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Hubris

Imagine his delight and surprise
at reading news of black widow spiders
in supermarket grapes
and lightning that burned down
Jesus. 

His first thought:

Some things are too improbable
to be feared
or understood.

He looked at the stories
with a practiced eye
for discerning meaning
and finding connections;
was at a loss
until he saw a third story
of a miracle cure for blindness
in a remote land: a child
touched by an electric eel
awoke from a three day coma
with sight. 

Then in an instant he recognized
how to spin it all
into a narrative he could believe:

the sky’s fire stroking down;
the poison in the seemingly safe fruit;
the girl opening her eyes to see
incredulous doctors straining to understand
what was happening —

pride stumbling against nature,
and nature just laughed.

He congratulated himself on figuring it out.

That all the links were only in his head
was something he never stopped to consider.

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Mourning The Gulf

Mourning
the Gulf —
what do we mourn?

The sea turtles,
the moon jellies,
the phytoplankton we cannot see?

The tarballs cutting our vacations
short, or ending them
before they begin?

The fishermen
staring
at loaded guns?

Sunsets that hover and dip
into rainbow sheens
and brown slicks over our memories?

Do we fear the oily hurricanes
and greasy storms
yet to come? 

Are we grieving
the Gulf, or how our own
experience with it

has now forever changed?
Do we even know what grief is
when it comes to such a thing as this —

for I do not believe the Gulf is grieving
as past extinctions
surge into view.

I do not believe a pelican
mourns as it dies, or that a shrimp
faces death with stoic resignation.

The earth feels nothing today
as it bleeds.  What we feel
is unimportant to the earth

as it turns, as it adapts
to this.  In five hundred years
it will be as if nothing happened here,

except to us if we are still here.
We mourn for that, not for the Gulf,
but for ourselves.  For what we learn

about how small we are, understanding
for the first time again
that when we break the Earth we break only ourselves,

how the planet always heals, cleans itself up,
but never fast enough to save us from what we believe
of our own omnipotence.

 

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Fear Of A Brown Planet

Noah invited no insect pests onto the ark, but they came anyway;
flies and roaches, gnats and ants, covering every square cubit
in a seething, confident carpet of stubborn, resilient brown.

The buffalo, once endangered, now have grown so numerous in spots
that they are leaving Yosemite to roam their old prairies, leading to calls
to thin them out by gunning down some of that mass of stubborn, resilient brown.

In the Gulf of Mexico, frightened men drop chemicals and lower booms
against the torrent pouring from the depths, a torrent they once sought to own.
Everything is futile.  They stare in despair at the mass of stubborn, resilient brown.

In Phoenix, water pours from sprinklers into the dry soil
and now the desert is held at bay by lawns of green and golf courses;
but let the effort lapse just a bit and soon will come the stubborn, resilient brown.

South of the city, along a border that men have made, soldiers stand
in camouflage and stare south into that shimmering oven, guarding against
the surging numbers moving north — the always present, stubborn, resilient brown.

People here sit and wait in houses of white and gray for their dread to subside.
They do not dare to say what seems obvious — that what they are most afraid of
is that their pastel world is changing back to a stubborn, resilient brown.

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How I Know I Am An American

1.
If i can pay a price
immediately
and receive
what I ask for,
I do.

If I can delay payment
and receive at once
what I ask for, I do.

If I can pay and then receive
at some near date,
I may;

if I can pay now
and not be assured
of delivery, ever,
and there are
long odds
against getting what I want,
I may not;

if I can pay now
and maybe my children
will get what I’ve paid for,
I will not.

2.
Form or function?
Form.

Black or White?
Neither.

Right or left, red or blue?
Some purple in between.

Excess or right fit?
Are they different?

Answer or question?

What?

Answer or question?

That it is possible here
to have one without the other
explains everything.

3.
Refrain from the song
I just heard
echoes for a while after hearing. 
Whether it is
Guthrie
or Scott Key
or KRS-One. Whether there’s a flute,
a bugle, or a cuatro in the melody.
Whether it is loud
or soft, or can be either.
Any lullaby encourages
sleep when it’s sung.

4.
I am proxy
no matter where I go.
I will bleed symbols
when stuck or shot
here or there, by someone
who denies or affirms me.
I lost the deed to me an age ago.

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A Vision Of A Better Tomorrow

I am sick of wearing glasses.
I’d rather not see things so clearly.
When I take my glasses off
people are softer and I take more time
with them, listen to them more closely
because I can’t judge their faces
or their clothes.

I’m sick of wearing glasses.
Why don’t I just get in the car
and drive over them? or crush them
in the disposal?  or shove them
into that box the Lions Club leaves
at the store so they can recycle them
to people who in fact want to see better?

It’s because I don’t want them to see better either.
I’m sick of everyone being able to see clearly!

If we weren’t all wearing glasses
we’d be less able to use the computers.
We’d stumblefinger over the remote — in fact,
who would care what’s on TV?
Turn the radio on! Or,
we could talk to each other more.
No more driving! No more reading!
No more work!

Let’s try giving our glasses
to all the people who don’t need them!
That would be the Great Equalizer.
They’d get us then.
It would be like living underwater,
all of us lost in the blur,
except we could breathe.

(And don’t start with “have you considered contacts?
What about laser surgery?”  Don’t distract me,
I am planning for the future of the world!)

Of course, there might be people who would still see clearly,
who wouldn’t get a pair because the numbers
probably don’t match up.  Some folks would still
have perfect eyesight and there wouldn’t be enough glasses
for them.  (They’d probably all be
snipers and pilots. We’d have to watch that.)
Maybe we could pass a law?
Maybe we could isolate them somewhere?
Of course, we would have trouble finding them.
I’d suggest we make them new glasses
but we’d have outlawed the grinding equipment
and besides, who could see to run it?

I guess we could just hope for the best
in our new, vaseline-coated world
and pray for their mercy…

or, we could blind them.

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What We Take

We take our coffee without cream.

We take our meals when the whistle lets us,
one half hour at a time.
Ham on rye’s as fancy as we get,
some yellow mustard on the bread,
maybe cheese, maybe lettuce if we’ve got time,
chips and pickle on the side.

We take it on faith
that we might lose these jobs.
So we take our money home
and keep it close enough to hear it squeak.

We take our clothing simple and plain
and cheap as we can find. Once in a while
we’ll take on something
with a touch more style
as long as it toes a certain line.

We take our evenings as they come.
We take our friends as warty and hard
as we are.   We talk the way we learned to talk
at the knees of those like us,
and if we do change the conversation
it’s only a little at a time
unless we’re shoved along a path
we didn’t plan to take,
and then we do what we can
to hold on to what we used to say,
adding new words only where they fit.

We take the evening news with a heap of salt.
Even when it makes some kind of sense
we don’t pay much attention
unless we recognize a name or a face.
We work too hard to care too much
which suits are running the game
we know we’re going to lose.

We take our champions as they are
and our warriors as we find them.
We take them to heart if they sound like us
because that’s how we know they’re real.
We take on the battles they want to fight
because that’s how we learn to hope.

We take out the garbage first thing in the morning
to keep it safe from the raccoons and skunks
and the neighbor’s dog that rips the bags for snacks.
We swear we’ll mess that dog up one of these days
for messing us up and making it hard
to keep order on the streets where we live. 
We take a moment to look one way,
then the other, before crossing the street
and climbing into our cars
in our same old solid clothes,
clutching steaming travel cups
and the brown bags
that hold the same kind of sandwiches
they held yesterday
and the day before.

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Fade

It’s past time
for the fade
to begin:

watch us
pretending the lines are stark
and obvious still, that answers
and decisions are clear
and unambiguous.  We can’t
live as we have, we can’t even be
as simple as we’d like to claim:
black, white, left, right,
right, wrong…simple boxes
that won’t hold our outcroppings
and amorphous truths.

Truth is they never did well
by us, forced us to compress
and cut and try to stuff ourselves
into plain cubes,
but we did what we could
and denied our ornery natures
so we could fit;
now that the boxes themselves
are shown to be fragile and breakable
we’re at a loss to explain
ourselves.

If there are no
boxes that fit us, how will we
get along in such a demanding world?

The answer is that we will fade,
let our deceitful edges
disappear into the general,
let ourselves get lost in the Big
and accept that unique
and easily definable shape is a myth
made for containment.

But we’re not ready
just yet, and we’ll remain solid
and square looking for our square holes
while everything around us gets rounder
and larger and nothing stays in one place
for long.

We long for days
that never existed
except by agreement,
and now that the agreement’s broken,
we have to learn to fade,
become obvious ghosts
who will not refuse
to acknowledge the freedom
of the death of category,
even as we deny
the new joy available to us:

the tingle of pleasure
as we pass
through all those walls…

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How The West Was Won

“The Real Old West” on
the History Channel.
Blued barrels
hanging off leather belts
as always,

but the rotgut
was mixed with fruit juice,
if these historians
are to be believed
over mythologists
who sell the idea of whiskey
burning neat all the way down.

I trust this.
It’s more like who we are
today —

always thinking we’re tough
old cowboys,
but too scared of pain
to actually toss the poison
straight,
no chaser.

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Bear

See that house
with the long driveway
two doors down?
They’ve got something like
a bear
in there.

His captors, about whom
we know little, seem
not to listen to him
and want to keep him hidden.
I’ve never seen him myself,
but it’s obvious that he’s there:
you can hear
the bear soliloquy
at all hours, a Hamlet
bear mourning and raging
at his current impotence,
demanding answers
from his parentage
regarding his current state.

One of these days
that beast is going to get out
and come looking for
vengeance on everyone
who knew about him
and kept quiet.  All these quiet homes
are going to be destroyed,
I’ve got money on it
and I’ll tell you: we’ll almost
deserve it.  Almost
because who were we
to question what was being done
in the name of our security
and safety?  It would have stirred
too much if we’d challenged
the rationale for keeping such a force
so trapped and caged.

Besides,
the property values would have gone down.
Who’d want to live in a place
where such angry and deprived souls
could run free and claim what’s theirs,
even if that’s
all they want?
If they could have been that way
from the start, maybe I’d feel different,
but now it almost seems
too late for that.  Best, I guess,
to stay armed and just
listen to them, alert
for the sound
of escape.

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Pundit

You are the cemetery
of brotherhood.

You poke at our faith in
each other’s angelic natures,
demanding spice
and devil noise from us.  One minute
I’m sure you’re done, the next
you’re sticking a finger in my eye.

You don’t know anything real.
In your world there’s a ghost named
the perfect past
and it haunts everything.
That there’s no such thing
as that ghost
hasn’t escaped your notice,
but it doesn’t stop you.
The way you talk is ripped lingerie,
salt in a cut, con man sweet talking into
a rape in a hallway.

I’m going to write you a letter
and send you a postcard
and leave you a voice message
and shout at your house after hours.

It’s the way you want it, isn’t it?
It makes you feel
worthy to be my enemy,
to dismiss me,
call me a mental burp…
hey, you got me again, you slick
shit on an oaken mantel.  Make of me a trophy
of some white contest for black arts…
and dammit, I play into it.
I need to call you out
the way you need me to call you out:
that’s the game.  We do it
for love of our own voices,

the truth
just a secondary gem.

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Prayer For The Oversaturated

O world,
shut up tonight
with your nagging and your
breathless reporting
upon the trivial
and your endless tugging
upon my sleeve…

I need a rest tonight
from consideration
of the right and the left,
the good and the bad.

When it comes down to it
I don’t know much of what it will take
to make a new world.  Half
of my possibly useful head
is filled with gossip, borrowed theories,
gut feelings and dementia —

I need a moment here.

I need a moment
for something that doesn’t feel
overextended from a real thing
I could actually experience
on my own.

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There Is/There Are

a waffle
in your words
a wobble in your
eyes
a worm on your lips
an egg on your
face

episodes
where your heart
appears on your sleeve
available online

now
a consensus
and a rabble
of brooding

a thing you are not

a demand for you to be someone
you’re not

a role you were made to play

lingering doubts
and a ferocious hunger
for you
not for your blood
but for you

nothing there for them
but you’re going to give it to them
if you have to create it

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Tea Party Sex At Twilight With Tiger And Palin

at dusk
we shared tea

over talk of monty python and brian eno

i said
“i really loved
the ‘taking tiger mountain
by strategy’
album”

then we spoke of michael palin
and his travels
around the pacific rim

you said
“i can’t help it
i kept waiting for him
to sit at a piano
and for his clothes
to fly up into the air”

it’s always sex with you
or at least nudity

for which I am profoundly thankful
as we lie together
with warm ambient music
and clear expectations

in our ring of fire

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Diary Of A Plague Year

When it came to us
from somewhere else,
we could not acknowledge
that it had been born
among us.  It traveled
to us as prodigal,
not as alien.

Dirt from its boots
got into our food,
lay on our sheets
and scored us as we slept
and made love,
clouded the very water
in our drinks.

We stopped using
our bowels, absorbed
our own waste

in an effort to stop
the spread,
but it spread anyway,

we could smell it
everywhere we went:

concrete
and flesh on fire.  Roses
in Afghan graveyards
and homely Iraqi streets.
Honey in clay jars masking the stink
of money.

The fresh odor of the flag
on the stiff wind, snapping
in our nostrils.

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Scenes From Geppetto Town

A day starts,
almost always,
with sirens before dawn.

Citizens can tell what’s what:

the ambulance variation
means
someone’s sick, wounded, or dead;

the fire truck clang blare rumble
means
trouble bigger than personal trauma;

the police oscillation
means
any or all of the above,
means someone’s getting a little visit
from the Blue.

I know enough of crown tags and colored beads
to know the Latin Kings
hold some neighborhoods
close.   Elsewhere there are crews
who run their own blocks;
I don’t know who they claim to honor,

mostly it seems like
there are a lot of guns out there
going off
with no direction.

“Worcester” is the formal name.
“Wormtown” is what ex-punks of a certain age call it.
I’ve heard it called “Wartown” once or twice,
but it’s never caught on.

Whenever I light
another far-too-expensive cigarette
I want to call it
“Geppetto Town,”
full of cold wooden boys
wishing they were real men.

There’s a stone circle downtown
that commemorates World War I.
It’s got this highbacked granite bench
running around the circumference.
If you sit on one end and whisper,

a person sitting on the other end of it
can hear you as if you weren’t
fifty feet away. 
Like the rest of the city,
I don’t know
exactly how it works
but it does, and very few people
even know about it.

The city’s voice: dissonance
and fairy dust
hissing down, filling potholes.
Crinkled fenders
rattling with imaginary grandeur,
and the stretching sound a nose makes
when it’s growing out of all proportion
as it speaks with equal passion
of its faults
and its glories.

Oh, more about the Blue:

shaves and crew cuts
who ask “are they white or black?”
about the people they’ll be seeing
before coming out
to the frantic domestic violence call.

We have lovely
turn of the century lamps
on our street.
Half work and half don’t
on any given night. 
We don’t complain:
at least there’s some light
to run by.

Geppetto
shares the belly of the Great Fish
with Jonah and my cousin Tony,
all of them writing feverishly
in the dark.  Outside
there’s a monster storm.  No one
mentions it, they’re pining so hard
for home
that the thought that this might be
as good as it ever gets,
or that the journey to a better place might be
horrible,
doesn’t come up.

Over in the far corner
by the duodenum,
another false boy’s doing
unspeakable things to a turtle
who looks either thrilled or terrified
but because he’s not real,
we can’t ask him.  Everyone is upset
that he’s so brazen.  No one
looks away.

Wormtown,
Wartown,
Worcester.  Say them soft,
it’s almost like praying:

dearest Fairy Godmother,
we
really,
really,
really

want to be real.

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