Originally posted 8/29/2010.
Your voice finds its word
and it’s suddenly bigger than you are.
You’re carried to the top of its eruption…
now you’re lava, ash, sticking to cars and walls.
The word builds a cone so steep, you’re going to slide off,
become a refugee fleeing it…then you stop and admit
that to be honest and ruthless with yourself,
you always knew you were a nascent chimera, an embryo dragon.
You just didn’t know how to exhale the burn,
or how to be all your combinations at once.
You choose the next word, your voice suddenly so ponderous
that settling it down is a little like asking Atlas
to move just a little,
just to make the weight bearable.
The sea is now boiling ahead of you.
It’s time for the next word.
Admit it. You are lost to this, lost to
the hot sugary drug
of not caring
where the word goes next
or about how the voice
scars around it.
Whenever the volcano stops pouring
and smoldering is home; wherever it stops
is when and where you can claim
the name you’re making of yourself.
You’re not ready for it yet though you can feel it,
a coal upon your tongue seeking its perfect fuel.
