Four O’Clock Grumble

Spill over habit
from the work week:
I am up and alert
and resentful as always
over being up
well before
I want to be.

Either that or this
is where I need to be
and though the body
might know, the rest of me
doesn’t understand why.

I resent this unknown need
only slightly less than the other.

Yesterday on the stairs to my office
someone behind me told someone else
to have an “attitude of gratitude”
for the day.  

I will try to cultivate that
but it’s hard to grow 
such a flower in this soil.