Tag Archives: heritage

Cryptozoology

A specialty of the fabled
electric sand-eel,
a creature extant only on
my mind’s favorite desert island,
is its ability to regulate its power
so that in one stroke it may bolt
across a room to kill or
perhaps light a fire
for worn travelers.

Among the creases in the folds
of the skin of the imaginary
pocket elephant
one may find
the algae, called by some “manna,”
which saved the Israelites
on their forty year stroll to
what they call home.

The solitary helicopter wing
of the bass wasp,
the blank face of
the spotted closet snake,
the fully functional heart
growing on the outside
of the Damson’s plum warbler:

can’t you hear that external heart
pulse as it’s calling you,
doesn’t the sting of the wasp
throb within you,
isn’t that
the tiny drumming
of the elephant’s feet?

Go ahead and admit how real they are,
how real you’d like them to be,
then make them more real to everyone else —
repeat these stories of their existence up and down,
praise the habitats they inhabit,
sing hymns for their well-being and
soon enough they will spring
into just as full a reality

as reverse racists,
welfare queens,
and the culture affirming smile
of Chief Wahoo.


In Your Blind Spot

War me,
rape me,
kill me,
dick me around, 
drop me from a list,
dress up and
stomp a dance
against me;

ignore me
until I don’t speak,
I won’t care,
I don’t care
about speaking
to you — 
why would I
want to?  

In your Garden, 
I’m still the Tree
growing in your blind spot,
the Tree Of Knowledge
About You
That You
Don’t Have,
and that
right there

is a Way
of surviving.


Sumac And Maple

This part of New England
holds so much 
roofless wreckage.
Every bitter little town
has at least one example:
brick and stone walls
around a decayed floor
full of rusted machine parts,
creosote-black scraps
of support beams,
and always 
the young sumac
and maple trees
sprouting and rising.  

Those ruins
are why we don’t talk 
to strangers easily here.
Too much
of what we have
invited to give us
structure and strength
has turned out to be
transitory. 

Nothing new lasts;
even the mills
we saved and restored
and refilled with lofts
and small businesses
stuffed with computers
and optimism
are emptying again,
and who knows
how long they will stand
intact? This is after all

the land of
stubborn sumac
and smirking maple,
mocking us from their toeholds
in our sidewalk cracks,
promising 
a day

when all we put here
will succumb
to their roots,
the weather,
and time.


What Started With Columbus Must End Somewhere

Keep shooting,
they’ll be wiped out
eventually.

Keep
trapping them,
like red fish in a
dry barrel,
sicken and starve them,
watch them sicken
and starve, then
keep shooting.

Keep
trimming them
and dressing them
till they disappear
among you, keep their
children till they bleach,
keep putting them in barrels,
you can save some bullets but
it’s ok, when necessary, to keep
shooting.

Keep
fixing their women
so they have fewer kids, or
no kids, nits make lice
is still true if not polite
to say, keep wearing
their fancy stuff so it’s not obvious
who is who is real or what, keep
stuffing the real ones in fishy barrels,
maybe you won’t need to keep shooting
but if necessary, no one will say
a word if you keep
shooting.

Keep
making up
an origin story for them,
make sure
you’re in it, make sure
they stay in their barrels
and keep quiet, keep
shooting for the land bridge
and hoping you’ll hit
a grave to prove you are
right,
keep shooting,
keep
shooting.

Keep at it
even though nothing
seems to be
working.

Keep smearing, fixing,
breeding out, assimilating,
shooting if necessary.
It’s been a while and
they’re still here, true,
but something’s
bound to work
someday,

right?


Acorn

In the little bar
where I fall
out of my shell
after hard days

I have met
angry shades
of my ancestors
many times

I would not say 
these are reunions
with loved ones 
who have passed

as I never knew them
in life and they seem
suspicious
when they see me

and further
I would not call 
the reception they give me
a welcome as they

give me their backs
until near the end
of the night when
after last call

they shuffle past the table
where I’m rolling my head
and shouting at the bouncer
As they reach the door

one will inevitably
turn back and speak of acorns
not falling far enough
away from the tree


Clan

As a child,
my father had
certain knowledge
beaten out of him
in schools set up
to obliterate things
such as clans
and names for clans
and how to be part of
a clan.

It was knowledge
I therefore
never learned
so when
upon hearing about
my family
the woman mentioned
a  long-ago
Cherokee grandmother
and then
asked me
if we were
Wolf Clan,
I said,
“I’m more of a Linux man myself,”
and walked out.

Later that night came
juniper-soaked dreams
of telling this story
to a barroom full of wolves
who howled with laughter
while pumas slapped
their reversed knees.

“Forget about it, bud,”
said the bartender,
a personable hawk.

“You get used to them
trying to make you
into an archetype
after a while,
but to stay sane
you’ve got to kill
at least a few
of the stereotypes
if they don’t kill you first.”


Scorcher

So simple, really: if what you are
hurts, be someone else.

Burn off your heritage and history
like so much kerosene.  Toss it onto a fire
and watch your pain combust into Heaven.
Reinvention is the American way.

Of course, they made it hard
to be what you once were

and they are going to make it hard
to be what you have become.
You will be lying from now on
but it should feel no worse than the truth did.

This is why the recommended method
for defense against this is fire.

Even if it burns you too, there’s still
a mythologically significant chance
that you’ll burst out
through the flames

at last adorned in colors
everyone can agree on.


Biracial Prayer

Face,
change.
Split, mix,
rearrange.

Match
the divided
house
inside me.

If they are going
to hate me, from now on
let it be because
I confuse them
as I confuse myself

and no longer because
they’ve slotted me
according to
their preferred labels.

If they are going
to love me, from now on
let it be because
I stir them
as I stir myself

and no longer because
my image tugs at them
from within imagined
costumes.

If they are going
to ignore me, from now on
let it be because
they know all of who I am
and find it safer to do that —

though it’s unnecessary
as I no longer feel
much for them
either way.


Catch The Drift

In 1492
a man from here
died at the hands 
of a man not from here

and once he’d passed,
he found himself speaking
a new language, one 
that had never existed till then.

Before that when a person died
they kept their own words and spoke
in the next life as they’d spoken 
in this one, and all was continuity.

Soon enough he was joined
by others, all unwilllingly
using the same new tongue,
and then there was a steady stream

and then there was a flood
and eventually, a genocide’s worth
of students practicing vocabulary
and syntax they’d never wanted to learn.

If you listen, you can hear them.
It doesn’t matter where you are. 
You won’t catch every word
but I think you’ll catch the drift.


Person Of The Year

A story of a God-man
who washed the feet of 
disciples tangled with

a story of a man of God
who then washes the blood
from the hands of perpetrators.

A story of millions falling
for a humble face, then
onto stakes in a pit at the bottom.

A story…yes.  A story.
A cover story
about shift and progress.

Person of the year,
welcome to the rest
of the story: once upon a time

there were whispers,
and if there is
happily ever after,

it will likely
not include
you.


A Treatise On The Effects Of Casual And Unconscious Racism In Words Of One Syllable

In shock. Stone
still.  Here, now,
in this speck of time,
stopped in place.

Did he say
what I thought
he said?  Did she do
what I think
she did?

Would have thought
each of them was smart,
had learned, had heart.
Found out, just now,
that I was wrong;

so now I have to go back
and think of each of you
and of how much
I in fact do know of you,
how much I in fact
am sure of, what I have heard
you say, seen you do;

start one more time
to build a wall
I might take down
some day,
I hope.


It Just Is

I tell myself that I will again
call this place “ours”

when we can bury our dead here our way
and be buried here that way in turn

when the blood in the soil
stops weeping from loneliness

when we can plant trees here and feel safe
about our grandchildren living to see them

when those future forests again shrug
at our presence as matter of fact

when the names we give places
hold a music that pulls the land into shape

when we forget how to ghost dance
because it’s become unnecessary

when we forget to dance
for you

when we break the last camera
you’ve smuggled into our last bastions

when we stop you from plucking pointless feathers
from thin air and planting them in your hair

when we open up the shame vault and tell you
no your grandmother likely wasn’t

and if she was
it might have been by force

and ask you if it was by love
why you don’t know her name

when we stop being angry long enough
to pity you

and to laugh more than a little at you
as I realize

that I can call this place “ours”
any time I want

because after all this time
in spite of all that’s happened

it still is
it just is


Repost of older poem: Being Neither, Being Both

Being Indian
and White
on Thanksgiving
means being tired
of plowing the six weeks of stupid before this day.
Tired of explaining.  Tired of walking on Pilgrim shells.
Tired of having to justify marking the day
as painful or joyful or neither

or both.  Being Both on Thanksgiving
means I get to give myself the ulcer
I richly deserve.  Means being hungry
in every sense of the word.  Means
I want to give thanks for something
I stole from myself, or perhaps I did not;

being Both on Thanksgiving
means nothing is simple.  I am thankful
for the tightrope, thankful for the mash-up
problems, thankful for looking like
I ought to be oblivious, thankful for
a good talking to.  Being Neither, fully,

on Thanksgiving means I ought to give me
a good talking to.  I am angry enough
to ignore much and fantasize more
over the boiled onions only my Dad eats
and the meat stuffing with chestnuts only my Mom eats,
angry enough to lose my appetite in public,
angry enough to be redder than the damned canned
cranberry sauce.  Being Me on Thanksgiving

means I sit down to the table and eat like a fat man,
eat a continent’s worth of overkill, filling my dark gut
till I have to shed something to be comfortable
by the fire in the too-warm house of my parents
who are long past caring about anything but making sure
that the peace holds till night falls and we all go home

carrying the leftovers with us to feed on
for another whole year.  Another harvest festival
passed, no guarantee of one next year, maybe
we’ll starve over the winter while being Indian, being White,
being Neither, being Both, being the kind
who thinks it matters when you are choking on
so many bones.


When He Broke Us

when He broke us

our mystery belonging broke
our knowledge
of stone’s tongue broke
our river dreaming broke
river bed opened
and drained itself down
to its bones

when He broke us

we ended almost
couldn’t speak to each other
after war came famine and
our children were taken
they returned much later looking more
like Him
and no tongue to use with us
who were we then
without them 

but when He broke us

He did not finish it
we found glue among little stones
we found our old words there
we saw old life in new seams

when He broke us

we saw his self capitalization at last
for what it was
and gently took it from his hands

when he broke us

he began to crack himself
shame lines crazing his face
he tried to wear our clothes
they fell from him
he tried to steal our names
we called them back to us
his children learned to see him
as unnaturally starved though leaning toward obese
they are losing him in their own growth

they feel bad about when he broke us
it is not enough but it’s something
little breakers feeling sad
in their fancy hats
they still don’t see
as stolen property

 


The Last Goat Rodeo

In his lightning moments
he was a chaos wrangler beyond compare
and we would turn toward him
as any goat rodeo we’d created 
fell into order at his hands,

but always after
followed the thunder,
always, always.  
It’s the only time I can recall
when God

kinda looked downright benevolent
even though we (nominally) didn’t believe,
but Dad finally passing out and not finding us
was considered a bonafide miracle.
We’d run off with neck-bells chiming…

we’d stand up warily
from hiding places…we’d clutch the kinves
we’d learned to carry
and hope adrenaline
did the rest…

Well, he’s gone today.  Gone 
at last.  We stand around bleating,
expecting thunder that won’t come
unless we make it ourselves…
and oh, you’d best believe

we know how to make it ourselves.