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Lion Trilogy

Originally three separate poems posted between 2010 and 2013.

1.
Once there was a lion in love with a breeze —
neither jet stream nor hurricane, 
just a humble riffle of air —  
but on that breeze the lion soared.  

The lion must surely have been
transformed into some other being, as lions
cannot fly. Yet the lion flew.
There’s not more to be said of that, I think, 

unless you are one who must find meaning
in all things, one who must sip rainwater
from a china cup, one who holds a book to their face
to understand sunrise and thus misses the sight

of a lion making a transit across the face of the sun.
If it happened to you, you would no doubt
seek a parachute; you’d be so unworthy 
of the love of a good breeze.

2.
There was a lion once
seated in my supermarket
near the cereal. 

I had been shopping
and turned the corner:
there was a lion, not raging,
not sleeping, just sitting.

I thought at first
it was some cardboard promotion, 
then realized
only I could see it.   
It seemed mostly eyes
and of course teeth.

But color of mane, of fur, of claws —
I remember
nothing of these.

What is this lion to me 
now?  A reminder
of how we all hunted once
and were hunted.
Speaker for the wild not found
in the supermarket. Disturbance
in the daily, torn fabric in the mask.

Memory of eyes, mostly. Of teeth.  

My present emotion?
Mostly still fear, 
but now it is less 
a fear of the lion
than a fear 
of forgetting there was a lion.

3.
Still – good to be Lion. 
Sleep between blood feasts.
Be called noble strictly on looks.

Better to be Lioness.
Work the kill.
Stand over it and let the babies feed.

Better to be Gazelle.
Lie there after heart busting run.
Be part of the chain.

Better to be Vulture.
Watch, float down, eat, survive.
Hang away from the others in a pack.

Best, of course, to be Bones.
Best as well to be Leavings.
No guilt except that of unwanted peace.

And as Bones, as Leavings,
best of all to know you’ll be the Same
as Lion, Lioness, Gazelle, Vulture eventually.

 


Truth Beauty

Beauty is Truth, truth beauty, — that is all
Ye know on earth, and all ye need to know.  — Keats

They’ve long since repaired the hole
in the storm door across the street
that was left when the big man
tossed the stone at his screaming wife standing on the porch.

It left a star shaped hole
that reminded me of the holes
we used to stomp into iced over puddles
in the parking lot of the neighborhood market.

Once, I saw Eddie Hope try to skate on one of the big ones
and his skate caught on one of those holes.
He bled all over the ice
and we laughed and laughed while he cussed us out

in eight year old terms with a handful of words he’d learned
from his big brother.  Both Eddie and his brother were dead
within years of that — Tommy from heroin,
Eddie from being dragged down the street

by a car that never stopped.  I think about them both a lot
even now as I see the house across the street,
the white fragile ice on the street,
hear the sound of brakes on the street —

the street that goes both ways.

Here’s what I know on this earth:  I love me some stars, love me
the sound of ice breaking,
see a little truth in the way things break.
Any stain is beautiful and honest

both at once.  A kid dies and an old man somewhere can’t forget
how he kept driving one night a long ago, following his usual path home
to his own kids and how he hugged them hard that night.
They still recall the hug.

Over at the house across the street
the couple who tried to kill each other
in June are apparently happy for now.
It’s getting cold as we get deep into November.

They paved our street this summer
and it’s clean as a slate, all downhill, no place
for a puddle to form,
but I’ll lay odds we’ll be prone to black ice.

Beauty is truth, truth beauty.
Someone’s gonna crash,
something’s gonna break,
someone’s gonna rise up.

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Travis Benson

webcams will tonight be streaming
live images from inside the mind
of one travis benson, who has managed
to insert one in each ear and tune them
to a frequency of light he has determined
will allow the visual display of his thoughts.

before today, travis was a virtual unknown
who labored in a basement in some undetermined city
to bring his vision to fruition.  only a handful
of esoterically inclined and fully wired aficionados
of the fuzzier edges of experimentation
have been aware of his work, as well as

certain governments who have sought him for some time.
in gray buildings on the outskirts of capitals worldwide
hired geeks stand ready to track him down when he comes on line,
as their masters imagine a future bonanza for intelligence work
if the technique works as rumored.  the possibilities,
it is thought, will be endless: the passive voice of a spy’s mind
revealing all the intricacies of espionage, the names and places
of deadly deceits and plotted assassinations…at the same time,

artists have waited eagerly for this moment, hoping that tonight they’ll see
the threads of creativity exposed in the bright storm anticipated
in travis’ skull.  what will be discovered in the crannies
of the genius who created this moment, a moment only ever before captured
in the illusory fragments of thought that until now have been deemed
masterpieces — the sistine chapel, the hulks of giant buddhas carved
into mountains, strains of gamelan and symphony, the words of writers
imperfectly reflecting what they were thinking?

at 2315 GMT, travis benson’s mind goes online
and screens go dark all over the world.

at first, the images are confusing:  a forest of eyes.
a field of small birds feeding on germs.  a city
where the streets are paved with chlldren’s bones.
an immense fall of leaden water salted with the hearts of mice.

as the viewers — millions of them, billions perhaps,
all focused on one travis benson — begin to sort through
what they are seeing, the images on the screen begin to shift
into a story of disjoint and ripple, unremediated rejections
and leftover resentments.  in india, there are those who swear
they see kali charming them; american racists see nothing but black teeth
gnawing the arms of white women; a businessman in caracas
imagines himself in the grip of apes with scimitars.  the pope,
secretly hoping for some proof of the divine, is startled
when jesus appears waving a wedding ring.  a child in new york city
runs screaming to her mother demanding that new doll, the one
that dreams and beats and frets.

around the world, the people slowly reach in zombie time
for the switches.  they go outside and stare up at the stars,
holding each other, talking of love, of family, anything
to erase what they’ve seen.

the artists turn back
to their canvases and keyboards,
painting and playing
hymns and wedding marches,
landscapes and erotic joy.

what the governments think
is classified.

and as for travis benson: what else can be said?
no one wants to know him anymore,
this ugly man who has done an ugly thing.

he disconnects
the cameras.  he goes outside.
in the ensuing days
he will heal himself,
staring anonymously at the things
he’s wrought.

memory,
travis thinks, is a creature
of habit.  it feeds in the same places
unless something changes…
and something has changed.
a frequency of light.
of lightness.

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dialogue for god and atheist

NOTE:  This is part of something larger I’m working on.  That’s the working title.  Not sure yet where it’s all going…but wanted to get some part of it out there for a sense of progress, if nothing else.

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if you want
to be happy,
you have to
believe in something.

Why?
Is it not possible to be happy
simply by knowing what you don’t believe?
For instance,
I don’t believe in you, and I
feel fine.

how can you not believe in me?

I’m of the opinion that
I’m really just listening to myself.
And while I’m not happy,
I’m also not unhappy.
While that may be a poor substitute
in some people’s eyes,
it’s better than the negation of despair
and better, also, than the credulity
of bliss.

oh, come on.
you’ve got to believe in something.
the world is controlled by unseen forces
out for your soul.
you have a duty
to fight.
to believe in the struggle,
if nothing else.

Not buying it.
Stuff happens, sometimes for a reason,
sometimes not.  The powerful
have too much greed to coordinate
their efforts so consistently
over such long spells, and anyway,
to buy it would mean
I’ve got to fight you as well,
and I’m having too much fun right now.

what about ghosts?
the spirits of the dead
returning to seek answers
or stuck here thinking
they are still alive?

Nope, can’t believe in ghosts,
at least not that way.  I believe
we see stuff, or at least I have,
but I’m not in any position to judge
causes, only effects.  I know they happened,
know what I’ve gained and lost from those visions,
but don’t care to know
why they happened.

you’re pretty messed up
if you don’t know why things happen
and don’t care to know.

I don’t believe that either.
I think “why” is too often a jumble of trees
that keeps the forest hidden,  too often
a muddying of the ocean that keeps you
looking at the bottom for treasure when
there’s so much gold in the horizon.
I like forests.
I like my oceans full of shipwrecks I can’t find.
I don’t need to believe in forests:
I can see them.
I don’t need to believe in the ocean:
it’s spread out before me.

you rootless tree,
you rudderless ship…

Perhaps…but,
I choose my best self from each moment of self.
I move.

I can slip my bonds at will.

I am free.

you believe that?

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