, angels. All with two eyes, all with two wings, white gowns, plucky but serene demeanor.

Welcome to Heaven, they say without speaking directly. Flashing Morse code off their haloes. Communicating without words, communicating nonetheless clearly and directly. Welcome to Paradise.

As time goes on, I notice I’m not becoming an angel; the angels I’m seeing seem to have changed a bit — still with the wings, still the gown, still the demeanor but less serene, more morose.  In fact, they’re often stock still and weeping, or twitching and wailing. The music of Heaven goes on with an undertone of that.

I’m no angel.  Heaven’s full of people-shades who thought it would be joyous fun and they’re finding out there’s a death-sameness to it that gets to you after a while.  

As it is, I’m holding it off. No desire to succumb to this numbing joy. Holding it off with a Jerry Jeff Walker song. “If I could just get off of this L.A. freeway without gettin’ killed or caught…” The sad wings of sad angels, beating guitar time as I hum along. 


Missing the Funeral

There are cuffs sticking too far out of suit jackets, muted floral print dresses that have not been worn in a short while, and murmuring about causes and effects. Now and then, an out of place laugh.

Someone steps up and speaks to the now-seated mourners. All the well-styled messages, all the bowed heads; then the getting up to go home or to the reception hall to set up the ham sandwiches and coffee, while others go on to the cemetery to check off that detail of obligation.

Somewhere else is someone else who, still ignorant of the event, is working, sleeping, fucking, fighting, or flying home to where they’ll get the news of the Passing once they’ve landed.

They will tell everyone they wish they could have been there.  

In private, once they are alone or flying back, they will be glad they were not. They no longer have the right clothes for that kind of event. The right taste in catering, or in God-talk.