Whipped cream cheese
and peanut butter
on white bread —

damn, can you believe it?
An old man
stuffing this into

his ruined face
as if it hasn’t already
killed him over time —

breaking down his
diabetic self into 
sugar and failure — 

This food of course
is mostly failure
and self-damage — 

and so not adult 
if that means
anything for someone

like this — eating 
himself toward death
with bread wet with tears

But it tastes good
Might as well die 
emmeshed in pretense

as he’s lived
Having it and eating it
too as if his happiness

makes it alright
to die with his face
smeared and his belly full

of whipped cream cheese
peanut butter white bread
and old sugar tears