“I have all the feelings”

do you have

an I love you is the right thing to say here feeling
a no need to say it feeling
a feeling like this will last feeling
a terrible mistake feeling

a late night hassled by drunks feeling
a someone walking behind you feeling
a lifetime of guarded feeling

a they’re following you in the store again feeling
a they’re shocked at how articulate you are feeling
a they are locking their doors when I pass feeling
a they don’t know that sometimes I wanna justify that
feeling

a meal behind the eightball hungry feeling
a this last food stamp won’t cover postage to my Senator feeling

a yacht purchasing feeling
a leveraged buyout feeling

a fucked again by the same two lovers feeling
a tuna sandwich lost in the bedclothes for a whole day feeling
a can’t get out of the bed for the restraints feeling

a Darfur feeling
a Palestine feeling
a Swedish camp massacre feeling

a there it is now death feeling
a stare the cop in the eyes and shoot back numbly feeling
a soldiers in the night again feeling
a that is what a drone sounds like son feeling

a New York state of mind includes sleeping rough near the Triboro feeling
a Boston sneers at me but I bought Boston Strong T-shirts anyway feeling

a Chicago Cubs feeling

a medications aren’t working feeling
a puppy is better at least for tonight feeling
a purchased love is only good for the first two minutes feeling
a whisky you’re the devil and I am anton lavey feeling
a seeds are exploding in the last joint I’ve got and she’s laughing at me feeling
a good god I am disgusting feeling
a good fucking god you turned out to be feeling
a damn myth you got me into mom feeling
a damn myth you turned out to be feeling

do you have
a stretched feeling
a pulled feeling
a yanked feeling
a torn feeling
a bull just shat feeling
a call and response feeling
a response to a call out feeling

do you have
a lazy feeling
a brainwashed feeling
a sheep feeling
a groping toward feeling
perhaps even
a shamed feeling
of your very own