I am this morning,
even after a night’s sleep,
as tired as a bird
settling onto
a familiar branch
after migration.
As we all do when we return
to a long missed home,
birds upon landing look around
and try to determine
how it has changed
since last season, but
nothing here looks different
than it did before I slept,
although I spent the night
filtering all I knew through
long dreams that swooped
over seas and mountains.
It’s a disappointment to see
things have not changed,
but maybe it was a mistake
to dream as a bird,
to have believed in
my own far sight
and long endurance.
I’m beginning to think
it all looks the same
because I am microbial,
was merely carried
through my dreams by a bird,
and am still seeing
the same small landscape
I was seeing when I began:
roots of feathers,
bumpy skin. Beyond them
are the same distant sea and sky
I can see wherever I am.
Thousands of miles
from where I began, yet still seeing
the same world; it’s enough
to put this germ back to sleep
and decide that there’s no point
in dreaming at all, although I’m certain
that tonight I will again
swing low over gray seas,
carried home to morning
on familiar wings
I have never truly owned.
