Daily Archives: October 2, 2011

Entity

Mistaken for a bird at the window. Caused a blood chill.
Appeared to the children from the closet.

Was associated with the scent of lilacs in December.
Opened a window; said opening was dismissed as a forgotten action.

Married the sister of the local midwife when she was asleep.
Grew into the lungs of a goat and bleated along with Miles Davis played through headphones in the dark morning.

Invited to leave, and stayed,
stayed past my welcome time and wilted the flowers in the front room.

Scribbled a song in the folds of the husband’s frontal lobe
that rang in his workshop when he’d quit for the day:

I am mechanical,
you are flesh.
I am eternal,
you are fresh.
I am the retort,
you are the calm,
you are the sermon
rationalizing harm.

Went to the kitchen and left the cupboards open for the rats.  
Became a deity to rats and whispering centipedes.

Called a ghost and was exorcised.
Went on vacation in Buffalo and returned in two weeks.

Called a demon and was cast.
Went on vacation in the china closet, cracking the antique cordial glasses.

Called a delusion and was medicated.
Lived with that pretending to be dull brass banging.

When they moved away I stayed behind
but planted a postcard in their luggage that said: I win.

I won.  I won and opened windows and carried lilacs
and lay down before the rats and taught them to sing

like small trumpets in mean mean mouths
while we waited for the next intrusion.

 


What?

Long-nailed hand,
good for picking;
short nailed hand,
good for fretting.

The contrast between
is good for making people
used to symmetry uneasy.
I like that.

Double pierced ear
used to be good for
bothering people, now
means nothing.

Tattoos here and there,
all work-safe, all monochrome
and small:  see related reference
under “double pierced ear.”

What bothers people more maybe now
is my gut.  It bothers me.
It’s gonna kill me and
it gets in the way. Is it in the way

for you? How about
the gray in my beard or
head? Help me out here —
people call me now and then

to say we ought to get together
and talk. What gets in the way
that we never do?  Something
about me seems to…kill.

I won’t
hedge on that.  Friendship comes
to me to die and that’s before
I even speak. Is it the gut,

the hair, the ink, the rings,
the fingers, the finger nails,
the smoke, the face, the eyes,
the past, the future — what?

It was never this hard before.
We came, we spoke, we did
together well.  Not now.
I have to say it’s a little piece of hell.